patching up

i want someone to yell GET A LIFE in front of my face. if you notice, i've been blogging almost everyday since the christmas break... like i have a lot to tell when in fact nothing much is happening in my life. really. and i'm surprised that i actually managed to write something. hehehe.

oh this is going to be my last entry for the year! cheers to that.

since 2006 is going to end anytime soon i'm going to follow the bandwagon of people who write resolutions, acknowledgements and apologies. just for the mere pleasure of having something to blog about.

♥ new year's resolutions

1. i'll, hopefuly, quit biting my nails.
- actually during the vacation i've grown them! long enough for my taste but still short compared to others. i have short fingers and when my nails grow past them they easily catch dirt since there's no skin beneath it. i hate it when that happens so i always say it's better short and clean than long and dirty. and when it gets long i, out of a silly habit, bend them with my thumb until it cracks. then poof. they're gone once again and i have to swear, for the nth time, that i'll let it grow. so, in the name of this blog... i solemnly swear i'll TRY to leave my nails alone and mind my own business (of growing them).

2. stop procastinating.
- it's an illness! a lethal one that could kill your academic life!!! i'm struggling to keep it from getting into my genes and being passed on to my err... future kid. uggh. we all hate ourselves when we procastinate but what's better than warming up your braincells a bit before diving into a whirlpool of homeworks?

3. save $$$.
- where's money when you need it? unless you're filthy rich and arrogantly wealthy, i'd guess you've said that line at least once (or twice and more) in your lifetime. i swear i'm going to save half of my allowance every week to be able to accumulate enough money to buy a killer laptop.

♥ apologies

hehe. i know i've hurt someone one way or another but the thing is... i can't remember! weh. it's either *i've already said sorry or *i'm not aware i hurt someone. to all those i've bashed before (whom i've apologised to already), i don't think i deserve to give them a second apology. once is enough. don't get used to it. i'm just being fair and it's different from being generous. SORRY is a very sacred word to me, and when it comes out of my mouth i mean it! i don't just apologise because the ocassion calls for it.

either way.
heh. labo.

♥ thank you!

there's so much to be grateful for!! this year has been really eventful. yeah, to the point of me blogging almost everyday as if something noteworthy always happens. GOD is and always will be on the top of my credits list. in fact He's given me way too much optimism and inspiration to push through life regardless of its hostile way of welcoming me.

thanks to all the people who contributed to my graduation. i mean, to those helped me earn my diploma and not trip on the stage. those include... my friends, family, peers and counselors. mehn, you're the best. hi five!

thank you... mommy and daddy. i was the result of your love-making. lol. at least you love me and will always do. i love you too. aww. cheesy.

thank you... my sister! yeah terai! most of time i feel like you act so unlike your age, so childish but you've always been here for me. without you i'm lost. seriously. if you hadn't taught me beforehand the shortcuts from math building to humanities and from registrar's to the dorm, then... i'm dead. thanks for keeping my secret. my dear dear secret that shouldn't be spilled in the dorm.

thank you... my dear co-muses. we've proved ourselves better than sex. hahaha. thanks for all the laughter and joy. i laugh hardest when i'm with you. you're my cure!!

thank you... college friends. you taught me a lot. you see, i was an idiot when i came to the university, now i can safely say i'm a partially-learned woman (and will still learn some more). you're the reason why i still hadn't killed myself on the 3rd day of school. and you're also the reason i didn't cry when i got a 5.

thank you... dorm mates. you make me feel at home.

heh. basta thanks to everyone who has been part of my life. hah. how cliche.

and lastly, thank you Blogger for publishing this entry.

a toast to 2007.

each day has enough troubles on its own

i'm starting to feel really odd about myself. i wish instead of being a rotten engineering student i should've pursued my abnormal fancy for computers and took, against all odds, computer science. it's the only course i THINK i would enjoy despite its own antagonistic air. it's the only course i THINK i would appreciate even when professors kept on bombarding us with loops and strings to trip us over. it's the only course where GEEKS are given a new definition. they're not people who go to school with the weirdest clothing line and carry the heaviest books. GEEKS, in this department walk with effortless fashion and speak like geniuses. Coming from Einstein, "Great Minds Think Alike" and indeed, you cannot simply mingle with these people if you do not know their language... which make them seem higher than the rest of us yet so isolated from the real world. they secretly plot for world domination using the one thing most of us are illiterate in. Codes.

that's exactly how i want to spend my college life. it's the only place where looks are utterly deceiving.

i'm so confused. one day i'd say i really want to be a com arts student, then comp sci then business major... then journ. then fine arts. then... maybe i should be an out of school youth. heh. not likely but still. you don't know how detrimental it is to my wilting health to think about my futuuuuurrrreeeee.

do i even have one?

oh the mood

wee. nothing much. i just feel like blogging. like usual.

warning: rants and raves on this particular entry are extremely shallow. read at your own risk.

i'm not wearing my watch now. and i feel so weird and uncomfortable. i've grown accustomed to glancing at my right wrist every once in a while to check the time and now i've got nothing to depend on. now i have to cock my head to the left to keep sight of the wall clock and strain my neck with doing so. i know you know how it feels to lose something you're so fond of. i'm not putting in practical applications here. yeah but it feels wierd not to have a watch tied on your wrist.

i'm excited to draw. i bought 2 metallic pens awhile ago (pink and blue) and i'm just so eager to do another version of my playing-card sized bookmark. thing is, i forgot to buy a black pentel pen. grr. just imagine the coolness of it. pink and blue metallic pens on a black paper. i'm so excited.

i realized. Blue (don't give me that look) taught me one of the most important things i have to consider in life (aside from how to pitch a softball properly and how to hold the bat when you're on the homebase. ooh memories) and that is to 'live life to the fullest'. it has become my motto ever since i read it in her profile. weh. hehehe

it's weird not having your wallet around. but for me, it's weirder not having a watch.

brad pit is the 100th sexiest man on earth. i can't believe it. he could've made it to the top 10 but 100th? who are you kidding? perhaps they haven't watched Troy yet.

♦ ♥ ♠ ♣

that's actually an edited version. i dry-brushed it using photoshop to, hopefully, hide the erroneous mistakes i've made. like the face for instance. i haven't drawn a decent face since... i can't remember and i can't seem to draw a decent face anymore. hahaha. that's darna, if (how odd) you haven't realized. i just copied that somewhere. i can't upload it in devart for now because they won't let me! they say my browser is an outdated version already and i have to update! nye. sinungaling.

i just realized this last night. when an author starts to enumerate things in 1,2,3 he's not aware that his book is somewhat morphing into a teen novel. i'm nearly done with The Zahir - Paulo Coehlo. there's a part in the novel where he lists down the possible conversation topics he might come across while dining in with some important people. i swear he almost sounded like meg cabot. it was that part where he complained a lot about how uncomfortable it is to spend a night with people whom you barely know but should keep you company just because you're one of the most influential people in the world. apparently, just like everyone else in his shoes, he partly hates being a celebrity. well well well... just that part. his work is still magnificent though this particular novel didn't have that much effect on me.

next in line: Eleven Minutes. i've been hearing good reviews! i'm excited to read it, i'm just waiting to finish the zahir. theen... after Eleven Minutes i'll resume to completing reading the Harry Potter series. i'm on the 3rd book already. and it's the last i should read before i can finally say that i've read the whole bunch.

happy birthday mika!

the big and the bang

oh i love yesterday. barkada christmas party at hannah's! karlita and i were the earliest to arrive, hence we're the earliest to leave as well. i ate a lot, talked a lot and you know, laughed like a lunatic. i mean, they wouldn't mind! they're my friends! they know me! i'm really a monster in disguise. we played games, shared stories, took pictures, gave gifts and sang songs. mehn. i just love yesterday. in fact when we were eating we almost looked like 'the last supper' since we're 13 and complete. though i wouldn't want to put it that way, being the 'last' you know. wahahaha. my cheeks are so stiff right now from laughing, i think i'm starting to grow abs as well. wow. great. if we only have reunions everyday then probably by the end of the month i'll have the perfect abs! hahahaha. kagabi lang ulit ako natawa ng sobra ever since i entered college. e hello, may nakakatawa ba sa college????? aside from the oblation run? WALA.

let's go back to the other side of reality where there are homeworks to be done and clothes to be packed for the back-to-school curse we have to deal with. i certainly do not wish to go back to school yet. though it means having to meet your college friends once again, i know it wouldn't be as fun because meeting them would only mean talking about schoolworks, schoolworks and more schoolworks. haaay Lord, please help me.

ON THE BRIGHT SIDE. it also meant seeing your crush after a weeklong break. nah. i'm not as excited with seeing him but 'seeing him' sends little sparks to my heart so i might as well be glad. in fact, i'm more excited with watching Ryan Agoncillo on the big screen. i know it's gonna be so heart-shattering and painful but I'll get by. haha. ako pa. hahahaha

♥ ♥ ♥

adsense alert!! would you believe, i've reached $19.92 already! aww... keep on clicking the google ads guys!!

sometimes you have to risk disobeying your parents just to be with your friends. damn, right. my mom doesn't want me to go to hannah's house because someone told her it's dangerous to go there at night. i'm being stubborn here. i'm so bad, but i just can't miss it. come on, i've been waiting for this. i miss them.

ooohhh deeeaaarr, i have to watch Kasal Kasali Kasalo.... even if it means risking hurting my feelings in the process. you see, i've carried my extreme fancy for ryan agoncillo to the next level. for the first time, i dreamt of him. it was really nice, i even took a picture of him on my cellphone which, of course, will only exist in the forementioned dellusional part of my brain. but then again i have his picture in my cellphone! --- in my dreams that is. all i remember is him sitting somwhere near, talking to US. yeah, unfortunately... US means me and my sister. i'm lucky enough his fiance isn't there or else everything will be lopsided and disastrous. i'm not a flirt. i simply sat there as a fan, a wretched fan, a longing fan.... a psycho fanatic. we talked, though i can't remember and he's laughing. jeez, i swear i was melting at that time. ♥ hahaha.

alright. so Kasal Kasali Kasalo is currently on RANK 2 on the box office. Enteng Kabisote is still no.1. hmm... i have to watch. di bale na mag-isa!


happy christmas everyone! today's a very tiring day. but i love it. come on, like i have any reason to curse this season. first thing in the morning, like 12 midnight, terai woke all of us. yeah i was so sound asleep, it's the first time i slept early ever since i entered college and a light tug from my sister broke the record. i got pissed off, she opened the lights and it was blaring in front of my eyes. super bad wake-up call. but then she just came in to give our gifts. i have a new dictionary at last! i've been begging for it for years. thanks.

of course i went back to sleep. the following morning (or maybe a couple of hours later) we ate breakfast merrily, it's really typical there's nothing special on the table, then went to my aunt's grave for a short mass since today is her 40th death day. there were just a few of us plus a couple of policemen from my uncle's mobile unit. then we headed to my uncle's house for lunch. okay so pretty much we just ate, paid respect to the elders, gave gifts to youngsters then finally went to the rooftop to chill with my cousins. we drank wine then slept at the tent (yeah) under the mango tree (they didn't cut it down when the rooftop was made) and woke up after a few hours when our little cousin is already sueing us for terrorizing her playground. so we went out of the 'treehouse' and ate... again.

blah blah blah blah. weh. i felt guilty for those people i didn't greet this christmas just because i'm using unlimited text. haha. sorry. sa new year na lang. =)

o sigeeee... merry christmas ulit!

xmas rule #1: thou shalt not weigh more than thy refrigerator

yehey. i love this day. thank you Lord for granting my wish of a 'different' christmas! i met a very special friend today! si mannie!!! my bestfriend since grade 2! we haven't met in like, 5 freakin years and i was so happy when she surprisingly texted me that she's in Ever today! i was like, "weh? nasa Ever din ako!" hahaha. so meet meet. though it was a short encounter, i still loved that moment. it's not always that you meet a very special person! aww, she hasn't changed! i mean of course she's still tall, sexy and that charming. yeah and i was like so proud that i didn't look stunted beside her! hahaha. weh. i just love this day. and wait! there's more! if you call right now to greet me i'll be slashing off not 1! not 2! BUT 3 whooping days from your regular schooldays! which means your christmas vacation be extended for not 1! not 2! BUT 3 whooping days. believe me, i can do that.

call now!

aww. my sister's friend's boyfriend is just so unreal! he calls his girlfriend to BIBLE STUDY. where do you get someone as religious as that? too rare. she's so lucky. i never thought there exists a guy like that. just where do you find guys who pave heaven's path for their girlfriends? lol. sana may ganun pa for me!! wahahahaha.

cge cge.

merry christmas!

i'll stop the world and melt with you

the cure the cure. they're so good. i love their music. why hadn't i idolized them before?

haven't i told you there's a party upstairs? guess not. they're not noisy, that's NEW. but hey, i can hear the egyptian music background of my bellydancing cd! LoL. so this is, after all, a christmas-slash-workout-party. what the h. i can't believe i recieved gifts from my dad's agents. thanks. of course my favorite would be the bar of almond snickers which was mindlessly fed to my monster stomach the moment it was given to me. treat.

whew. i'm semi-hating myself for forgetting my wallet in the dorm. i should be out to the mall this week to buy and check out a few stuff but i'm temporarily broke due to my own negligence. you know what, i could sense this christmas will be boring. we'll get over the usual family reunion and food indulgence and later on realize that this is exactly what happened last year, except that we're fewer in number since some have died already and didn't make it to this season. i want something different. no, i DEMAND this christmas to be different. oh fate, let it be. i want a gift from someone unexpected. a greeting from an old old old friend. an unlikely visitor. perhaps just someone special to knock on our door is good enough. just spare me the usual preparations and expected highlights.

imagine. it's 3 days before Christmas. we're not traditional when it comes to this season, usually we just sleep it over and eat gloriously the next day. take New Year for instance, we don't buy fireworks, we don't even light up the whole house as superstition says... we just stay awake by midnight and watch the display of lights in our rooftop with utter admiration and awe. we just gape the whole time and when we feel sleepy already, we go down, close the lights and TRY to sleep. boring boring. it's the food the counts anyway.

redfox deskpod

i'm in love with another computer! venta5 is selling a RedFox Deskpod for 19,995! it's using an AMD Sempron 2800+. that's like an intel Celeron D. The package includes the usual redfox deskpod 17" flat monitor (available in different colors! hehe). dvd/vcd combo drive. 256mb memory. 80gigs hard drive. keyboard with customized computer shortcuts. speakers, duh, matching the color of your monitor. free webcam w/ speakers. i guess that's all. 20k lang!

but then come to think of it, operating system installion costs 6k at minimum and i want the xp pro so that's like 10k. computer table - 1k. printer, i'll get a 3k worth. and a patented antivirus costs 3k or more. AVR is 500. sheesh that's an additional 18500 to fully use your computer. mehn, that's like 40k already.

awww. nevermind. i still want my acer ferrari laptop!


ang hover

hehe. gets nyo? hang-over yan. hahahaha.

forget to tell... yesterday was ate karen's birthday! happy birthday!! yehey. so i was spared a bucks worth of dinner. tsk. i ate a lot last night. we had palabok, empanada, chicken and cake. hahaha. nagpainom pa si tita beth! wuhooo. wala wala... san mig light lang. walang kwenta. hahaha. my sister drank two bottles while i only drank one. as usual i went to sleep after watching a rosy life. haha. grabe super bloated! even though i slept late i still don't think i gave my intestines enough time to grind the food i mercilessly consumed so i woke up in the wee hours of the morning because i can feel my stomach churning. then i threw up. tapos i tried to go back to sleep. my head hurts a lot. hahaha. i had a very very good dream. it's not always that you dream about your crush, especially when you forgot to pray beforehand. hihihi

but then it wasn't a hang-over. di lang ako natunawan ng maayos. good thing i was able to take the math test pa. haaay.

tuesday, wednesday break my heart

i'm home! i'm home! i love this day! my three afternoon classes were postponed so that we can go home early for christmas! yehey. so. we had our first long test in math17. it wasn't too hard, except that i'm really a borderline idiot when it comes to factoring junk polynomials. i was stuck with one question but anyway, let's just hope for the best. eng1 was okay. i thought we're going to have a really long test about christmas trivias (lol. i even had a major recap on popular xmas songs) but she only left us to make a letter for santa. seriously, i don't believe in santa claus but for the heck of instructions i let myself dive into a child's brain and pretend to believe in the fat and generous old man who skips chimneys and parks reindeers on rooftops. i'd rather write to Jesus. then came the most depressing subject of all, chem16. oh dear. sermon the whole hour. he even asked us each to write an excuse letter for our 'poor performance' during the test. damn. if you we're in my place, or if you are in his class and you are forced to chase him and his so-called standards, everyday will be a 'poor performance'. damn right.

he's not really bragging about his glorious resume and his strict rule for excellence but i'm aching to point out that no amount of credentials can determine a "teacher's" soul. i don't know what's with him. but at the same time i know i have my faults too. i am disappointed at myself, for not meeting his standards and for spoiling his day with my lame excuses. mehn. i don't want to repeat chem16. waaah. wanted: tutor

terai went ahead of me so i am left to go home alone. good thing there's jonathan! yehey. so we ate lunch and rode the bus together. i dropped by megamall so we separated there. i was still groggy when i left the bus since i just woke up from my sleep. yeah, i had a dream. secret. hahahaha. i was supposed to do my christmas shopping this day. my plan is to just buy a pack of chocolates for everyone, like usual. kaso, i realized i left my wallet in the dorm and i only have my purse which only contains enough money for the fare. so ayon. enjoy naman. terai is still in the mall by then so we just went home together. i'm not sad. actually i'm thankful. imagine, i was spared an hour of walking pointlessly looking for bargain chocolates. e diba masakit legs ko? so thank you Lord. i just hope nothing fishy happens to my wallet when i come back... next year. hehehe.

aww. i feel so fulfilled as a writer. as a fic writer. err... a slashfic writer. thanks a lot. whenever i open my mailbox and see forwarded reviews from my latest and FIRST completed story after 3 years, i feel so happy. i know it doesn't compare to those super well-written romantic accounts of harry and draco but you know! the fact that some people liked it and actually went close to crying is heartwarming enough! i think i could go on crushless for a month if i continue to get reviews. which reminds me, i'm not crushless anymore. balik sa dati. sha parin! hahaha. okay lang, i'm not expecting it to go further.

have you seen the hp5 trailer? harry potter has bangs. horrible bangs and very short hair. it's the worst he looked. i don't think i could go on picturing happy endings for him and draco because of those baaaannngggsss. for me the best that he looked was in the 3rd installment, prisoner of azkaban. of course draco malfoy always looks good. no sweat trying. hahaha.

monday you could fall apart

yehey. i'll be going home tomorrow at last! good thing our make-up lab was re-scheduled or else i'll be cursing the whole day through. i won't be going home with my sister because she has other plans. i mean, she's going home with someone else that stricly requires no sister around. booo. it's okay. we've talked about it. haha. i'll look for someone else...

the chem16 long test was a killer. but i'm glad i'm not the only who found it utterly tormenting and emotionally demoralizing. it was depressing (not much to me since i've faced bigger depressions). it was fucking hard. i don't think we're of fault here. i mean, take it from a random peanuts quote. 'just when i discovered life's answers, they changed the questions.' exactly. yeah. but that's not my point. lol. i'm not even trying to imply one.

so. i'm crush-less once more. i figured out he's changed. and i'm not liking it. besides, i heard news (it's more of a gossip actually) that he's courting someone. ouch diba. it's hard not to care. but i won't pry. i'm not that curious.

besides. i still have ryan agoncillo lingering in the dellusional part of my brain. as much as i'd like to make a scandal in his wedding and tear their relationship apart, i know i can't... for a hell lot of reasons. but damn, he looks so good when he's with her. blooming. however unsuitable it is to describe a guy as such. whew. good luck na lang.

my arms and thighs hurt. hahaha. our p.e. yesterday was exhausting. i realized that i measured my heart rate wrongly. that's why it's unbelievably high to the point of me wanting to believe i'm too clumsy for the bench-step test. ayon. ulit ulit. hmm.

i miss my friends already!! can't wait for our christmas party! yehey.

4 days to go

before my christmas vacation officially starts...

we just came back from the mall. actually, church first then mall. ^^;; we bought a lot of things. err... it's my mom who bought a lot of things, in fact. as consolation for her not getting her MDRT award for this year. yeah, and when we talk about things that compensates for my mom's terrible mood... we do it in the appliance center. we, or she, bought a water dispenser, another dvd player and another tv (i paid half the tv's price as promised). good thing Sharp is in a generous mood this season, we also got a free tv rack and an mp3 player... which in turn i gave to my sister as a month-early birthday gift. whew. we decided not to buy the magic mic since.. err.. my parents realized it's not that useful. i mean, if you don't know the songs, you're stuck. there's no background singer to support you.

i saw a shirt in freeway, the tagline is

'i'm in love
i don't care
HE --->
is mine
i don't share.'

yeah. with the arrow. hahaha. i would love to have it but a.) it's too expensive for a regular tee b.) i don't think anyone would want to walk with me if i wear it and c.) i'm not exactly in love like the shirt says. i just like the tagline but it doesn't really apply to me. hahaha. it's not the right time, yet. wahehehehe...

so. i hate indulging myself on a sunday, especially when i know we're having a test the next day. you know me, i see things in the scale of karma. if i become too happy right now, karma would get back at me the next day. eh my long test kami sa chem16. and i haven't studied yet. yeah. i am that lazy. don't worry. eventually i'll change. let's just hope payback time doesn't happen between 10-11am tomorrow during our test.

calories! i ate 4 blocks of belgian chocolate and another irresistable drink from starubucks. i'm not on a diet, i just hate myself.

now i'm penniless.
wish me luck. on the exam, i mean.

adsense alert!

i checked my google adsense report and it says i've earned $10.05 already! yehey. thanks for the clicks guys. but you see, i'm still confused with the payment system. i'm so stupid when i wrote my sister's name on the payee field. i should've written my dad's or mom's. that way i won't be bothered with having my sister acquire a TIN and SSS number. oh yes, it's required. and mind you it's not tax free. which means my 'future' $1000 dollar earning will be deducted approximately 12%? not sure. anyhow. matagal pa yun, after 5, 10, 15 years perhaps? =/

i'm just happy. hehehe. i met a new friend, his name is kim. we met at the bus. actually, he's also from u.p. hehehe. wala, he's just so.. er.. articulate to say the least. at first i was just ignoring his comments about the radio. then he starts to sing, by the way the radio station plays classic songs. david pomeranz, queen, sinatra... and he knows them all. as in ALL. consecutively. that's when vianne and i start to contain our sniggers. i was just too overwhelmed, it feels like he's memorized all the songs. seriously, i can't hide it. rudeness aside. that's when i decided to be civil to him, so that i won't sound rude laughing at him for knowing the songs. in fact, i was singing bohemian rhapsody too. and you know, we're in a chorus. hahahaha. ayon befriend befriend. then we get to know each other. he's a DOST scholar pala, and we both have a common friend or classmate. small world. but then he's okay. he's spontaneous, he doesn't run out of things to say. and we're amused that we both like retro music. he even offered to give me a cd of his own collection of retro music and says, 'consider it as a token of appreciation'. as in. how generous. but i kindly refused, seeing that he'd bother walking from men's dorm to raymundo gate at a sunday evening just to deliver a cd as a token of appreciation? hehehe.

then we dropped my megamall. brownout, so most stalls are dark and some are even using candles. we went to the department store to finally look for my sister's jacket. we spotted a really nice lee jacket. unfortunately, it won't fit her. she's so frustrated. i would personally consider buying the jacket for myself because it fits me well, but hell how would she feel then? -_-;; i decided not to.

then we went home, it's around 11pm when we finally arrived.

home sweet home.

sutek's tomb

i'm starting to enjoy the agony of college life. which means i'm leaning on the masochistic side. hahaha. i don't like torturing myself but at the same time, if i'm not feeling bad i won't feel the presence of people who try to make my day feel better. dibaaaaa? i'm not talking about anyone in particular. i just figured being optimistic is the best way to get through life emotionally unharmed. though i know it's impossible to get through it unharmed. haha. what is life? time? our philo1 class is boring holes in my brain. there are so many simple questions that are so hard to answer simply because it's self explanatory. in math, it's the simplest term. in chem, it's a pure substance which cannot be broken down into simpler forms. that's what make it so hard to explain, it's too simple i'm left speechless.

look! i've changed! i don't hate a lot of people anymore. compared to highschool where i keep grudges and secretly bastardize their identities in this blog. ay wait. last night, a friend asked me (through text) about our math homework. so i replied, i typed the freakin [R, +, x] [Q, x, +] [Z, +, x] [Z2, +2, x2] ... up to ten operations just so he could do his homework. imagine how painstaking it is to type operations on your cellphone. but he skipped math this morning. nainis talaga ko. grrr... bahala ka. i hate people who are slacking off, nevermind how smart you are.

dibale. oi, di ako galit. naiinis lang. reward reward. megamall later with terai! i can't wait. oh there's more, a basic burger from bordo's (which is the size of a large one from brother's burgers) and a slice of chocolate cake from mernel's. haay. make my day. make my day.

ok rin pala dito sa space hub. the last time i surfed in primelink solutions, i downloaded a couple of songs from limewire then suddenly when i was about to log out their norton antivirus popped on the screen and warned me that they spotted a trojan virus in the system. shoot talaga. yan tuloy, nahiya na ko bumalik don. lol.

that's why i'm here. still have class, bye.

friday i'm in love

soundtripping at 'primelink solutions'. what an odd name for an internet hub. i'm starting to like 'the cure'. where do you find a public computer node with a LIMEWIRE? the best talaga primelink solutions. yak, endorser? hahaha. e wala. i love it here. everytime i sit here i becoming more determined to save for my acer ferrari because the computer tables are embelished with the ferrari logo. o, beat that! haha. flat screen pa. they're using an AMD Athlon processor. i think it's better than intel. ehehe. heh, ewan.

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the hottest thing

if i can afford it, i'd save for an Acer Ferrari Laptop. too lazy for a picture. just google it. it's the hottest laptop ever. yeah, it's not the newest but it's the coolest i've ever seen (in a magazine - subject to change)! i love the sleek black plate with the Ferrari logo at the center and the red highlights at the sides. i would be the happiest person alive if i get it. though it's doesn't come in with an intel processor it still pays that it has 1 gig RAM (which is upgradable to 2 gigs. but come on! 1 gig is more than enough). i'm talking about super multi-tasking. then 100 gigs DDR. now i'm into super memory.

hello santa claus, if you're not dumb enough, you'll get what i mean. thanks.

the bus ride was unusually peaceful even though we're stuck in the usual highway traffic. maybe because i ate a basic burger from bordo's! haha. it could actually compete for brother's burgers. hmm.

i feel good. that's about it. mostly because i managed to finish our killer eng1 homework. whenever i open my notebook and read the instructions i could imagine the pages turning into a howler shouting at me to spend a week in the library and manually count the card catalogs or else get a 5. fyi, i already got a 5 in one of our exercises. good (great, actually) thing it wasn't recorded because i wrote my name in the wrong format. in her class it should ALWAYS be last name, given name, middle initial. otherwise you'll get a deduction for not following instructions. or in my case it won't be recorded. how lucky of me.

boom tarat is everywhere. i hear it from my classmates. i see it in sorrority initiations. i witness it in org reportings. and most of all, it's ever present in the congested lanes of commonwealth avenue. why? the buses are honking to its monotonous tune. while it made me laugh to think that at least the driver has a sense of humour, it's not at all pleasing to hear. one earsplitting hornblow is enough to get us out of the lane and at the same time damage our eardrums but why turn it to a song? i remember years ago, the famous bus hornblows will be to the tune of the standard beeping sound of a monotone nokia phone. wahahahaha. people are really inovative. i understand, sige.

haaay. ang saya saya ko talaga. i realized, i have to quit telling my sister about my crush because she tends to be too loud at times and i don't want people suspecting. i don't even tell my closest classmates about it for the same reason. which made me think that i better keep it to myself. it's not going to last anyway.

one more thing to be happy about. we only have one chem16 lab this week! hahaha that spared me 3 hours of living hell! i personally think lab gowns should be colored black instead of white, it's more appropriate since we are most prone to death inside the laboratory.

mr. brightside

i went online yesterday just to relieve myself from depression. apparently, when i was already done with my blog entry, the connection became super slow and my system has gone bonkers. sad to say but i just have to leave it as it is. good thing i've already downloaded enough songs to refresh my mp3 player. mostly josh groban.

hmm. but i'm okay now. i need not dwell on negative things, especially that i know it's gonna affect my whole week.

so first thing yesterday morning we had a quiz in math17. it was fairly easy but i was too careless. then as usual, i came in late in eng1. (almost) everybody does anyway. then i rushed to my chem16 class only to find out they've already started taking the quiz! haha. i panicked, really panicked that a.) i didn't understand the questions b.) i didn't answer even one question correctly and c.) i passed the wrong type of paper. hahaha.

after the horrible morning, i felt myself drained of all the optimism in my spiritual bank. i was so down the whole day that i was momentarily drawn back to my usual i'm-not-meant-to-be-here bickerings, which normally stops after realizing that i'm not the only one facing a wretched academic life despite gazillion hours of sticking my nose in a text book. whew. but like the Bible says, and like how i always remind myself, God won't give me something i can't handle.

yeah, it's like saying God won't give me a mug of hot tazo tea without a handle. but when it happens and i have no choice but to take the divine mug of tea, i am left with one option and that is to grasp the mug with my bare hands and burn my palms. but you see, eventually the tormenting heat will go away and after that i could, at last, share the afternoon in a blissful tea party with God. hahaha. weird.

during my second afternoon class, i was puzzled when i entered the classroom and found not a single soul lingering about. i panicked. i asked some people outside if someone stuck a note somewhere saying that there are no classes or that we have to transfer classrooms but found no definite answer. i was already headed downstairs when i recalled our teacher said we're having classes at the basement. so i skipped steps to reach the basement and found out it was non-existent. the building doesn't have a basement and i only realized that when i have already toured the whole first floor and found not one staircase that would lead me further below. haaay. good thing someone told me that i should be in the other building. so yun. -_-;;

the more i get bored, the more i do doodleworks. my current experimental style is pointilism. i've been doing simple shapes in my philo notebook and a couple more in my scratch papers. whenever i decide not to dwell much in studying from my lessons, i reach out for a ballpen and start drumming it erratically on a paper to err.. produce an image. haha. i only considered mastering it when sir dabalos asked us about the concept of pointilism which he compared to atoms... blah blah blah. i'm not interested. but it gave me the idea so, thank you.

come closer Friday.

cheers to the fruit of thy boredom

that is where i spent most of the time during my first 2 weeks in the dorm. i used a torn piece of graphing paper and used the infamous and unoficial campus ballpen, HBW. hahaha. it's the only thing i could do right other than make myself look like a stoned fish reading our chem16 lab manual. i swear, the lab is killing me. everytime i enter room A-127 and put on my lab gown i feel like a prisoner being held on an electric chair to die. luckily, i'm still alive. so wish me luck.

we just came back from sm north. hehehe. my dad decided to finally buy a new printer/scanner/copier because he's been having dillemas sending documents abroad through scan and our loser 3rd hand xerox centre gave up on us with a big blow. i understand. it died a natural death and its death only paved way to a new and better beginning in the identity of a newer and more powerful scanner. we bought the hp photosmart c3180. like the previous, it's also a 3in1. ayos. bagong scanner! so buena mano yang artwork na yan!

and it includes a free cheap looking adidas cap with the hp invent logo at the back. no thanks... but i'm wearing it now.

aww. i'm inspired to draw even more! yehey.

long weekend!

-i'm home! yehey. the long wait is over!

- at last. i've uploaded the last chapter of my fic. whew. ayos. no more nosebleeds! but on the dull side, there are still 2 in-progress fics to be continued and i haven't got the slightest hint on what to do with them. hahaha... maybe when the 5th harry potter movie arrives i'll be working with it. maybe...

- for the first time. i tried reese's peanut buttercups. it was nice but i easily got over the hang of it, it's too sweet.


such a short week. we just had three days of classes. tuesday afternoon after the chem16 lab... i went back to the dorm then out again to hang out with lau. great day. we are maximixing the uv rays of the noontime heat sitting on a sizzling cement bench of freedom park. it's the only day i let go of myself like a hyperdriven rabbit. i was so happy that day. only she and my sister understands why. there are two reasons, i got a good grade on our first math17 quiz and the other is something strangely minor yet it kicks me way up to the moon. hehehe

the irony of my sched. after psych i have philo. nakakabobo.

if there's one subject i want to be chucked out of my reg. form it would be chem16. the lectures are okay (according to my classmates) but to me it's not. it's boring holes in my brain. i'm not a science enthusiast. i don't understand why i don't get it. it's very simple (sabi nila). these were the days i wished i graduated at a science highschool. these were also the days i felt really stupid about myself. that i couldn't stick a simple notion in my brain.

business mgt.+legal mgt.+journ.+fine arts.+comp. sci.+comm arts. = chem. eng.

o sige nga. prove.
happy birthday nez!!!

this too, shall pass

i deleted the last 2 entries. i don't know why! hahahahaaa...

i don't know how to re-start another entry about my nonsense babbles on my first week as a college student. this week has been really eventful, in a sense that everything is new. even what i'm feeling right now is new! and i'm thankful for it. why? because if i hadn't been feeling this positive heart fluttering emotion then i would've killed myself on the third day of school. yeah.

wednesday is hell for me. mainly because of the block meeting. it was totally uncalled for, not to mention useless. i just don't see the sense in having a block. i was just curious about the thing so i asked my friend.. blah blah... which ended in me joining her block. mehn. i hate it. not because of the people but because of the schedule. 2-3pm is my favorite sleeping time and the freakin block meeting took it from meeeee! and i haven't stuck my things in my bag so after the block meeting i have to rush to the dorm because i still have classes. and by rush i mean trip over a few stones and blister my toes. jeep is not in my vocabulary.

by the end of the day i have to buy a pack of band-aid to cover up the hideous twerp that practically murdered my foot. damn. i need decent slippers.

but on the bright side, even though the whole week is full of cramming and leg killer escapades, i feel extremely light hearted and err... fluttery? wahahaha. i'm not motivated with my studies, much worse... i'm not inspired with my subjects. come on, i realized the course is NOT for me because i'm a not math wiz and chemistry bores me but somehow, i can't afford to leave. ewan, someone's lightly tugging me back. sana lang tuloy tuloy na...

let's leave the campus.

-i haven't uploaded the last chapter of my fic, For Always. simply because i'm still hopeful that it will still get reviews. read it! it's in my profile here. maybe next week i'll end it.

-ADSENSE ALERT: i've earned $1.43 already! keep on clicking the google ads above. just click, you don't need to purchase anything. there's no harm in clicking! to refresh you a bit, i am being paid for your clicks. it's around $0.1 - $15 per click depending on the ad and when it has reached a certain amount, i guess around $100 or $1000... google will mail me the check!!! hehehe. so keep on clicking!!!!

-i just finished reading a one-shot harryXdraco. michi gave me the link. it was great! one of the best one-shots i've read!! i haven't gotten over harryXdraco. in fact, i am still writing about them! even in my busy schedule.

-i bought 2 new books yesterday. which resulted in me having no savings at all for this week. they're tuesdays with morrie by mitch albom and the zahir by paulo coehlo. yehey. i'm still looking for eleven minutes. damn.

-i've been drawing a lot in the dorm too! if you see me on the chair with piles of books beside me, props lang yun. i told you, i'm not motivated enough to study. lest i always tear a graphing paper from my math17 notebook and doodle. it's my only stress relief. when i'm done filling the whole page. i'll scan it for my devart account! yeah... hahaha.

ayos. that sums it all.

bittersweet symphony

i'm 16 now! yeah, two days ago pa. nothing special. just my usual birthday. got a few gifts, of which i'm so grateful of because like i demanded, they have to be useful. hehehe.

justin timberlake will be hosting this year's mtv european music award, damn. and i can't watch. damn damn. i'm dying to find out who the geek is in the music video of paris hilton's nothing in this world. he's so cute. his grin? it's stuck in my head.

oh, i just finished writing my harry potter fic. a 10 chapter 47 paged fic starring draco malfoy as a vampire and harry potter as our usual recessive abused kid. haha, you should be used to me mentioning harry potter slash every once in a while. don't sue me, you have no right.

i don't think i'm fully prepared for college yet. i'm afraid that after 7 months of being academically inactive, i won't be able to absorb the lectures. i'm just scared that i might have turned myself into a dumbhead over the past months. mehn, screw them all.

but on the bright side, i'll think about it later.

harry potter can kiss my a**

yesterday was great. i won't be going out as often anymore come second sem. i have to study you know, make that real hard. i won't be indulging myself in err selfish treats and luxurious escapades (like i've had one. haha) i have to study. i can't always ask my parents for gimmick money especially that they know i go out a lot. hahaha. when i get my allowance i'll make sure i'll save for my own craves. like coffee. and a decent schoolbag.

we were supposed to go bowling last night but there was a competition so the lanes are fully booked. it's okay, i haven't touched a bowling bowl, let alone step on a bowling alley, ever since forever. and i didn't know you have to wear at least a pair of socks to play. so we just went to watch a movie, The Covenant. err, i'll write more about it in the 'movies' section. later.

oh mehn, the guys were HOT. and i mean sooo hot. the title of this post is also our quote for the day. whoever said that? ooooh, it came from one of the ipswitch sons of the covenant, who coincidentally has blonde hair. very draco malfoy-ish. i couldn't stop gigling on my seat when he said that. the lipsmack between chase and caleb was also a bonus. great, my weird homosexual fetish has leaped a thousand steps. to hell.

dear dear. i'm not anymore interested in 'harry'. you know, the guy from the church. i'm getting tired of seeing his back. yeah, always his back. why does he have to sit at the front, always? i'm not getting a good view of him. so screw it, i'm more than happy to resume to my usual grayscale blur lovelife. yak, it's not even love.

good things happen when you light up a foooooortune. you know that cigarette commercial? i wonder why cigarette commercials never change. it's been ten years and i've been hearing the same song and warning forever.

a thousand reasons to thank God. the proof-read version of my 2 fics has arrived. i'm so happy. i thought i couldn't simply take one's word for it. but damn, they're all working! it's like having your manuscript edited by cheerful editors then published by scholastic! haha, dream on. but it feels that way, especially when you finally get a good feedback. make that feedbackS.

haaay. this month's a blast. every week someone from the barkada celebrates her birthday! karla-7, me-16, jami-22, nez-30. nice, party the whole month. lol, ako lang di maghahanda! hahaha. and that's the reason why mom is reprimanding me against going out. come on, i'm just making the most of my 7 month break! no regrets.

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i don't know what's becoming of this blog lately. so please please... give me a click. you know, i wanna get rich! yeah yeah. if you must know... i just (duh) subscribed to google adsense in hopes of earning money from my sort of virtual bank account. the price per click depends on the percent commission the advertisers pay to google so we cannot really tell how much a click is worth. but mehn! now i know how important a click is! a click could be worth 15 bucks at the most. and according to my research when you reach $100 google will mail you a check. oh jeeez, $100 pretty much sums to 5,000 pesos here so err.. click away.

go ahead, it wouldn't hurt to do some charity and point your mouse over whatever's written in the ad above. and if you love me, click it more than once, twice, thrice (if it's counted). it wouldn't hurt would it?

come on! please! it works this way, google sort of spiders (that's a verb) this blog and put ads related to the site content. yah so... they're relevant! i just don't think this blog has a 'theme'. maybe that's why it kept showing random 'huh?' ads.

HARRY POTTER should be showing soon. i love harry potter. and draco malfoy. and tonks. actually, i'm halfway through re-reading chamber of secrets. hehehe. i, err, i don't know what else to say. is it legal to advertise your ad? mehn. sorry.

scabbers in the house

here's a confession. when i first tried friendster, i was dead set on searching for my crush. when i found him, he became part of my network... then my bulletin went boom! i was like flooding the whole system with what i call 'bored games' or those silly little interview forms disguised as surveys that no one really tallies. the main point is to actually get my crush read my bulletins and get to know me. it's a simple way of doing pacute without him knowing. hahahaha. but you can never really tell...

but now, i do bored games for the sole reason of entertaning myself and wasting what millisecond is left of my internet card.

sometimes friendster bulletins can be a bit too annoying. but i don't mind. hahaha i was once a bulletin freak you know.

there's a stupid little rodent in the basement trying to cross to the bathroom. eew, i have no interest in chasing it so whenever the stupid little rodent squeaks and cautiously moves its way to the bathroom i sshhht! and the stupid little rodent will scramble its way back.

kaso rats aren't as stupid as i though they were, the smart little rodent (after failing numerous attempts to get past me) devised a new strategy to avoid my menacing ssshht!s. and just now, i didn't notice its filthy little toes run past me and behind the trashcan until i heard the ruffling of the plastic bag carelessly littered on the floor. now i know.

he's in the bathroom now.

mission accomplished

wahehehe. i feel very productive today. after finishing the laundry and hanging them dry under the scorching afternoon heat, i scrambled my way to the basement to continue writing my fic. you know, i really make it a point to seize the moment inspiration takes over. because it RARELY happens. so after a couple (lot) of hours of sitting and staring at a new microsoft word document and feeling blood oozing from my nose, i finally worked my ass on chapter 8.

finally. damn. it's ending soon! haha i'm enjoying writing it but i'm being pressured! haha, and to think i have two more fics to continue.

i'm so grateful for jonadark. she's currently beta-reading one of my works. i'm just so happy, you know, finally my stupid grammatical errors will be ironed clean. hahaha. i just can't imagine reading a very clean composition of mine. salamaaaatt.

duchess of sade

happy birthday karlita! i love you!!! haha, pakabait ka bestpreend. hahaha

congratulate me for i have already written 33 pages of harrydraco. or in a more gross point of view, 33 pages of homosexual drama. hahaha, i can't believe myself. it's the longest composition i've ever written, longer than my 30 paged term paper about the third eye last year na super redundant kasi i'm an unresourceful researcher especially with things that spooks me. i don't even know why i picked the subject.

anyhow, yesterday terai and i went to greenhills to look around. my main agenda is too look for a red kipling knapsack imitation and buy a gift for karlita. while my sister's to-do is to secretly hunt a red watch for my birthday. and because she's an accomplished captain obvious, i found out. hahaha. malas nya.

for our merienda (haha pati banaman to?) we had 2 donuts each and a baby-z zagu. which we sweat(ed?) blood and grime for! the zagu, i mean. kasi, when we bought the donuts, we saw a trashcan with an empty regular zagu plastic cup in it and because we're big zaguwhores, we looked for the solitary zagu stall in the whole greenhills shopping center. we asked the same information girl twice but we still got lost. good thing manong janitor came to the rescue! he must've notices our already swelling toes and (heavily) perspiring underarms so he cheerfully gave us the RIGHT directions while cheerfully sweeping the walkway clean. so we walked faster, clutching desperately to our donuts in hopes of fighting the temptation of eating them without something to drink.

at last, amidst the horde of unimart shoppers we spotted the only small yellow stall with blue-capped tenders at the far end of the grocery. good Lord. whattarelief. whew.

i found a kipling bag! but just like before (with the red topshop wallet) i lost interest in it. from a whooping 4,500 down to a haggle-worthy 550, pwede na! but the redness is dull-er. haha ang arte o. ayoko na. hahaha. i'd rather buy the one worth 5 grand.

then we hopped (hop talaga!) to fully booked to buy books (duh). i was supposed to buy all american girl and harry potter 2 but my money's not enough (like always) so we went to national bookstore instead. i bought harry potter 2 (chamber of secrets) and stainless longganisa (by bob ong). dapat gift ko ung stainless longganisa kay karlita but i missed the fact that he's read all of bob ong na pala (haaay sayang). ok lang, akin na lang yun.

hmmm so from 1pm to (quarter to) 6pm my sister and i tired our feet of walking. I could almost feel my leg rip off. however that's possible. it was a goooood day. a (very very) gooood day. now i know why i shouldn't complain that i've been experiencing a lot of (very very) good things lately. it's my birth month today! you're the month! hahaha

parentheses (however necessary) is irrelevant.

dance of the freaky circles

haha. last night was fun. we're not complete but yeah, it was fun. we were noisy and uhm, fun. the chicken barbeque tasted great. i love it, minus the price.

so early this morning, my sister and i bolted upright from the bed with mom's furious bellow. it's always like that, every sunday, we're too lazy to get up and mom would always serve as our alarm clock. one with a dysfunctional snooze. so we went to church, i forgot my bible. but i saw ehem, harry, far at the front with his usual spiked glory seated beside what i assume is his mother. unfortunately, we didn't exit through the fire exit (where we usually leave) so i never had the chance to walk side by side with harry with all the people squeezing up the space to themselves and eventually bringing us closer. hahahaha. meeehn! but on the bright side, we still met on the way out. which made me think that the hand of fate is really working. yeah right. if you must know, we don't know each other. we just have this hmm, neurological connection, or baka ako lang. but still, i can feel it. hahahaha.

i thought we're going to the mall today. unfortunately we're not. no money eh. and it was funny that my parents admitted the reason why we couldn't visit my lolo in the cemetery is because we don't have money to pay the graveguard. hahaha. what a lousy excuse but then again, as one text message says, "save yourselves from the traffic of going to cemeteries to visit your departed loved ones. rather, ask them to visit you. it's more practical and meaningful."

you know what, i get the point. thank you.

i watched 'it started with a kiss' awhile ago. oh, giddy me. mandarin flicks do flip. sometimes i don't know what's up with me that even at a short span of time i can write something about what happened and make it a big deal. and even add a lot more supporting gibberish to prolong the story. hahahahaha...


i am totally consumed with what i'm reading right now. i was suddenly driven offtrack with my sasunaru cravings but i guess it's baaaacccckkkk! hahaha, i remember this tagline i saw in tv - "readers are leaders". naaah, i beg to disagree. people who read a lot don't have time to lead, they'd rather sulk in the corner with a book than give orders to people who won't cooperate. i'll leave that to the socialites.

there are currently two things hyping me up today. 1) tomorrow i'll be, hopefully, spotting harry in church. i should get punished for taking thy sacred place for granted but on the other hand it's the only thing keeping me from sleeping. damn damn bad girl. 2) i want to go to the mall. what? again? i don't get tired of malling. i think it comes in naturally. i have no money, be warned.

so, i'm taking my choices. i want to save the money i have to buy chamber of secrets and all american girl in fully booked tomorrow. that is, if i don't spend it for tonight's dinner (hope it's free). big if. now why can't i just ask my parents for money? oh because we're currently at number 12 starving street, poverty-ville subdivision, moneyless quezon city, third world democrat philippines. it sucks not to have money when you need it.

i'm scared of exhausting 'all the good things' right now. i'm so happy that sometimes it feels wrong already. like i'll never know when karma's going to take it all away. i was hoping panaman to save all my good luck for college because that's where i'll definitely need it most. hahaha.

i need balance. oi, i'm not bragging that i've been receving too much blessing, heck if you consider doing the laundry for a whole sem a blessing, go ahead. i just need to feel both poles, that's why. i want to be happy but at a later time feel bad about something. you know, balance. that happens a lot in highschool. haha, i'm not one of those who wants to feel complete hapiness like everyday is good. it makes me feel inhuman to not suffer for a long time.

pero diba ang weird nga naman kung biglang super okay lahat? parang, weh? may mali!

that's what i'm scared at. i don't want all the piled up misfortunes in my life pour itself when i enter college. waaaaaahhhh.

this is the first time i felt wrong for being happy. hahaha.

heyhey, i'm done reading the Odd Brain. details in 'books'.

some people want it all

good day. haha i think i'm jinxed not to have a successful website forever. i just merged my website to my blog. haha, i'm finding it hard to 'commit' myself to updating for the sake of 0 visitors. hahahahaha. it's my 4th website. come on, and i toiled over that navigation at the top!!!! geee, whattapain in the ass.

again, we went to mall of asia awhile ago. hahaha and this time i guess i could proudly say that i can manage myself not to get lost inside. i found the ideal school bag i've been looking for. it's a big red mojo-like knapsack from kipling. and the damn price? a whooopping 4,500 (approx). -_-; hurts. tsk.

but on the bright side after going to mall of asia we headed to greenhills. it's a good thing mom's clients works everywhere, especially in malls. that way we could tag along and tire ourselves in therapeutic escapades. and you see, we've already toured 6 different malls this week and we haven't bought anything bigger that what could fit in a regular sm department store plastic bag. whattashame.

okay lang. i'm not used to buying a lot of stuff anyway. i'm more of a one-expensive-item-buyer rather than your usual impulsive buyer who buys everything but uses nothing. hence, i save.

i swear i'm going to look for a kipling imitation in greenhills. but if by some antagonistic air i fail to do so, haha, i'll save 5000 for a freakin school bag. tsk. or maybe not. haha

come on, my birthday's coming!

the big scoop

haha thank you mika for the breaking the news to me!

wuhooo. allow me to hop around like a joey, run around like a dog, and waddle around like penguin because ryan philippe and reese witherspoon are OVER. lemme repeat that for you, OVER. O-V-E-R.

hmmm. i'm happy. really happy but there's a part in my heart that hates the divorce as well. ryan cheated, how disgusting. but you know, i still love him. like a deranged fan. and who's the flirting tramp? i forgot her name, it begins with an A. seriously, i forgot and i can't seem to find the webpage because i forgot the search strings i typed and our history is quite skrewed up. and for crying out loud, A does(n't) stand for Arianne. hahahahahahahahahaaa

and honestly, i have grown quite fond with reese on my tv screen and i couldn't bear myself adjusting once more for another girl. unless it's me, your hyper mrs.philippe wannabe.

alright, 1 ryan down. 1 to go!

ooooh, i can actually see the ryan agoncillo - judy ann santos break up in the headlines. that would be so sweet. or maybe not. i hate acting like a big jealous fan villain here. but i do enjoy being the villain. especially to our maid. hahaha

early birds eat early worms

awooooooo? happy holloween!

from 100 mbps i am now back to the super slow 46.6 kbps internet connection. -_-;; can't enjoy my youtube without the infuriating loading buffers. grr...

yesterday, terai and i left for yupi elbi. we are to spend the night there so that we'll be the early birdies during my registration the next day, that is today. indeed we are the 2nd to the earliest birds arriving 30 minutes before the registrar windows open at 8. i skipped the pre college orientation that day because it''s scheduled during the afternoon and we do not plan to stay any longer since we have 'plans'. hahahahaha...

so. i finally got a taste of college life. i went to a net cafe in front of the dorm and i was super enthralled by the computers. big big screen, fast fast connection and cool cool monitors. plus, the usb ports are at the front of the cpu frame so i won't have any problems sticking my flash drive at the rear end. good bye diskettes. the main highlight of my netscapade last night is youtube. i watched, for the first a time, A LOT of harry/draco video clips without the annoying buffer pauses! yehey.
i slept in my sister's roomate's bunk and mind you, i had a gooood gooood sleep because it was coooooolllldddd.

the next day, that is today, i enrolled. i thought the line's gonna be fucking long and boring but since we're one of the earliest birds to arrive we, metaphorically, ate the first worms. got my schedule! it took us barely 30 minutes to register so we decided to 'tour' the place and get myself acquainted with the classrooms. it was a long and tiring walk, my feet are having blisters already.

but on the bright side, since it's too early yet, we decided to go astray and drop by megamall. there's the reward! we ate in yoshinoya and window shopped. haha, i'm a good girl. i'm not spending the extra cash from the enrollment fee mom gave me. so we first left my heavy bulky backpack in the package counter and went window shopping galore. haaay, i gave up the red wallet in topshop, now i want a designer watch. or just anything expensive. hahahaha. there's a pupkin making contest exhibit there! coool, the displays are so creative! i took a couple of pictures but you know, my phones a sucker. can't transfer. haha, someday somehow.

i'm a borderline idiot

wahaha. check out the game 'idiot test - are you a moron or an idiot?' from

weee... because arianne is in a happy crush mood today (and i tell you, this RARELY happens). i figured out a song that will suit me and my once a week encounter with my so called, harry.

miss kita for 6 days. everyday na sana laging magkasama ngunit sayang talaga, di pwedeng ipilit for 6 days. i hate those days of 6 daaaayyysss. monday, tuesday wednesday hanggang saturday, ang saya ng araw pagdating ng sunddaaaaaayyyyy. ahahahahahaaaa.

hahahahaha. i heard news that our neighbors to the right are leaving soon. not that i care, we've (me and my sister) not really established a close relationship with them ever since we came here 5 years ago. that is something that made me wonder a lot. something that made me think i'm a big introvert and a big unfriendly twerp. hmmm... seriously, we don't have friends here. and it's too late to look for one either. i wish i were friendlier, maybe i could help give them a good despidida party. hehehe

i passed the idiot test, and was called brilliant for it. yeah right, for following instructions like don't push the red button even though it's the only button around.

here's a piece of what i read from the odd brain. alcohol numbs the left hemisphere of our brain (the one who controls facts and memories) leaving us with a more active right hemisphere (that controls imagery and imagination) thus drunkards barely recall what happened last night and often hallucinates when he's had too much.

last night we watched underworld in studio 23. oooohh vampires, kate beckinsale is so pretty. ooooh vampires again, this is great, i want to watch the covenant. hehe, i have two vampire fics already and i'm yet again, plotting on another one! a vampire!draco and a lycan!harry. tsk, unrequitted love knocks the plot bunnies in my head. this is just greeeaaaatttt. and hey it suits them booooottthhh harry may not be a warewolf but that could be arranged, and draco is definitely not a vampire but you see, in fic writing everything could be arranged. bwahahahahaaaa...

my sister is starting to give me odd looks with my weird fetish for hmm... gays. more specifically when i point out 2 blokes from the tv screen that looks good together. i know it's weird, as i've told you, i would never have a boyfriend if i continue to think like this. anyway i'm not ready for one. but that could be arranged too. hahahahahaaa...

november is coming soon! and if you have a brain like mine, november spells b-i-r-t-h-d-a-y.

heartbreaking news update: so it is confirmed, ryan agoncillo and judy ann santos will get married by next year, and they want it on february 14! this is so heart shattering. one by one my celebrity crushes are becoming victims of alien abduction and is forced to marry the foreign species. haha ay joke lang.

if i don't act right now, i may just a hear a news that tom felton and his fish loving girfriend secretly wed and is currently feasting on nothing but fish fish fish on their reception. grrr... wait ang weird ko. sorry. or it might be that tom felton left his girlfriend for a fish. hahahaha, last night in jessica soho reports, i finally confirmed that there are people who really love their baraccudas that they even decently burried them under the ground, in a polished casket, in a fish cemetery. how odd is that? how could someone be soooo attatched to his fish? why can't he just cook it when it dies? that way they can save coffee and biscuit for the burial. hahaha

ay alam ko, maybe they're a fish in their past life! hahahahahahaaa

put an oga in a poga

i am happy today. i always am. there is no room for freakish negative vibes around me. i spread positive energy, hooooraaayy!

for one thing, Harry (for a change, this is not harry potter) is back to church. who is harry? haha, i don't really know his name, all i know is that he looks like Harry Santos from pinoy pop superstar 2 and youuu know i like harry santos because youuuu know i love classical balladeers. hmmm, so my crush is back that's why i'm happy. can't wait to go to church. hahaha.

so for three consecutive days we toured through three different sm malls, one looking positively similar to the other. like duh? after church we went to buy a bedsheet, a pillowcase and a blanket. all for dorm use. hmmm... it was okay. nothing weird except that i'm slightly disappointed that i couldn't find anything hello kitty printed. haaay. ok lang kasi red naman eh. mom was close to buying this checkered red blanket for me but put it back when i checked the fabric and said, "eh ma, muka kayang sako!" hahaha, is it the right thing to say around a saleslady? hehehe...

al last, enrollment is just 2 sleeps away. i can't wait to get over it.

orrryyyyt! inaantok na ko! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

penshoppe has really stupid theft sensors

i thought i could get by the first time it happened. for once i was really amused by the fact that, hey this doesn't usually happen. i was just a freak for things that went out of routine. so as i've told you yesterday, penshoppe's sensors in moa beeped on me. and now, just now, penshoppe's sensors in sm fairview beeped on me again. haha and heck i was just about to enter the place. they should really fix them, it's getting annoying. i wasn't the only one you know, it's like every person entering the place had their own taste of beep beep beep beep.

hmm. one of the things that hurts me the most is when my sister and mom goes to the mall and not invite me. yeah, it hurts. hahaha, reallyyyy shalllooooww but oouch, it hurts. hahahahahaaaa... but in the end, i still went to the mall.

pink soda's on sale. penshoppe's on sale. my wallet only has 30 pesos. hahahahaha. and the canon powershot a430 is not in the display anymore.

the book i bought yesterday, The Odd Brain, is hmm... very informative. but it's like a research paper. the cover pretty much gives an impression of a humorously trivial book but it's written too technically, most of the informative stuff comes in complex words and lecture bullets. waaah, i would recommend it to psychology students though. hmm... but something really got me laughing, the list of phobias. there's what you call autophobia or fear of ONESELF. and funniest and most severe (for me)... pantophobia or fear of EVERYTHING. just how do you deal with that?

i also read that talking to oneself while thinking is a sign of intelligence. so my dear friends, don't hide it anymore! you've got company!

and that would be me.

the odd brain. i love nerds. sickening sweetness.

Good day. I spent a thousand bucks on a book, a tee, a bag of chips, a deodorant and 2 drinks from frappe (which we eventually threw out – unfinished – because of its sickening sweetness, even I who loves sweets gave up).

We were in mall of asia awhile ago. I took it to be the chance for me to finally purchase the red wallet I’ve been talking about in Topshop which costs approx. 1,200. the first time I saw it, I fell in love with its redness but now when I saw it for the 2nd time, I was turned off. The once bright red is now a wrinkly piece of worn out leather. I didn’t buy it. Haha, sucks how I even set aside a thousand bucks on a friggin wallet. Damn me and my maluho hormones. But anyhow, I spent it on other things… like the book The Odd Brain. Hehe, I was looking for a paolo coehlo but as usual, he’s always lost. I also bought a tee in the penshoppe, the one with ‘I love nerds’. Wahahaha, pinanindigan talaga! I remember this guy I saw in the bus, thick unruly curly hair, black plastic rimmed glasses, bulky backpack, FLORAL polo, khaki shorts and trekking slippers. See? I remember. I always remember people who stand out. I was like, ‘weh? May ganyan pa pala sa mundo?’ and I was right.

Theen, I was supposed to treat myself (and my sister too) to Starbucks but then we saw the booth ‘Frappe’. Since it sounds cheaper, we went for it. she picks the oreo and I pick the mocha hazelnut. Damn damn wrong move. I wasn’t even halfway through it when my throat starts giving off ‘puke it’ manifestations. It was tooooooooooo sweet. Believe me, you’ll get sore with the first 100ml. That led us to watsons, where we bought a bag of chips to somehow get rid of the sickening sweetness.

Then we roamed around the place. Oh, something amusing happened. After purchasing the tee in penshoppe, obviously, we went for the exit. And suddenly, their theft sensors went beep beep beep beep beep. Wow, I’m a thief now, aren’t I? I didn’t panic. Their sensors are stupid. I have a receipt for crying out loud. What’s so wrong with I love nerds? Hehe, anyway they fixed it already. I was suggesting pa nga to just throw the garment overhead para di sakop ng sensors eh pero well, they didn’t listen.

And that ends our journey. I’m gonna read now.


supercalifregilistic expialidocious

new story! hahaha Interview with a Vampire. wahehe. major crap i know. hahaha, i'm a freak when it comes to harryXdraco. ooh, i watched interview in qtv last last night and that's when the idea struck me! wala. i just took the title, it's not going to be based on the movie. meeehhhn.

hmmm. early morning we left for batangas. all of us, mommy, daddy and terai. then we went to yupi elbi to drop my sister there and check out a few dorms. by few i mean only 2. i was sort of 'contracted' already to my sister's dorm but i get this weird feeling of discomfort knowing that i'll be roommates with their landlady. i have nothing against her, she's super accomodating but you know, it's a student's thing.

nothing much happened. my butt hurts. i've been sitting the whole day - until now. wahahaha, i'm so proud of myself. kaya ko na kumapa ng plucking! haha, yeah that's an improvement since i barely made progress with the guitar since... heh ewan.

my dad bought kuya tisoy's 2nd hand pocket pc for 6000. great great price. it's a compaq ipaq something haha. when i get used to it i'll submit a review in my website and in cnet. whatever.

hmmmm... i'm so inspired. you know what, i don't think i'll ever have a boyfriend if i keep on giggling over hot gay couples (like harryXdraco. told you, i'm a freak). UNLESS, my boyfriend thinks the same way! ahahahahahaaaaa... then we'll write fics together and live happily ever after! sounds great, no. what if the harry potter cast goes to the philippines? waw. i'll be damn excited. weeee... and i was just wondering. will they sign a harryXdraco picture? hahaha. i wanna know! i wanna know! i'm so curious... what do they think about harryXdraco? i heard tom felton has a girlfriend right now. yeah, sucks. but what if! her girlfriend is secretly writing a harryXdraco in ahahahahaaa... haha ditch her man! i would never do that to youuu! hehehe. i'm so weird.

oryt oryt! i'm going up to excercise!


hahah. according to the 'my heritage face recognition - celebrity matches' my photo doesn't have a match! ahahahaa! dismayado? lol. ahahahaaa... i even tried my sister's picture and damn oprah winfrey and christian bautista are there! lol. anyhow, at least i'm unique. no other face like mine. no other hideous thwarp like me.

this is supppeerrr shallow i don't care what you think.

i can't image life without the tv remote control. i feel incomplete to not have that scrawny piece of gadget in my hands whenever i'm facing the tv screen. do you feel that too? i've grown too much accustomed to it that i would never consider going near the tv to press the buttons manually, unless it's a matter of life and death. awww, the remote control is lost. damn, it feels sickening to stare at one channel for 1 hour, to bear the excruciating loop of commercials that seems to run forever. so i tried my best, toppled the sofa cushions in hopes of finding the remote stuck somewhere in between but to no avail. i searched every corner of the display cabinets wishing that my desperate search will soon meet its end. but nooo, i can't find it. next thing i know, the endless run of commercials has ended. i defeatedly went back on the sofa to enjoy the 10 minute break of my heart breaking quest.

asan na ba kasi yun??????????

hohoy! i have a new artwork... K Swiss.. e wala just my favorite tennis stuff.
view it here!

maria sharapova

haaay. you're the best. damn. i want to play tennis already! waaaahhh... and wait! i found out something! ryouma echizen of prince of tennis is using a mizuno racquet! haha we're the same! hehe although mine is the beginner's edition. hehehe... tsk i can't help it. prince of tennis has so much yaoi.

mehn. why is grandmother like that? puro na lang terai terai terai. naman, halatang favorite ah. no, i'm not jealous... i'm just pissed off that my grandma is ALWAYS ALWAYS blaming me if something bad happens to my OLDER sister... kasi di mo tinulungan magbuhat, kasi di mo kinuha ng tubig, kasi di mo sinamahan sa ospital. damn you make me look like a personal alalay. shit i hate that. hmmm... i don't need your affection, seriously. just try to be fair, that is all.

hehehe... i love tennis. i really love tennis. whenever i see chynna, gerber or jopy in the court i just get anxious at myself. at my knee. my stupid old knee. by the way, i played with the wall awhile ago. i was just soooo excited i can feel my right knee throb in pain. i didn't care, i was picking up the lessons i learned in TV.

lol, i wish i could watch the video of our last game. it was featured in some tennis tv show last last summer. hahaha... waaah sana my cable kami!

naman naman naman. nakaka-atat talaga. according the the paper classes starts nov. 13 but my sister says theirs will start at nov 20. o e kelan ba talaga? ayaw nyo talaga ko papasukin no?

jonadark! offered to beta my fic! yehey. thank you. hehehe, at least my story will -at last- have a sense of grammar.

read them folks! review review review! here ya gow

romanian rhapsody

another crush. martin stadtfeld, master pianist! haaaaaayyy. haha ang galing galing nya. nakakainggit, and no he didn't play romanian rhapsody... i just put it there. haha.

tsk. sabi ko gusto ko nakaglasses pero i guess once you fall in love (not yet) di mo na mapapansin kung malabo ba mata nung guy or kung mahilig sha sa harry potter or kung closet geek sha. diba? ang weeeiiiirrrrddddd ng type ko.

i watched him yesterday in net25, he was featured. ang kulit kulit nila, sabi 14 yrs old daw. ako naman, weeeh? he was born 1980 so 26 na sha ngayon. mga hmmph kayo. lolokohin nyo pa ko.

uuuuiii check my website naman! haha and sign the guestbook!

der ya gow.

by the way, i'm into a certain anime again. pero di na hardcore like before na super inaabangan ko ung sailor moon, dragonball, pokemon, digimon, yugioh, ghost fighter, flame of recca, slam dunk... hay name it.

PRINCE OF TENNIS! yey! ngayon ko lang sha nagustuhan kasi ngayon ko lang nagets ung title. diba Prince ung leading brand ng tennis merchs. so ayun parang ganun. at ngayon ko lang naapreciate ung bida na super liit at super yabang. and BEST OF ALL, they're all guys! so yaoi! hahaha. parang slam dunk. hihi. i love Prince.

oooh, i wanna play tennis again. sad. hmm... it there's one thing i would do to totally piss off this freakin meniscal tear on my knee, it'll be playing tennis. yeah, i'll do that.

suspicious infiltrates

i'm reading. trying to get some ideas on how to write m action. nothing dirty folks. mehn, this is driving me nuts.

crazy. brilliant. evil.

i just thought of this after reading digital fortress weeks ago and it was just now that it made a 'whoa' into my brain.

let's start with worms. no not the maggots feeding on rotten food but the slimy brown worms that appears most when it rains, crawls on wet pavement and dig in soft soil. the brown worms that squiggle their way back to life when you crush them apart with your shoes.

how about developing a worm that regenerates when you try to kill them? uhm, i'm talking about computer worms now. you know, something like duplicating itself when you try to quarantine or delete them through an antivirus? yep. it's a bad worm for me, i'd like it to be a network and target oriented worm that aims to COMPLETELY sweep the internet clean. yeah, worlwide internet bagdown. being network oriented, it doesn't harm common computer systems but just those systems included in the target string, which the creator defines. it travels through the internet using a person's web habits. so it starts with me, duh. if i make this worm and try to spread it worldwide... all i have to do is create an email, suppose my yahoo mail, and my pet worm will crawl into it and travel from router to router corrupting the area's database. so initially, the email routers are part of the target string that will be victimized my the worms criminal activities. if i send an email to someone from yahoo Canada, the message travels from router to router until it reaches the router in canada where the message is delivered. well, let's not underestimate email corporations security, they'll obviously scan the worm and try to eliminate them, but seeing that it's a regenerating worm, the more you kill the more they reproduce. so yahoo canada is dead meat.

and so they'll do their job. corrupt online databases and databanks included in the target string. they'll be deleted... all of them. and it won't harm your computer, but it would make net browsing difficult. you'd be surfing in hell, so to speak. and uhm, that would cripple the most powerful networks in the web like google, yahoo, msn and aol. insert boisterous geeky snort here.

since everything's deleted, the internet will be wiped clean. no more blogs (yeah, i'll risk that), no more emails, usernames are nullified and terminated, web indexes are deleted, search engines wouln't have search feeds.. blah blah blah blah.

it's like a virus and worm in one. virus are easily eliminated with sweepers and maliciously damage common computer systems but some worms are only eliminated by a code. yeah right.

so when they get the code, the worm instantly self-destructs. but the damages are irreparable. all deleted files are deleted forever. no such thing as recycle bin. the interent will be gone.

but of course the web pioneers are still there. they'll eventually rebuilt the internet.

welcome to internet renaissance.

jeez, and don't you think i'll try that for real. might sound brilliant, crazy and evil but alongside stupid. i don't even know anything about programming.

supermassive blackhole

hola amigas.

i feel so glum today. and dead tired too. the aftermath of my yupi elbi escapade yesterday is still here, lingering around, waiting for me to collapse.

damn. i should've known better than to sit for 5 hours and wait for my number to be called. grabe and tanga tanga ko talaga. lesson learned, asking is the most important thing to do if i'm going to deal with this alone.

the bus ride. yeah, it's like a field trip with strangers. mom made me two sandwiches so that i'll have something to eat when i'm hungry. the thing is, poor little sandwich number 1 got crushed so the tissue is almost part of the spread. but poorer little sandwich number 2 got super crushed to the point of looking like puke. i didn't eat it.

hmm. i met with laura! yehey. company at last. we went to my sister's dorm first to deliver her allowance and lumpia. then we saw patti! yehey again. it was my first time to talk to her in four years. hehe, we were never classmates before.

theeen, laura toured me around elbi, where i saw, at long last... the fertility tree! she was pointing the big tree to me and i was looking at the solitary palm tree. but nope, it was bigger. i mean BIGGER than the isolated palm tree and to think, why would people fuck under the palm tree? hello? but in the end i was the one who made the ludicruous guess. oooh, so that's the fertility tree where lovebirds nest at night when the sky is unbelievably dark and the branches are almost touching the ground. romantic? eeew.

the first time i heard of the F Tree, look that's almost like a fuck tree, i thought it was magical. like the room of requirement in harry potter where you just think what you want to see inside the room and when you open the door, tenen! see? if it was magical then that's cool.

why don't they just make a treehouse in it? diba? mas convinient. oryt, enough about the F3.

theeen, we went to lau's dorm. and then we ate in mcdo. and then i went back to the infirmary to, yet again, wait. and then... i realized it's not really that far if i walk from there to my sister's dorm so yun nga, i walked. fortunately, i reached the dorm. drank a looooottt of water and went home!

home sweet home. whew. my thighs hurt. mehn, and the traffic is hell.

independence day

nyak. kinakabahan ako. haha, tomorrow i'll be going to yupi elbi alone. ehh... wala lang. scared and excited. i love long bus rides, parang field trip.

hmm... how's my dear buddy? the scan detected 6 malwares! waw. 3 variants of Proxy, 2 Hijackers and well, a Trojan! how nice. i've put the infected files under quarantine. they're like a little over 100. tsk tsk. negligence at its worst.

unfortunately, ewido anti-spyware is a big wierdo. it's jst 11.something mb and it's slowing the pc like hell. i can't open my mailbox (maybe because of the virus) and everything is like malfunctioning. edi dinelete ko. kabobohan. does that solve it? i deleted ewido including the quarantined files? no no no. it made matters worse. most of the quarantined files are program extensions. naloko na. i'm so dead. mehn. reformatting is the only solution.

heck, i thought i'm a genius when it comes to this?

haaay. sana birthday ko na.. sweet 16!!

you know what, you should buy your original operating system. yep, it would cost you like 10,000 (xp pro) but it's well worth it. our OS cd is a forfeited copy of xp home so we don't have this unique validation key that's needed for the online updates! sucks big time. and you know what again, you should have your original antivirus. a good one would reach around 3,000 but then what's that compared to the stupid default security of windows? it's doesn't sweep viruses, not even scans them, and the more you highten your security measures the more you limit your surfing options. another big time sucker.

damn. i promise in the name of Blaise Pascal and Charles Babbage, when i get my own computer i'll buy an original OS and antivirus! no matter how much it costs me!!

mayday! mayday!

i'm under attack by a malicious spyware! daddy's gonna killl me. we don't have an antivirus! not even an anti-spyware! great. we only have this windows security thing warning us that a spyware is roaming around the crevices of our system, snooping on my internet habits. how nice, now they have my password and by now they're probably reading my inbox or perhaps they're reading this. whatever. hey, this is big deal! i'm currently downloading ewido free anti-spyware, so hopefully it'll do the trick.

i shouldn't be blogging, you know. i've exposed a lot of my passwords already. meehnn.

we went to yupi elbi awhile ago to have my xray. big waste of time. xray only! no physical examination yet! and we traveled 2 hours for that! even full-tanked our car! that's why i have to get back there this friday, which is friday the 13th in case you haven't noticed yet, to get my xray and get done with the medical examination. the thing is, i'll be going alone this friday! haha adventure! it'll be my first time to go to yupi elbi alone. excited.

we checked the dorm too. it's okay! i'll be getting the upper deck and be roomates with tita beth, the landlady. beri nays. can't wait to live there. onga pala, terai mentioned to me the shortcut hanging bridge to ceat. i saw it awhile ago, poor shortcut... the bridge has collapsed due to milenyo, no more shortcut. sad.

you freakin spyware!


finally, the scanner is working! yehey... here are 3 doodle plates and 1 portrait. just want to share... i just uploaded them in my devart account here. feel free to criticize. you might want to click on it to blow it to full size since they're pretty small. ehehe.

that's katherine moennig. and if you know me enough, you should also know that she is Shane from The L Word. the shading is off, i know and itdoesn't look exactly like her. i'm not a portrait pro anyway. what an excuse.


i hate mondays. i always do, ever since i started my laundry job. monday starts the week, so it pretty much decides how you're gonna take the rest of the days to follow. mondays also holds the most clothes to wash since they're piled over during saturdays and sundays. monday means getting toasted under the noontime sun because there are so many clothes to hang dry.

this monday starts my sister's classes after the 1 week suspension due to the bloody storm. she just called me awhile ago asking me to finish her powerpoint presentation because they don't have electricity yet, and the pc hubs are off. alright alright, i'll do it. it's not a big job putting backgrounds anyway. hmmm... she'll buy me brownies in return. i have to clean up her inbox too becauase friendster is flooding her with notifications. haha, i'll check her fster later.

oooohhh... harry and draco is still making a scene in my head. sounds nice. nutella nutella, i want my freakin bottle!! cute.

scylla and charybdis

tell me, should i work in laundry mat or metropole for a living? mehn, seriously i can hear a faint buzz akin to the washing machine's alarm. always. it's driving me nuts. i'm getting paranoid, i feel like i'm not yet done with our clothes. this is weird. very weird. and i'm struggling to get out of this paranoia. the buzzing sound is still here and it's following me. yeah right. not exactly, just whenever i'm in front of the computer. which is... always. i'm turning insane. and i always thought the world is my mental hospital. true. but it hasn't been a fairly good rehabilitation area. i guess i have to hop on to another planet in hopes of curing this... hallucination?

the washing machine seemed like a monster to me now. a deadly whirlpool... scylla and charybdis. i never want to hear the alarm anymore. although i know it's necessary to keep me in track with my job. my job. my laundry job. my stinking laundry job. the washing machine is scaring me.

lol. i just smoked pot.

change topic. harryXdraco is better than pot. it's a big nutcrack. i love it. flicks color my dull heart. i'm inlove with harryXdraco. so much so i'd stay up late reading every harryXdraco (with an average of 10 reviews per chap.) in and i'm still not done with digital fortress. yup, it hypes me... the whole computer stuff is just so appaling. my dream course has always been either business or computer. funny where i am now. hahaha... i'm getting off.

harryXdraco. tsk. first of all, i only liked justin timberlake because he reminds me of draco!! yeah, the intriguing eyes and illusive smile (i just copied that). swoon-worthy.

i read somewhere that a fan filed a lawsuit against justin. i don't know why... didn't read further. but i did read something like justin pushed this GIRL on the wall and started throwing insults at her. come one... push me to the wall and we'll snog all night.

where is my dignity?

i repeat, i just smoked pot.


this is an extra small post which doesn't necessarily have to be small. i don't know why i tend to blog a lot when nothing is happening to me at all. right now, nothing happened. like nadda nadda null null none none empty empty. yet i know i have something to say, and mind you, i'm trying hard to pick up the lines. i feel a certain incompleteness whenever i fail to blog for day. it has become a habit of mine to waste thine sacred internet card with no less than the nonsense gibberish yours truly is feeding this page. did you get that? i'm tired, though i have no reason to be.

a tv actress once told that life is a box of chocolates, explaining that you'll never know what one would taste like until you've had it in your mouth. nonsense. that is so corny. if i were a student from Hogwarts, i would say life is like a pack of Bertie Bott's Every Flavor Beans. and you know exactly why. a brown bean would seem like chocolate but when you bite it you taste shit. exactly. shit is sometimes disguised as chocolate. hahaha. with Bertie Bott's you get to guess what flavor could the red bean in your palm be. but with a box chocolates, there's no thrill. you know it's chocolate and you won't be scared to try them because you know they're sweet. unless one is actually shiiit. a red bean could possibly be as delightful as an apple, a strawberry or a cherry but could also be as gross as blood or scab. that's the thrill a box of chocolates won't give you. hail Bertie Bott's Every Flavor Beans.

i want to buy this tee in penshoppe. it says, i love nerds. perfect.

awesomely bad career moves

i'm enjoying vh1 a lot. but i just don't agree with last night's all access: awesomely bad career moves. to me a bad career move is something that practically ditched a celebrity's status. madonna rapping is quite a news, but it's not a bad move, it's experimenting. look at her now, she's still flying high with a new image every season. colin farrel, hollywood's bad boy was said to make the worst career move by being Alexander. what's so wrong with that? it's not like he's trying to compete with Brad Pit as Achilles. again, it's experimenting. former presidential candidate Mr.??? who lost to Bill Clinton was suddenly seen in posters promoting viagra. it's funny, yes, but it's not at all bad. who else would they get to promote a libido booster than an old balding man who lost in the presidential elections?
hehe, and then there was N'Sync. it's not about Justin though, but they mentioned him. hell, Justin would never make a bad career move. *swoons*

no luck in catching the replay of vh1's All Eyes on Justin Timberlake. i'm a hopeless desperate.

today was my annual check-up! everything was fine, i actually grew taller! i'm 5'3" now! that's good news, thanks Anlene. i just felt super uncomfortable, not to mention ticklish, when the doctor checked my boobs. however he does that, and shit his hands are slightly trembling when he wrote me the prescription. what the hell? nothing serious though, just vitamin c.

i saw a group of kulasas in the hospital too. i found it weird, i was like "you're having a field trip in a hospital?" i thought they were gonna visit a dying classmate but i saw a banner outiside the nurses' building welcoming st. scholastica's graduating batch. huh? and they were like touring the laboratory the nurses' station and blah. haha, the hell i care. i was just curious, there's nothing good to see in E. delos Santos Hospital. hop on to St. Luke's for a better lobby.

i'm home by 11am and i immediately did the laundry. my sister is asking my company to the bank so i went with her. from BDO we walked until Ever and bought whatever mom said, saw kate, then left for SM fairview. nothing much, just want to stroll around and get my ocassional dose of expensive and addicting coffee. haaay, i love you starbucks.

you make me bankrupt with just a single cup. amazing, i know, how you catch all my senses. and soon find myself sipping your coffee senseless. i promised not to drink from you anymore. but it just made me craving for more and i'm sore. been waiting forever and that is why. i came for you, i can happily die.

drink coffee and get high.
smoke weed and fly.
pick mary jane and die.
seriously, just go and try.

another one bites dust.

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