warning: emo/jealous/insecure girl ahead

oyan kasi,  bs cyber-stalking mode! i actually befriended her just to confirm if there's something going on. kasi nahihinuha ko na meron e. elamonaman ako,

the ever suspicious, super selosa, overanalyzing cyber-stalker 
in the guise of 
a super friendly, ever supportive, martyr-martyran friend! 

ang hirap ng madaming alam. e kaso pano ba yan, tama nanaman ako! meron nga. pero wala pa naman don, pero parating na. si girl ang may hawak. ok. iyak na ko. >:'''(((

the more i get to know you, the more i feel less special. kaya nga kinagat ko na lang yung kaisa-isang chance na magkaroon ng stand sa buhay mo. i became your bestfriend. inisip ko na lang, ok at least ako may title! kayo wala! or wala pa. unless of course, sila rin!!! yknow... kahit na feeling ko hindi naman talaga tayo ganon, pero sabi mo eh. at least it gave me the assurance that i have a place in your buhay. kaya sige na nga, pwede na rin. if it's the only thing that would secure me as an important person in your life. at least even though i'm just one of the tons you've held hands with, kissed on the cheek, introduced to your family, and said i love you to, i managed to get (slightly) out of the bracket of being just someone you flirted casually with. at least diba. puro na lang at least. sabi nga dun sa nabasa ko, the moment you settle for something less than you deserve, you get even less than you settled for. wala, sabi lang.

but when it all comes down to it, the only thing that sets me apart from them is being your bestfriend. besides that, i'm no different from all of them. aaaaaaaaaaaaallllll of them. then naisip ko, if you hadn't proclaimed me that way, it must've been easier for me to forget you. i would've been just a regular friend, kahelera ni ano, ni ano, chka ni ano, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera!! leche! but i still chose this. hallerrrr.

now i'm scrapping the no-tropa-tropa-talo-talo rule. bwisit yan e, cos apparently kinain ko lang din. so much for trying to protect superfriendships! from now on, everything is case-to-case. ibig sabihin, depende! o kay linaw naman nyan.

ay shet bitter-bitteran!

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