awesome daaay

woke up 1pm after an undisturbed 10 hour sleep! i missed getting full sleeps. grabe. after a couple of days rendering crazy OTs, i knew i had to recharge my body so much! i'm imagining a full body massage, a facial and a good swim but argh. imagination ko lang yun.

OT days
so we have this project. it's crazy. it's java. and i feel doomed (as usual). i was made to lead the UI peeps and i feel kindof inadequate. technically. you know. while i believe i've learned so much java since i started, i still don't think i have enough to impart to the newbies. just the basics. i can, on the other hand, give them a ton of moral support if they want. hahaha

now i know how mam grace felt when she has to juggle between teaching newbies (me, majorly!), beating her own dev deadline, and answering to support issues. with just 8 hours on the clock, mapapa-OT ka talaga. hahaha

hm. i feel sad that i had to render so freaking many hours just to get the login/logout module to work. to think all the classes are provided na, and i just had to tweak the xhtml part, nalulungkot parin ako kung bakit hirap na hirap ako. hahaha

and grabe lang makasira ng budget ang pag-OT. look, i'm living on a tight 200/day allowance. that's 150 for fare + 50 for snacks or something, given that i always have baon naman. i was able to do it for 2 weeks straight and i felt proud cos i saved a lot! but this week was such an exception. 3 days straight OTs and i had to adjust my allowance for food! huhu anyway. haha



my parents' silver wedding anniv is coming up! 
earlier, i was thinking of a fitting gift at wala akong maisip. e saktong nakita ko to sa appliance center, so i bought this instead!

my parents have been wanting to replace their old crt tv in their room so i thought it's the best gift. less 5,500 pa pag cash oh! hahaha i admit this was a dakot move (read: kurot principle). i cleared out my entire tangible savings for this HAHA pero okay lang, there's still next month! hihihi

tangible kasi nasa banko at madaling iwithdraw, if you want long-term savings. ehem, usap tayo!

i just joined a victory group!

yeyy i now have a cell group! i met for the first time with ate wheng (our vg leader) earlier to arrange our schedules and discuss about discipleship. it's an intimidating topic for me, but nothing i can't handle if it's what God set me up to! i'm excited to learn and meet new people and more importantly, to improve my relationship with God. seryoso! aaargh this is so exciting!

i think it's almost a month since i started attending Victory Nova, mainly because it's nearer to our home... and what can i say, i'm happy with my decision. ewan ko ba but i'm attracted to their aesthetics, you know... tarps, brochures, videos and even the tithes envelope. i love how they're all so well designed. hehe

i'm looking forward to becoming a better person with this decision! haaay thank you Lord!

FEU Diliman Batch 2012 Yearbook Layout

FEU Diliman Batch 2012 Yearbook

late post! my first and proudest published work yet! published in a sense that it was printed, distributed and sold. hehe anyway, in fear that i may be violating any creative commons rights here, if in case you find any of your work/s visible in this project, please note that i inserted a general acknowledgement, on one of the last few pages of the book, to anyone who contributed to the yearbook's success. that of course my includes online sources, though not specifically broken down.

so if you see anything here that requires proper credit, the best i can do is list them here, and thank you with all my heart. i used a ton of stuff here that i wasn't able to keep track anymore: brushes, wallpapers, textures, patterns, fonts, and that sarimanok cover .... they're free online but yeah, credit is credit.

so there, drop it when you see it.

listen.

i think i understand why i'm always looking for a lighter, less stressful job. it's because i'm always looking forward to the things i do outside of work that i didn't want to go home all spent from a crazy 8-5. i seriously need some guidance right now. 

remember when i was so worried about not hearing God every time i pray? that frustrated feeling that maybe i'm not being Christian enough, that i was trying so hard to be good but i always end up unrighteous by the end of the day, succumbing to sinful thoughts and being quick to anger all of the time? that i wasn't one of those to whom God reaches out with a deep manly powerful voice? i was on a spiritual low that time. i was so scared that maybe God stopped talking to me. scrazy shiz.

but now i'm enlightened. i sure recalled that God speaks to us in different ways and circumstances. that he is never tired of reaching out to us, calling us to act on our real mission. the problem is, during the time i thought he was not speaking to me, i was in fact not listening.

listening to him, perhaps in the easiest sense, means reading his word, the Bible. and that's the most probable cause of this increasing spiritual gap between me and God. and sin, of course, there's doubt and unfaithfulness too. hay. 

so from now i'm going to try to build a habit of reading the Bible in order to listen to what God says, instead of reading it to expand my historical references. i used to read it before but i realized i was doing it the wrong way, taking notes objectively, reading it like a novel, using my mind to process every situation. eventually it bored me, as i was constantly looking for stories and wasn't focusing on what God is trying to say on every page. i'm going to change that. and it freaking excites meeee!!! yeheyyy!

this isn't going to happen if my boyfriend didn't coach me out of this spiritual rut. i thank God for blessing me with one of his men. >:') i know, i know that i'm going to hear the Lord this time. >XD

hi blog

hooray for yet another new layout! gaaaah i spent so much time working on this! quitting the slideshow for good (deym page load!). i initially wanted to install a nivo slider up there, in fact i've found some pretty neat layouts from BTemplates pero ewan, nabobo ata ako at wala akong na-achieve sa page-edit edit. and besides i felt bad about installing a pre-made theme. parang labag sa kalooban ko. gusto ko design ko. lol

hm. work is becoming more and more stressful than ever. kahapon lang nag-sink in sakin na we have to deliver something by next month. WHUT. i'm not even halfway in understanding the whole project. not even a quarter close to finishing my modules. hay. stress. grr. makes me wonder, AGAIN and AGAIN, why i'm still putting up with all this shiz. i haven't even made up my mind (like super duper) if i'm going to be in here for the long run. not just in smart, but the whole software development industry in general. feel na feel ko talagang i'm not cut out for this job. talk about drama. 

meanwhile, my ovaries are exploding over this:

cam gigandet

sana july 10 na. 

facebook now supports #hashtags

Introducing Hashtags on Facebook 

Starting today, hashtags will be clickable on Facebook. Similar to other services like Instagram, Twitter, Tumblr, or Pinterest, hashtags on Facebook allow you to add context to a post or indicate that it is part of a larger discussion. When you click on a hashtag in Facebook, you'll see a feed of what other people and Pages are saying about that event or topic.  

-Greg Lindlet, Product Manager Facebook 

there you have it! so long, haters! if anybody goes on to rant about how annoying and attention-whorish hashtag filled statuses are on facebook, you can go quote Greg on this new feature. that'll silence them. or not.

though seriously, for all the good reasons this feature was brought into fb, i'm afraid most tags will remain to be spammy and irrelevant to the actual post. like-suckers unite! haha

Smart Freedom Day Sale, or Fail?

writing this kinda hurts. as a smart employee, it's sad having to read so much negative feedback at the recently concluded Smart Freedom Day Sale. but even at that, i can't speak for the company, this is merely my opinion. reading up on articles and comments and everything, i've come to realize that indeed, it was a big big disaster. so many people rushed and lined up to avail of their (well, our) too good to be true handset offers, but i guess not a good fraction was satisfied. most went home pissed and disappointed at having wasted all the money and effort to be among the first to emerge successful at following their freedom, only to be welcomed by an OUT OF STOCK message, less than 30 minutes in line, much worse without a trace that a single handset was actually released within the time frame.

that must have sucked so much.
most have branded it as a scam. big word to bear, but sad to say, i guess i couldn't agree more.

san ka naman nakakita ng sale na nauna ka sa pila tas out of stock agad? patay tayo dyan. partida, first come first served pa raw yan. lol

oo na, single ka nga! who cares?

source: http://xixo7.deviantart.com/art/Philippine-Flag-91225874

first of all, Happy Independence Day Pilipinas!

sorry about the harsh title ha but i just have to rant and let this out haha. as far as i can tell, today we're celebrating our national independence day! keyword: national, not personal. lol

and soooo, it kinda frustrates me how some kids are singling themselves out (yet again) in a totally irrelevant celebration of their singlehood (?). i mean okay, i understand the pun intended but seriously, was it really just a pun, or a sly way of inviting? naiirita ako pag napapansin ko eh. haha

there's nothing wrong with being single and looking, but paying tribute to it every day sounds kinda desperate, don't you think? as if not enough people know you're single and hunting, i mean looking pala hehe.

hindi naman ako galit sa mga single na nakiki-independence day no (#medyolang haha), after all naging single rin naman ako. at na-frustrate rin ako. but not to the point that i get reminded of how it sucks to be single eeeevery single occasion on the calendar. #boom

but it's not always like that, there are some who are actually celebrating being single. as in, happy sila! and i totally appreciate it, if anything, i like reading happy feeds online. but come oooon, you don't have to say (or hint!) you're single while (or and) having fun. as if there's a distinction between having the liberty to enjoy with being single or not (highly debatable but you see my point). tingin ko dalawang bagay lang yan eh, either a) may pinaparinggan kang ex. lol ooooor b) [see title]

let me show you my observations of a typical huntsman. naks. ganda ng term ko. lol
sila yung mga, you know, di mo naman gaanong close pero kabisadong kabisado mo yung love life kasi... wala. hehe



january
new years resolutions list would always include SELF IMPROVEMENT (acceptable? of course! me ganyan din sa list ko eh) pero pag me kadugtong na, "para magka-boyfriend na ko"? ugh. [see title]

february
happy singles awareness month! this i accept. after all, it's the love month so nauuso naman talaga to. then again, [see title]

april
happy april fool's day! naalala mo nanaman yung manloloko mong ex kaya ka single ngayon? [see title]

june
need i say more? [see title]

july-sept
we all know it's the rainy season! perfect occasion para sa mga nage-emo emohang walang mayaya sa kapehan. outcome? a selfie with a cup of coffee*. hashtag single. hashtag loner. hashtag wannaCome? [see title]

november
all souls day nanaman, di mo parin nahahanap ang soul mate mo. [see title]

december
for me december should be more about the family so it annoys me why this is regarded as another february. hehe

and on other months?
they're either so happy or so sad because they're single. either, way [see title]

*na naka-instacollage pa, pag starbucks: isang malaking panel para sa selfie nung kape, tas tatlo para sa selfies nung bumili. pag hindi starbucks: anim na panel ng iisang muka. iisang pose. iba-ibang hue. (pa)cute na (pa)cute.

sorina talaga ha? di ko lang mapigilan. hahaha