168

yesterday we went to 168 to shop for pants (majorly).

my mom was thinking of leaving me at home since i could be a burden if i keep on reminding them to walk slower coz i can barely follow them because of my knee.
oh well, in the end they just let me go. kuya kaloy and some carpenter is fixing the basement (the office was kind of renovated) and i don't want to be left alone with them (although kuya kaloy has been a good friend...), hehe.

so we went there.
it was my first time in 168. i can tell it's just like the other malls in divisoria only newer, cleaner and colder? heh. whatever...
we just bought pants that's all. we actually got lost so we weren't able to find the right exit but my dad came to the rescue so we're fine.

nothing beats timezone.
i was begging for a membership card! but dad won't give me because there's no timezone near our place and he says i can just play in FCM.
eh hello? as much as i love playing in arcades, FCM is not much of an ideal arcade for me. there are lot's of punk looking men crowding behind me as i play 'death rally' (car racing).
come to think of it, it's nice having people watching you play and hear some comments like, 'aba, galing ah' but in the end they're just waiting for their turn.
so much for the flattery... thanks ah, rank 39 parin ako out of 40.
onga pala... may timezone sa 168 foodcourt! 10/game?! grabe.

that was the fun part of divi.

the worst part?
of course we've expected a lot of people shopping too, and what i hate is i bump into a lot of people!
they bump me, i curse.
they bump me + they step on my foot, i curse again.
they bump me + they step on my foot, causing my leg to hurt like hell, i shout a loud 'oww!" and curse (inwardly).

it was frustrating having to shun people like that for the fear that i might acquire another strain (yan kasi, stubborn) and end up on a wheelchair on the grad ball (LOL!).

then we went home.
and we got lost because my dad is trying to avoid recto because of the traffic so he's looking for lawton.
we woke up to our senses when we spotted manila city hall... teka teka, mali ata tong pinuntahan natin!
ayun.. we're still lost! but the bright side of it was, we get to go sightseeing!
i was mesmerized by the view of the red bridge lights reflecting on the water! we saw intramuros in a bright night display. the lights we passed by we're wonderful especially at night.
it all ended when we've crossed the borders of manila to quezon city where our eyes are as usual feasting upon the neon pink chicken wires spread out on the isles of every avenue in quezon city. well that's a good idea of saving electricity on christmas lights. why don't they make it glow in the dark next time?

look at the time! 15 minutes to gooooO!

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i wanna be myself

sometimes i'm thinking if all this time i'm not being myself. i don't think i really know who i am.
i'm still wondering... when do you become YOU?
ngek. ewan. bsta...

it feels like i'm nothing but a bandwagon-er. i just follow, i don't set anything to be followed or something. what a loser.
i do hate the conformity stuff where you becoming this odd creature who wears a hand-knitten scarf instead of a bolero jacket. that's why i love the penshoppe tagline 'resist conformity' minus the 'promote accessorizing' thing. but hell, i'm not really getting out of their borders. i'm still uhhh... nevermind.

i found out in mtv that hollaback girl was made to confront courtney love regarding her negative remarks about gwen stefani. coolness.

you see, i realized that i'm still the teen novel freak that i used to be. i find romance in books, not in real life... and currently i'm writing another crappy to-be-continued novel which is, by the way, under the lousy-plotted-novel category. haha...
it's weird, and it sounds like a fake: not your ordinary teen novel.

ever heard of the movie 'not your ordinary teen movie'? it has nothing to do with this project. i actually just realised that there's a movie like that only when i have finished the first 3 pages of my story.

i'm planning to do something different (but not original) with it.
have you heard the 'chose your own adventure' book? that's what i'm going to do.
well, the chose your own adventure thing gives you choices after each chapter. for example
a.) if you want mr. and mrs. smith to marry each other, turn to page 99
b.) if you want both of them dead, turn to page 50
c.) if you find my choices insufficient, close this book and write your own crappy ending.

although it might confuse you if you find both choices interesting and you decided to read the contents of both choices... hah! bahala ka.

like that. i think it's fun and challenging.
but i guess it will take me a long time to finish it. i have a lot of pending stories... lol.

haay. i still love yaoi anime.
i'm reading a lot of fics lately, specifically those rated T13 under humor. hehe

happy new year!

living dead dolls

LIVING DEAD DOLLS
the deader the better... welcome to the graveyard.

as creepy as it sounds.. go figure... nothing angelic duh, purely devilish
just retail dolls. chaka-like dolls.. scary dolls...

i especially liked the doll names and the story of the morticians (webmasters)

there's Demonique and Mildread, Arachne and Wolfgang. hehe...

i don't feel the year of the dog coming. this coming new year doesn't seem to be something special.

let's just hope that this year will be a better year for the whole world. we've been through a lot of chaos this 2005 and reliving it by 2006 will not look like another strike of bad luck but a year-long curse of monstrosity.

i still feel bad about most of the things that are happening to me.

my knee strain hasn't healed yet. i was told that it usually takes more than a month to heal. sure, more than a month na nga... but when? come on Lord, what a gift.

the dlsu test, not that it matters kasi sabi ko nga i won't go there either way. but the feeling of failure? yes, that's the thing i can't quite get off of my nerves. the pride mehn.

oh well. there's always the bright side of life!

like a peppermint mocha frappuccino from starbucks... costly thirst quencher. had my first one yesterday... =)

joy! :D

advanced happy new year...

kumusta naman na bagsak ako sa lasalle?
hehe... ayus lang... pass or fail, i won't go there anyway... pero sana man lang napasa ko!
ang bobo ko na palaaaaa...
sooobbrraaa... i mean, mahirap naman talaga eh... and i thought i was smart...
but i guess i'm not smart enough for the test... mehn.

oh god, ang yabang ko.. sige di na pla ko smart... bobo na... spell that for me if you're smart.
hah! stupid.

it hurts when i checked my name and it didn't came out.. tapos when i checked other people's name... their's came out!

eeeehhhh namaaaaan...
shet. failures suck.

on the mushy side

i found this thing somewhere and it's sweet...

"love is not about finding someone you can live with but it's about finding someone you can't live without"

clique?

another thing...

"i dont like you, cause i love you
i dont want you, cause i need you.
i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will die for you.
i wont live for you, but i will live with you.
i wouldn't do anyting cause i will do everyting.
i chose my life, 'cause you're my life."

corny?
i would love to hear that from the man of my dreams... a faceless (yet) guy with authentic black hair wearing a decent casual attire holding a bunch of red roses perhaps? oh, include chocolates there...

ok, arianne. just wait. :D

mom says we're going out later! yay!
i still have no money...

SIGNS:
my cousin gave me a mouse pad as a xmas gift.
my first impressions was, "oh my god, this is a sign! sabi ko na nga ba magkakaroon din ako ng bagong computer eh!"
yeah!

grr... my blood boils everytime i read or hear the name reese witherspoon!

merry christmas everyone!

well.. hohoho!
i can't say i hated this day but so far this is not YET the best christmas i've lived upon. i never recieved a single gift from any of my (missing) godparents, how i wish.
you know what, i wish i had the power to chose who my godparents will be (a power i visualize only babies could have) and i'll make sure they'll never forget me in their list!

well there... so much for a happy christmas, after all there's still next year... and belated gifts are always and will always be welcome.
my wishlist will stay there until, forever.... well until i get tired of telling people what i want and showing you that "hey! getting a/an -insert an item from my wishlist- isn't that impossible at all!".

i wanna shop already!
oh, would you mind scratching off all those negative remarks i made about this christmas because just this moment i recieved a pretty consoling gift... a chocolate bar!

as i munch on it hapilly let me just share to you how it ached me reading the nutrition facts,
amount per serving: 4 blocks (36g)
calories: 200
what if i finish the whole bar? does that mean i intake the whole 800 calories? o.O

as i spoil this blissful moment of staining my teeth brown let me just remind myself that calories might be viewed as an evil substance that magically increases my weight but it is not only acting magical as a weight increaser, it also magically gives me a favorable taste to the food i eat (altough it is not a spice) . we all know that low-calorie foods are blant, so i guess there's no room for more fretting.

oh wait, did i just finish the whole bar? oh my... o.O

retro divas?

i know, it's a little too common. not too much creativity poured in the title but heck i like the header image!
:D
i edited their hair to make it look more retro...
does it look like it? i forgot to put the bling blings... actually i forgot a lot of things like changing their dresses... but i don't care. what do you think?

my previous layout, the 'crimson freak' one has been put in my 'previous layouts' archive... just in case anyone of you's interested in using that piece of art. :D

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M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S !

it's exactly 2 hours and 55 minutes before christmas!

mehn.

a club penguin moderator BANNED me for typing (and it says there that i actually SAID it? stupid) 'fuck!'.

funny, how they think club penguin has full of innocent children who're required to have a 'parent's permission' to become members of the club.

funny, how they have to pay a minimum of $6 dollars just to be able to decorate their igloos and to spend their coins. i'm so frustrated! i can't decorate my igloo and i can't spend my 250 for this colorful plush chair and a couple of furnitures to spice up my home. for once... i want to make my pet penguin happy by simply decorating her igloo.

hehe. i'll just have to wait until i become unbanned by tomorrow.

LoL.

an interview with myself

just like all the others who have claimed to have a split personality (severe case: schizophrenia (i wonder if i got the spelling right)), i am also fond of talking to myself...

sounds crazy?
hah! admit it! you're just like me!

okok.

how's melodia?
- pretty stupid for a first question.

so, how does it feel claiming 'crimson freak'?
- nice. it sounds just like me.

how did the fair go?
- pretty muddy. a lot of boring and idle moments. and also a couple of too-good-to-be-true encounters.

what's your xmas gift for your parents?
- i burned a retro cd for them. gave it awhile ago. mind you! i made a CD label and a CD cover! too much effort exerted just to find out it doesn't play in all sorts of players. frick!

then?
-they're kinda overwhelmed. they started dancing in a very weird manner. something i want to capture on a videocam and play repeatedly, for laughter's sake. i call it the 'alienated afro dance'.

how does it feel burning a cd?
-what? it's not my first time you know. but it is my first time burning in a different burner.. like you care?

of course i do, you asked me to ask you in the first place?
-ugggh. get out of here.

you know i can't...
- and why not?

come on, if i get out, you get out too.
-where?

let's stop this. next question...
-sure.

what's the best xmas gift you've recieved so far?
-hmmm. i love everything everyone gave me especially that i found them useful. but perhaps, the best is.... $$$$$$. hehe

most recent movie watched?
-2 fast 2 furious. cool. \m/

next movie to be watched?
- don't know. my mom's braggin about 'exodus' (she likes bong revilla) so i think we'll watch that too.

any good news?
-oh, i'm back in avon business. =D

why do you love money a lot?
- i don't love it, i need it.

er.. lovelife?
- 75 dpi. 32 bit. black and white.

who's the best looking man you've seen so far?
- not sure. maybe ryan philippe.. drools.

what're you going to do tomorrow?
- good question. i'm onto a catholic church to clean. cl project. i just can't bear doing it by myself. can you imagine me cleaning our church? mehn... i'd be dead just thinking about it.

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heh. i'm tired.
i want more of naruto!!!!! XD
yaoi mode.

KA!!! - please don't forget the gravitation cd! :D luv you!

"it's not just a bag, it's Prada" - white chicks

arrgghhh... i am sooo in need of more cash! i spent my last bucks on foooooddd!
i hate myself when my sister invites me to go malling, it's like i am not in the right position to refuse. my feminine hormones are soo mallsick. i was saving my money for something important but i guess the spendthrift in me always wakes up at the sight of a mall. =
we rented three movies awhile ago, one of which is White Chicks. i love watching movies the second time because i understand it more... especially the toilet humor...

i told myself awhile ago that 'this time, i'm gonna get my starbucks treat'.
my sister and i were on the way to the annex (where sb is) and every step i make is a struggle. my legs are not yet healed... i'm soo freakin' stubborn. that's when i saw 'brownies' under the escalator we rode down on and i hesitantly chose between a frappe and a frostee.
anyway, the frostee won. instead of a high-calorie, high-priced frappe which will take me forever to reach with my legs under struggle, i chose the high-calorie, high priced frostee which is just underneath the escalator. big difference, huh?

anyway... the cheapest coffee indulgence i can give myself is in zagu... 20 pesos away with free pearls and crystals tax free.

oh well.

"any man who can jump off on a bullet for me can definitely take me out."

i found out a potential grad ball outfit in meg magazine... it's more of a cocktail dress though... P999 at yrys. can't describe...

look at that, the movie "the prince and me" is grammatically incorrect, right?

the child in me

weee... i dicovered another game site!
you see, i've been playing in neopets for more than a year now and my money has grown quite big but i still feed my pet free omelettes from the tyrranian plataeu and since i'm too lazy to visit the said place every day... my pet's status is "dying"... haha...

now, i found a new place to hang out... hihi. club penguin!

i learned that from this certain gradeschooler who's also using the free DSL internet during the fair!

yaaaay! time to playyyyyy...

meet my penguin! =D



hihi. =D

an afternoon alone with my favorite book, broadway musicals of the 1940's...

the title is part of the lyrics of 'if you were gay'.
there's no big deal, i just can't find a title worthy of the school fair...
i could use...
"boring" but it's too self-descriptive, there's no need for explanation
"barbie rocks!" is a little too overused and again it implies one thing: another encounter with my favorite artist
"card towers" - hmmm, quite okay... okay nevermind i'm losing grip

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it's our schoolfair! (no need for drumroll please)

i seriously think it's the wrong season to start the fair... first of all, it's too humid in the field, muddy in fact since it's raining often and we wouldn't want to stroll around it and get our pretty chucks ruined (LoL, i don't even have one)...
there's only one ride and we can't even bear to ride/play on it with all the little kids... it's not even a ride... it's a blown up play place which deflates when it rains... i wonder how it feels to be inside it while it's deflating...

there are fewer booths and the sad thing is they're practically selling the same things...

there are a lot of cons but i also have my personal pros...

spotlight.

free ticket, free food, barbie!
while others think it's harder to play crew during practices i think of it on the contrary...
during the practices, i (or we) can't do our job well, i felt so intimidated with the people around me. then after some days of repeating the same agonizing feeling of unworth... confidence eventually builds up making me lesser depressed and more... high?

oh well, i enjoyed it... even though i wasn't able to watch the whole thing.

honestly, my work was hardest (for me) during the day itself. you see, silly me decided to be crew even with an (under recovery) injured leg that's why i ended up little miss limp once again.
congratulations.

barbie was supposed to be on the intermission part but she came late (probably because of her rockwell gig on the same day) so mrs. benitez asked for someone to check if she has already arrived... kim and i volunteered... but i guess i insisted (thinking of the oppurtunity) so i took the job...
i came across a lot of mischeivous leg aggravation just to check if she has arrived...
finally after a couple of waiting... she came out of her van and we escorted her to the backstage...

autograph + pic = 1 wish to be striked off my 101 wishlist!

after her finale we then escorted her to her van...

she's so pretty... and patient with her fans, humble too... mehn, ideal idol.
so i came home... still the lucky arianne with an injured leg.

the end.

thank you PLDT my DSL!

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karla: ang gandah ko talaga!!!!!
mika: haha kakahenna ko lang, first time........make a wish!
r-yan: yaaayyyyyy!!! free internet!!!! yaaaayyy! ang bilis ng internet!!11 yaaaay!
the internet is really really great.... for porn!!!!
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uhmm.... hehehe... :D

useless

i was totally useless awhile ago! bat ba ko nag-crew? well.. crews are actually people who cue you when you enter the stage for a performance but seeing that they actually know when they're going to enter, i don't think they still need crews. handing down props? what props? shades, hats, canes? they know all those... and it makes me feel soo stupid, so out of place... pasikip sa backstage. for keeping the backstage quiet? think about it.. even if they talk out loud, the audience will still be noiser than they are. pulling people off the floor lines? a very minor thing to do, wouldn't even think about joining the crew just to pull them off from that line... grr...

walang kwenta.

i actually joined the crew because of barbie almalbis. duh. i wish i could get her autograph though. sayang naman tong pinagdaanan ko. :)

kainis talaga. i felt so little awhile ago, so epal! spare me the shame naman... kahit i.d. lang ng crew ok na... ayoko kasi ng tinatanong na, "ano ginagawa nyo dito?" tapos sasagot ako ng, "uuh... crew. (nanliit, feeling walang kwenta)" you see, i don't really think they need crews. but i also don't want to give up the position... for barbie.

such a fan. dammit.

maybe i wouldn't be of any help when they're already on stage performing but i guess we still did our part on the backdrop.
ano ba pwede gawin para magmukha naman akong hindi katanga-tanga?
=\

101 wishes

prosec awhile ago was great! it was totally inspiring hearing success stories from mrs. zeta. right now i'm still working on my wishlist and let's see what'll happen. maybe i just have to ask God a little more and remind him that the number one on my wishlist is to have a bike and to learn to ride on one as well. =)

oh well, mrs. zeta is so true about, 'who knows later you'll be striking off one item from your wishlist?'
i got a bar of toblerone from larz! what joy!!! hehe... oh and you know what, i din't do anything productive last night. i was supposed to do a research on odysseus' journey, do the comex, the acctg. homework, the club stuff and a lot more things... but i just did it this day and i felt so pressured but thank God, i passed the english test! i mean, i should pass it anyway! i even begged mrs. leyco to lend me the odyssey book in library because we weren't allowed to borrow books anymore. after a minute of sermon and consequence details (like i have to pay for the fine even during the sembreak if i failed to return it before they close for the year) i finally got it. cool.

i'm excited to be back in business. ate alyn is just too busy to attend to my avon stuff so i just asked ate theresa to register herself so that i can start selling soon. this season really calls for additional money sources. the vat, the demands and supplies... it's all affecting our lifestyle. i can't enjoy eating in yoshinoya anymore because i can feel the weight of the tekamaki rice bowl bulging from my wallet. what ill-fated destiny... our country is not anymore the great country i used to imagine.
such fate...

such misery. oh despair... leave us alone. better yet, give us a more powerful ruler.

i hate talking about politics. \=(

bad habits

so far, i only have to two major bad habits: nail biting and sleeping during church services. i have pretty much suffered the consequences of nail biting. duh, short nails. it's like i can't stretch them out proud when doing the panunumpa. i too have gone through a lot of promises that i will let it grow but hell, as time passes by it's gradually turning into a nasty hobby. eew my god, LoL.

next in line is my frequent sleeping during church services. uhm, i'm not kind of worried about this because i'm barely noticeable in a multitude of 1,000. i'm actually planning to wear eyeglasses everytime i sleep because it's not obvious that my eyes are closed. i learned that from mom.

this one had caused me some embrassing moments too. i was sleeping one time and my head is leaning sidewards so i woke up. finally after a minute, i dozed off to sleep again and due to my heavy sleepiness my head didn't just leaned sidewards but also backwards! the people at my back were probably containing their laughter. XP
another funny consequence just happened yesterday. i was so contained in my sleep that i had a dream. it was very short, i just saw hannah and laura greeting me 'hello', and they both waved to me. guess what i was supposed to do?
unfortunately during that time our pastor was announcing the altar call... "if you think you have been out of touch with our Lord God right now and you hear him calling you to come back, just raise your hand and we will pray for you" the pastor says. normally only a few people raise their hands... probably 5 or less depending on how well the homily affected them.

LoL, just when the pastor finished asking for hand raisers, i woke up thinking what could have happened if i raised my hand in my sleep and the pastor noticed me, eyes closed waving to him like some close friend. gosh. i laughed after the thought.

enough about me. you see, i'm not the only one who sleeps, my mom sleeps too. my dad even... and my sister too.
ok. so we all sleep, but not at the same time. LoL
hehe.
i have another story: (not mine)

there's this couple in our church and they're just new. as usual we welcomed them and the ushers gave them souvenir bookmarks. it was also the week of the holy cummunion so we were given the usual bread cube and grape juice (like 20 ml? LoL). we do it this way: the ushers pass around the tray with the little grape juice cups then we get our part then pass it on... like that.

when this couple got theirs, they immediately ate bread and drank the grape juice. they didn't know that we we're supposed to wait for the full distribution of the food, pray for it then eat.

they only noticed their mistake when they saw us all... at the same time, partate with the bread and drank the juice (ala wine). probably at that time they just kept silent, praying "we give you thanks for the food that we recieved... amen."

haha.

jingle bells, deadline bells...

oooh... thankfully i'd be working on just one deadline and that's our reading report due tomorrow. oh well, i just can't start using the computer without knowing i still have remaining internet hours. i mean, that's one major cause of my procastination but it's better than not having the urge to start the computer at all.

finally, christmas shopping done. look at that, my mom gave me 500 bucks... ONLY. for me that's okay. i listed down all the people i'm giving gifts this christmas and they're all 24. okay okay, it might sound big to you (or small even) but i managed to spend only half of my money for all of them. :D

hehe. i'm sooo saving my money for something else so i just bought mini toblerones for all them because... they're on SALE! hehe... i bought two packs...

unfortunately, i opened the first pack.. took one and by impulse finished the whole thing bit by bit... =(

tip: the cheapest gift shop i can recommend to you is Papemelrotti. the cheapest item i saw there is worth 4.25 =) it's a mini tear-on calendar. of course you won't give that as the whole gift itself... you might also want to add some more stuff like notebooks and planners...
you see, they use recycled materials so they don't cost too much. it's even cheaper than you think it is. =D

while in the mall, my sister and i sat on the foodcourt to rest when suddenly, the lights went off. there was a blackout and the people were screaming. i wasn't scared because there's nothing to be scared of. the first thing i did was call on to my sister... then the lights went back probably because of the generator...
then all things went back to normal. i was surprised with myself, i didn't buy anything else except for the gifts. on our way to the mall i was already imagining my peppermind mocha frappe when i suddenly remembered that if want my starbucks, i have to use my own money... grr.

ok. still have to meet the deadline.
frick! i haven't done the revision of my artworks! grrr... this is too much.

have a nice doomsday

finally, the urge to study! i've been waiting for this feeling to come along and i must thank a certain motivation for this.

actually, inez told me we're gonna do the spotlight backdrop tomorrow 9-4pm. that means i will have lesser time to do my homeworks so i decided to just finish some and enjoy the rest of the busy days to come.

oh well, i still don't know what mythological story to use for my reading report. a lot of people will be using pygmaleon and galatea and cupid and psyche. as for me, i'm still working my views on orpheus and eurydice which will be quite easy except for the 'favorite character' part. i mean, i neither liked any of them. orpheus may be one great musician but he lacks trust (who would trust hades anyway?). eurydice is just your average wretched (and dead) damsel. hades is still hades surrounded by corpses. persephone didn't really have a qualifying act in the story (although she did help a lot but.. whatever). who's left?

maybe i should just put zeus as my favorite character for making all things happen and for not meddling in. it was a traggic ending and mind you, i cried even when i just watched it through a filmstrip. it was all good and hurtful =(.

someone made me smile yesterday. my childhood bestfriend, mannie. =) finally, after months of being out of touch she contacted me through friendster. goodness, i miss those years.

mehn. i thought after a week of NO FROG PRINCE, i'll get over the hook but no. i watched it awhile ago and i'm back to tango mania. tango is still hot as ever, charlene is still cool. the kind of lead character you'll never hate for stupidness and idiocy. haaay.

i want to live in my OWN world. if there is such a place.
my own world would probably be just one place.
MALL.
one day adri and i talked about living in such. it was fun imagining things like that... although highly impossible.
you see, everything i need is in the mall. if only i can afford to.
:D

speaking of malls. i haven't made my christmas shopping yet. argghh... no $$$$$!

oh well, have a nice doomsday.

it's our field trip today =(

[edited] it's december 9, 2005 8:45 am

sad to say but i cannot join, i'm still waiting for the full recovery of my knee. let's just hope it won't last until our prosec fieldtrip because i don't want to be an alien in someone else's bus. =
well, today is a great chance to lessen my schoolworks. i still have to
:: redo some of my artworks for the exhibit
:: frame them on a cartolina
:: do the graffiti backdrop for the exhibit
:: do tons of physics self-checks
:: finish my reading report
:: gather notes for helena stollenwerk

i can't take all those!
last dec 7 we went to nez's belated bday party! twas fun! we watched chicken little and i ate a lot of junk! hehe... i love my friends.

intrams.

i was not expecting to recieve a medal at first (no matter how minor the event was) but good Lord, i have recieved my first highschool medal.
frick, first medal in four years? that's so lame, i know, but i'm not really into extra-curriculars. oh well, i guess the category we won was the most minor of all events: props.
anyhow, i'm thankful.
congratulations to all the winners. go psyche! no offense, but i was (or we were) kinda expecting the overall. LoL. but at least we won a lot. =D

my batchmates have gone too competitive. tsk.
i'm changing this layout soon. if time and internet load allows me, i'll be making this page more collorful! =D

i miss my bored life

when you're bored, you suddenly notice things and make a big deal out of them. you laugh at them and you make lousy criticisms, then you notice you're having fun and you finally think that being bored has pros too because it lets you see the world in a more detailed (and funny) perspective like there's always something wrong (or right) about the things around you.

but on the other hand, when you're bored, you'll find yourself seated on a chair with your elbows on the table and your fingers curled under your cheeks watching everyone and everything come and go. the flight of the bumblebee, the fall of the ants, the cheer of the audience, etc...

anyone who passes by your table and looks at you will probably think you're really bored. you're lucky if these passersby are just mere passersby who are on their way to their game venues. unfortunately, you are not quite lucky when one of these 'mere' passersby identifies you as a team propsman then approaches you with rolls of foils, scissors and scotchtape. good omen isn't it?

i'm not saying i hate my work as a propsman (well, i 70% do) but you see, i was at the height of enjoying the boredness of the moment. oh, i'm also not saying that i'm being disturbed or something but well, let's just say i don't like doing pompoms?

true enough.
i helped making pompoms awhile ago and mind you, it wasn't an easy job. i could even consider myself luckier this year than three years ago when i was a freshman when we, propsmen, were asked to make pompoms for the WHOLE cheering team (that sucks).

so there, i cut the foil the WRONG way and realized it only when people are suddenly wondering why the strips are so curly and the bad thing was, i already taped it and it's ready to twist. ~_-;
i was so frustrated with the foil because it's too stubborn.
i have to ask someone to hold the strip-edges so that i can tape it properply.

even though it looked not the way it was supposed to be, we still found consolation with it's cuteness. a permed pompom.

till then. =D

dejavu or dream come true?

take the 'dream come true' literally. awhile ago in sm san lazaro parking lot something freaky happened. we were looking for parking space near the mall entrance and no space was available for us, then i spoke to my uncle, "di lang naman dito pwede mag park eh" then i looked to the 'mall entrance 2' sign behind us. then he told us to go ahead while he waits for parking space and asked me to buy him a take out lunch. then mom hands me down a hundred pesos and i ask my uncle what he wants.... blah.

you see, i wouldn't be narrating that moment to you without a reason because i'll sound like i'm too obsessed with sharing every detail of my semi-boring life but no. there's something behind that moment that freaked me out.

the moment i turned my head behind to see the 'mall entrance 2', i felt like this already happened to me then i remembered the dream i had seasons before and it was exactly the same. i recalled the dream, and i recounted the events after that and as i was thinking of the afterevents i noticed i was already doing it. =
that's weird.
LoL. dream come true nga.

i really felt happy that day because i finally have a charcoal spreader and a set of new ballpens! i bet you know the feeling of writing in good ballpens, those which will not run out of ink after 10 letters or so leaving a faint print of the letter you missed... then after 3 times of retracing the missing letter, the ink will flow back again and you will continue writing. then after 10 letters or so, the ink will run dry again leaving a faint print of the letter you missed... then after 3 times of retracing the missing letter, the ink will flow back again and you will continue writing...(repeat 10x)

i bought The Inferno by Dante for our english reading assignment. it was just awhile ago that i discovered something (not new) about the divine comedy. inferno, purgatorio, paradiso. hell, purgatory, heaven.
interesting.

thanks to jami i can fix the green cube fast! i even practised doing it blindfolded and i was successful. yay! hehe, now i'm looking for other ways to do it.

=)
till then.

i sat bored the whole day

i can't find anything to do... and i just sat down most of the time, watching the cheering practice. no pompoms to twist, no materials for the flag. no anything! just me, the people around me and the scorching heat.. plus the occasional wind strokes.
this was the day i felt most unworthy, like i'm of no help at all. a burden, yeah. but tomorrow, it's time to change the wheel... we're going to do the flag so hopefully the artist me try to come out and i'll be busy.

i'm just bored. i watched everything and anyalized them in full detail. even the softball practice, i now know the weakness of this pastar girl, she may be good in softball but her catching is er... not that good. i watched the ants drop to my shirt and on vero's drumset, claimed three namely Mr. Adam Ant, Mr. Adam Ant Jr. and uhm.. Mr. Adam Ant Jr. II. weird. when you're bored you suddenly notice things and make a big deal out of them. i continued making my retro doodle (grad ball inspired) and managed to imagine a 'retro' gown that will suit me... black and white perhaps. i played with the green cubes (that's how the tindera calls it) and failed to assemble it (i already forgot how i did it the last time). listened to lakambini bottom, my sister's current favorite song because it gave her hope that "e ano ngayon! kung mataba sha? mas masarap daw magmahal ang babaeng lumba lumba...". asus. she's not fat. she's just chubby.

i ended the day with a big sigh. it was just too boring for me to take, i didn't even feel the urge to finish reading 'the unbearable lightness of being' which was getting quite boring because i think i'm not yet in the right part of the book that made it an international bestseller.

however. i don't feel unproductive because there's nothing really important for me to accomplish for the moment.

rebisco crackers: 6% carbo 9% fat

Apollo


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currently feasting on crackers and coffee. sounds familiar? parang burol.
oh well, i missed eating with my mom and dad awhile ago because i was watching frog prince then as a karma there's no food left for me. bait talaga nila.

awhile ago we had a mass. generally i didn't quite enjoy it because i suddenly found out i have my monthly visitor and wtf! i'm wearing our gala uniform (which is all-white fyi). i hurriedly went to the cr to check... and found out i'm in bloody crap. blaaah. i just can't tell you how my misadventures during the mass went since some are just too gross *munches on a piece of cracker* to even describe in ful detail. however, as you can see... i'm alive and i survived.

we also had our field trip orientation awhile ago and it made me finalize my decision that: i will not join the field trip.
my poor left leg will definitely not stand the whole trip which includes a lot of walking and hiking. i might just collapse and die you know *exaggerating*

i made my research on my knee strain and found out i'm having a moderate strain (2nd degree) which will approximately heal from 10-6 WEEKS. i can't wait that long... how bout my bike? grr

till then.

iyo kailan pa man

watched y!speak awhile ago. saw ryan agoncillo again and again... =)
the topic revolves around the rich and the poor...
as much as i love watching debate programs, it still doesn't show in my debate skills... steph will still wholeheartedly give me a 54%, whattabout.

hmmm... i saw the dvd version of charlie and the chocolate factory in mtv and it was COOOOOOLLLL... they have a "how to dance like an oompa-lumpa" selection
which was really cute although i don't think i would enjoy dancing like one.

surprise surprise!
philamlife yet again gave us another VIP christmas gift.. which is another CD they produced. hehe... last time they gave us a cd of manila philharmonic orchestra playing christmas songs and now another cd (opm classics) sang by the philippine madrigal singers, iyo kailan pa man... =)

my favorite, Hanggang. because that's the best song gerald santos sang during the pinoy pop superstar elimination night. and i think he got a 99% for that...

anyhow, i'm just waiting for the right late-night time to arrive because i'm waiting for the sunday movie greats...

tara! manood tayo ng "ang pagdadalaga ni maximo oliveros"!! :D

my grades aren't so bad =)

at least that's what i can say. i'm not very hard to please... as long as i don't have a line of 7... i'm contented. =)
my lowest is still pinoy.. 81.
my highest is prosec... 96. i can't believe it either... although it's a minor subject i still can't get over the fact that i didn't pass 2 reflection papers and i got 96! thank you Lord!
oh well i have to improve 4 subjects: pinoi, english, accounting and teenstar. haha... i failed the teenstar test... it's not really helping me. our teacher is not very convincing...

i computed my averages:
major: 88
minor: 89
all: 88

hmm... not bad. =)

oh well... i want to try the peppermint mocha frappe... =)

yay! friday nanaman!

at last. i'm tired of walking around the highschool building corridors. not only it aggravates my knee pain but also because i don't like bumping into people for the fear that they might hit my knee and... you know. i'm becoming so paranoid, i'm getting cramps often because my knee is very very fragile. my actions are so limited. -_-;;

i always wrap a bandage on to it whenever we start the intrams practice (specifically my being a propsman) but i still have to remove it every now and then because it itches. haha.. kainis.

yehey! uuwi na terai! i mean, she comes home every week so what's the big deal? ewan, miss ko na kapatid ko eh. =)

i finished reading the alchemist awhile ago. it was very nice. some would say it's boring but for me it's not. it has a lot of sense (very paulo coelho-ish) and shares a lot of wisdom too. i especially liked the ending because it's full of irony and i laughed at it.
i shared it to dad and when i mentioned the king of salem... he reacted in an instant
"alam mo ba kung sino yon? si King Melchizedek yun na nag bless kay Abraham. he was God in disguise"
what an omen. i realised it was really God guiding the boy all along. it has bits of biblical references but it's still fiction. i wonder if it's real.

awhile ago too i borrowed another book, Horse Whisperer. it's a little hard to read because of the spacing but it's a New York Times Bestseller so i decided to try it. it has garnered a lot of bestseller awards too so i'm more interested... plus it has horses!

our president loves long-weekends.
no classes on monday! haaay :D

cheer not

i will not cheer anymore!

in the first place, and honestly speaking, most of us take cheering as a last resort. you know what i mean, as for me... i don't really have a choice. i'm not good in ball games, board games etc.. and i don't think i'm worthy of a cheerer too.
anyway, i have to leave because of my injury. haha, i hate it when i look so seriously injured.
awhile ago while junjun and kring takes me to the clinic, it looks like i got my knee strain from a ball game but no! -_-;; hehe

i miss running, i BADLY need to run. it's like ages since i last ran because of this stupid incapable knee. aside from running, i'm getting more and more frustrated with learning how to ride on a bike. it feels like it's not meant for me. it was near my birthday when i suddenly became limp and my birthday gift was supposed to be a bike but hell, what a bad omen!

all i can do now is type and for the meantime i think that's the only thing i'm good at (and a lot of people are still better than me). but what'll change when my knee gets healed? sure, i can run at last! but that won't make me the fastest runner either. but at least i was healed and that's a good enough gift for me to stop bragging about what-nots.

dear God,

please heal me as soon as possible and don't make it any later than december 9. it's not nice to venture in rocks and caves with a bandaged knee you know (field trip). but if it is really in your will to not let me join the fieldtrip, then you'd better give me a sign or something. i want to have fun, as much as how you'd love seeing me happy. so please Lord, that's the only thing i ask of you, heal me now. =) Amen.

PS: thank you in advance.

nocturnal mating

a first year student once told me that cats mate during the night and we people hear them like they're fighting. i think that's exactly what i'm hearing right now, i don't know what is it in cats, why do they have to make it sound like that? it's disturbing and it doesn't sound like they're enjoying their blissful moment. anyway, that was just in case you're wondering why you haven't seen cats fuck in the daylight.

my contractible header doesn't work in firefox versions greater than 1. that's why i have to return it to it's previous state. at least that's the only thing that doesn't work plus the 5px difference of alignment...

i tried validating the codes and i went on as much as 174 errors but of course i won't let that happen, so far the lowest i got is 32 errors which was from the code with contractible headers... but now that i already changed it... I DON'T WANT TO BOTHER MYSELF ANYMORE!

it's 10:30! i forgot to bring my physics book so that means i can't do my homework (i can always use the internet but i'm too lazy to do so). i wish there'd be no intrams practice tomorrow because i swear, my knee won't heal.

i haven't seen pansy parkinson on screen yet! tsk, i was expecting to see her, oh good vibes. draco has only 3 scenes -- if my memory serves me right: 1.) with his dad, wearing a black suit 2.) ferret scene 3.) and the stupidly short yuleball scene where she lifts up an unidentified girl (who knows if it's pansy?). did i forget something?

mehn,i want to learn how to ride on a bike (it's a shame that i didn't go through the childhood stage of learning how to ride on a mini bike with your dad) but how else could i do that with an incapable leg? come on leg, heal!

tomorrow is a brand new week! i'm not even looking forward to it's brand-newness coz it will be just another typical schoolweek full of workloads and unexpected loatheful surprises. but i'm quite happy with it because there will always be people who will give you your daily dose of laughter.

enjoy your week.

the laced dress robe

we watched harry potter 4 yesterday! yay! oh well, i won't be adding my compliments that much but i can say it's the most humorous of all the installments.

i don't hate katie leung anymore. awhile ago while hearing the sermon i realized one thing why they can't make heart evangilista cho chang. she might stand out too much, i mean she might look prettier than clemence poesy and that's not how it's supposed to be! haha.

right now i don't see any positive progress with my muscoBLAHskeletal strain. it still hurts but not too much anymore, the pain reliever paid off. i want it to heal right away! :(

mehn, school sucks:
the more we study, the more we know, the more we know, the more we forget, the more we forget, the lesser we know... so why study?
-quoted from a certain layout

tired of this

i'm changing this layout soon.

i watched My Sassy Girl last night (thanks k.a.!) and cried a lot. it's a very cute movie, i'm just glad our dvd player (in the pc) is working now.

i borrowed The Alchemist by Paolo Coelho yesterday, i might use it for my reading report but i'm not sure yet, i'm just picking out the good books from the fiction section of our library... and i can't find the HP series there!!

i wish i could watch Harry Potter today but i'm afraid we're not going to push through... :(

sometimes i still get confused with the fics, the books and the movies. they're becoming too baffling. i've read a lot of hp fics (HPDM to be exact), cried a lot too, cursed, laughed and choked at times and those particular scenes are still stuck in my head like they're merging with the real idea of HP, the dark SLASH-LESS world of Hogwarts with the infamous git Draco and the unworthy lead character Harry ready to *eherm* entertain you.

michi's right, harry's fic personality can be described in one word: bastard.
hmm... why can't i make my own conclusions like that? i'm not being observant.
oh! i have one, by looking at katie leung (the not-even-pretty cho chang in movie4) and comparing it to genevieve gaunt (the very-pretty slytherin partner of draco malfoy)... i therefore conclude that Harry Potter and the one who casted Katie Leung have a very very BAD taste... oh scratch that... they have the WORST taste ever!!

yay! i checked Phlippine Blog Awards awhile ago and saw the list of semi-finalists. the 667 blog entries were narrowed down to 115 and i'm proud to be one of them! :D i was listed under the Best Blog Site of Year...
let's just hope i stand a chance. =D

i want to watch harry potter now!

a painful yet happy birthday to me!

revised! XD

crap! look at my poor knee, it has an uneven gray rectangle mark from the salonpas i removed awhile ago and now i stick another one!
there there... next i gently and tightly wrap the bandage around then seal it with that metal thing and presto, what a limp.

happy birthday.

it is nice to celebrate your birthday on a very very fine health condition, without any freshly cut wound or aching bruise, without a brainsplitting headache or an agonizing heartburn, without a tuanting 6 months left to live warning or a shocking heart attack and DEFINITELY without a muscoBLAHskeletal strain on the right knee.

happy birthday.

monday this week i was rushed (if that's how you would describe me limping my way through the field) to the clinic since my knee pain suddenly became unbearable due to the cheering practice. thank you kring for being with me all the way! :D
after the clinic incident my mom fetched me and took me to the hospital. i was expecting FEU or Fairview Gen. or Malvar Hospital but Capitol?
there, so she took me to the ER and that was the first time i had a wheelchair ride.
it is, seriously, fun learning how to ride on a wheelchair, to know the functions of those several levers on your left and right and to basically know how to navigate yourself around the hospital without someone pushing you.

happy birthday.

i was absent yesterday because i have to rest. i came back today, on my birthday, for the CRT because i know it's a great time to do nothing tiring but still learn values and all. even with this pain, i still felt happy because of my friends! thank you! i appreciate the jumbo card though at first i was, "ha?" with the cover. hehe...
thanks karlita for the CD! i love it! red + hello kitty + barbie almalbis = JOY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

let's not talk about harry potter! he's being a scene stealer!!

meteor shower

the camping was super fun!
i was half-expecting us to get all bitchy with the grass and the insects but no.
oh well, the activities were fun, especially the 'arrange yourself in this manner' thing. =)
during the night i didn't sleep inside our tent, instead i slept outside on my humid banig and set myself to comfort under the giant blanket of stars.
before i slept jami, laura and i shared on my banig to watch and catch a falling star! we talked about a lot of stuff... =)

i spotted 3! wished 3 times and... oh well, i really hope it's true. it's my first time to catch a falling star.... they say there's a meteor shower that's why there are a lot of stars falling (oh, so they're not really stars... =\)...

uhm, before we went to stargaze we played cards first! haha, that was the noisest game i've ever had so far (with cards).

i enjoyed everything we did! roasting marshmallows, making our very own campmade s'mores, starting up a fire, grilling the chicken bbq, doing a bamboo band while singing 'another one bites the dust' with backmasked lyrics, chasing grasshoppers, looking at the stars... everything from setting up the tent to shaking off the grass from our things... =)

it was a night to remember.

i realized that i really love my batch. why do people come up with bonding activities only when we're soon going to leave? during my freshmen year, i always loathed our batch, what more on the second year when our class is filled with bitches and freaks. i felt a little relieved when 3rd yr came... it was less agonizing on the mingling stage...

but 4th year is different. i love my class.
simply because no one on my hatelist appreared in pamayanan. haha...
they gave us our batch shirt already! yay! ours was.. cool! well, it's actually fine, minus the school logo and the type of cloth used.... =
again again..
harry potter opens on november 16!!
i know the cinemas will be FULL!!
see you there!


=D

my missing frog prince

mehhn... major giddy moment awhile ago. i was screaming at the sight of tango (tang-go) and charlene sharing their sweet moment on the dance floor. where arth thou my prince???

finally, my wish of having even just one of my comexes on the HF was fulfilled. =)

back to my prince. i loathe amphibians, count the frogs in but if i were told that a certain slimy frog will turn into my dream guy once i kiss it, then sure let's give it a kiss.

my giddy hormones are still active!! how does the name tango (tang-go) sounds to you? honestly it's malphonious (haha imbento! check my roots!!) but i'm starting to like it. oh no, adrian parin ako.

hmmm... i failed 3 tests. i'm the bobo-est. -_-;; i failed physics, english and accounting (like 67%?!) i don't like my grades. i told my parents about it and they sermoned me. =) haha, i got myself prepared for that. i promised them i'll lessen my internet and tv hours and study study study.

friday is camping and el fili day! i'm both excited and worried. worried because i'm still thinking of ways to pack my things for the camping plus the tray of eggs. excited because i know that day will be fun! =)

november is my month so i should be getting good vibes but it turns out that i'm not. november is as dead as the month implies. i'm dead with my grades, i'm dead with tango (tang-go) and i might be literally dead in a matter of minutes if the blessings i should recieve will continue avoiding me.

i gave a joketime title for myself! boster. haha, rejected booster + bobo. haha i'm not rejected, nag back-out lang dahil sa mga priorities pero bobo, oo. =)

revelations of backmasking

it seems like i'm not yet ready to face the third quarter. first of all i don't want to see how horrible my grades are. second, i don't want to spend the day under the scorching heat practicing for the intrams, although that would mean lesser time for study, that would also mean lesser aircon time and more grilling hours. yes, i'm being maarte!! third and last, i'm betting that more than 50% of the school population would agree to this: the sembreak is unreasonably short! i don't even think calling it a 'sembreak' is acceptable. it's just a couple of standard yearly holidays plus a few rest days turned into project making days. how inconsiderate.

moving on to the plus side, tomorrow is my besfriend's birthday! happy birthday KARLAAA!!! she's gonna be sixteen, how sweet.
oh, and i got a haircut. =) smile now, arianne.

no, onto the backmasking stuff.

we attended the youth alive ministry yesterday for the first time because we were interested with last week's plug of backmasking documentaries.
in case you don't know what backmasking is, it's a process of reversing songs. the only thing making it controversial is the fact that it can be used to unveil hidden messages.

here's the scary part.
when we backmask a song, we hear weird sounds like those of rewinded videos. that's normal.
in some cases there are songs which when we backmask we hear clear words, words pertaining to stanism and other ridiculous stuff. that's what we watched. this might be old news to you but to me it's not. :p
here are some local backmasked songs:

1. banal na aso, santong kabayo - yano
- the message here is blatantly freaky but backmasking it makes it even freakier.
2. pare ko - eraserheads
- this one i can't believe at first because i used to sing it and it's the first ever song i learned to play on the guitar. tsk.

those are the only songs i remember but there are lots more... according to the documentarist, the artists do not know that there are hidden messages embedded into their song and they only knew it when MGB (magandang gabi, bayan) interviewed them and showed them the proof.

here are a some of the songs we heard.
1. stairway to heaven - led zeppelin
- the backmasked version was the clearest i heard.
2. hit me baby - britney spears
3. plasmatics songs
4. ac-dc songs (anti-christ devil's child) - err, duh? most of their songs are that bold.
5. a couple of beatles' songs
6. a couple of john lennon's songs

etc... songs inflicted with obscured messages are oftentimes the fast rising ones.
oh well, not of all of the backmasked lyrics are harmful but in a way they are somewhat freaky.

check this one: CLICK!

ang palakang prinsipe

mahirap sigurong makahanap ng batang nangangarap na maging si Jade, ang bidang babae sa sa fairy tale na frog prince, dahil sino ba namang bata ang gustong humalik sa isang palakang palakang kadiri at maraming kulugo?

nung bata pa ko, isa ako sa mga HINDI nangarap na maging si Jade o kaya naman si Belle, dahil ayoko sa mga kagimbal gimbal na nilalang, prinsipe man ito o gwapo sa nakalipas nilang buhay.

pinangarap ko na maging si sleeping beauty na lamang dahil mahilig akong matulog at meron akong flora, fauna at merryweather-- si nanay, si ate at ang katulong namin (oo, ang bait sakin ng katulong namin noon, ewan ko lang kung bat kami nilayasan).
hmm. pero wala akong prinsipe kaya hanggang ngayon feeling ko natutulog parin ako at yung dragong nagbabantay sa kin (si tatay) ay nababagot na rin sa kahihintay ng prinsipeng bubugahan nya ng nagaalab nyang hininga (apoy yan).

ayoko rin maging cinderella dahil ayoko ng inaapi, ako yung kadalasang nangaapi lalo na sa mga katulong namin. pero ayokong isipin na ung katulong namin si cinderella, masyado naman siyang ambisyosa. ayoko maging cinderella dahil hindi kagandahan ang paa ko kaya hindi magandang tingan sa isang transparent at glass na sapatos. e mas lalo naman ung sa katulong namin kaya... no comment.

ang tanda ko na, katorse na ko (at malapit na kong mag kinse) pero iniisip ko parin na maging isang prinsesa. wala namang masama sa tingin ko, marami din naman dyang mas matanda pa sakin pero feeling prinsesa parin. =)

hindi ko alam kung bakit ko to sinulat, tinatamad na ko mag ingles dahil nakaka consious sa grammar. haha, pano banaman kasi araw araw, kada serye ng frog prince ay kinikilig ako, gusto ko ng sarili kong Tango (tang-go). kung hindi ka makarelate manood ka ng Frog Prince mon-fri 6pm bago mag bentekwatro oras.

haynaku, liban kay tango (tang-go) ay wala nang iba pang tv personality na nagpapakilig sa kin sa ngayon. masyado pa kong bata (pero muka na kong matanda) at marami pang pwedeng mangyari.

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mehn, i can't believe i wrote "Hate Me" (it's a naruto fic) grr... i'm surprised. everytime i try to read my own composition which contains some fishy stuff and fishy writing (that includes casual swears and cusses, grammatical errors and stupid spelling mistakes), i always get shocked. i keep repeating this line over and over in my brain, "i can't believe i just wrote that i can't believe i just wrote that i can't believe i just wrote that i can't believe i just wrote that i can't believe i just wrote that i can't believe i just wrote that i can't believe i just wrote that"

awww mehn! and people are waiting for me to update.... i can't believe i wrote that! )=\ i don't know, i'm not interested in updating. hehe

mga kagustuhan

things i don't really need to survive but are potential to make my day a lot brighter than usual.

last night:

i was not at all disappointed when mom told us to just eat at a nearby place instead of going to SM to shop for what-nots but my sister argues throwing sarcastic remarks that will leave you baffled and irritated for awhile but when we finally stepped foot in FCM (5 minutes from home) i told myself, "this is quite ok, i just want to eat anyway".

we checked RL and i was, as always, delighted at the selection of shoes, sandals and FLATS. i wanted to buy them but it's not the right time, yet.

then we ate at shakeys, mehn i'm a not a big eater... i'm already full with the salad but oh well, i think there's a glutton inside of me side by side by the wieght conscious me.

blah blah.
i'm so shallow. i'm soo happy when i saw that expressions has a new stock of pilot ballpens! at last!!! and before i forget, i overindulged myself on the cheap panda ballpens (interest brought to me by nez's uncle). i'm especially saving them for the occasional surfacing of my doodly side.

i love the walls of shakeys. they're brick walls with graffiti. only, they're wallpapers. coolness.

dead time quizzes

Your Fashion Style is Sporty

You're a natural beauty who doesn't need fancy clothes to look good You prefer your clothes to be comfortable, so you can stay on the go For you, femininity is not how you wear - but how you wear it. Still, don't be afraid to show off that great body in a dress or skirt!

What's Your Fashion Style?

You are Flat Sandals

Casual yet flirty You look great in a simple top and jeans Your look is approchable and cute!

What Kind of Sandal Are You?

Your Nail Polish Color is Red

How you're unique: You have an incredible eye for style and art Why your style rocks: You are classic and classy - and that's hot! What this color says about you: "I'm smart, sassy, and sexy. And I know it."

What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?

LoL. i will never wear nail polish outside. haha

Your Vibe Is Somewhat Sexy

On a good day, you're the sexiest woman in the world But on a bad day, you can't help but feel a little average Try to remember the times you've felt the sexiest... And keep that attitude even on the worst of days

How Sexy Is Your Vibe?

You Are a Down to Earth Doll

You're good looking and you realize that looks matter And you also know that it's your inside that really shines You do your best to look like an A-lister But you devote most of your time to being a well rounded hottie

Are You Obsessed With Your Looks?

You Are a Carnation

You are down to earth and grounded. You tend to be more traditional than trendy. Your confidence gets you through anything. People trust you and are very loyal to you.

What Flower Are You?

hmmph. i want a rose or a chrysanthemum!

want some challenge?

enter the CRIMSON ROOM

it might not be new to you but in case you failed the last time yo you tried the room out, well maybe it's your chance to be in the escapers list now.
i got out, but i cheated. LoL, i don't care... besides, i went as far as playing the movie and discovering the vault.. i just can't get through the codes but anyway what's a little help?

i also finished the viridian room and the blue chamber with some degrading walkthrough. how's my pride? big deal huh.

i really really supper duper want to go malling but i can't because i have no $$$$! well tomorrow i guess dad will have his allowance so he HAS to treat us out! haha...

i need ballpens! oh and i'll buy lot's of panda ballpens!
i need papers (the 1/2 1/4 cw lw)
i also need to buy a gift. :D

i want a big sketchpad.
i want to have my coffee treat too. =D
i want flats
i want a skirt

grrr... my lower abdomen hurts. =(

double mass.

my parents think i'm becoming too smart because they always see me reading a new book once in a while and they're complaining that the books i read are too dangerous for me. huh? i don't think reading a story about a girl who decides to die but ended up breathing in the end is wrong, not even the story of a girl who chose to be mute to everyone because she got raped. i even shared to them that by the time i get my allowance in college i'll see to it that i purchase a new book every month. something they found (find?? geez) unquestionable as long as i buy the right books because they think that the more i read books of my choice, the farther i stay from God.... which is sooo WRONG. they want me to read books like Developing the Leader Within You or The Key to Prosperous Life. Honestly, they don't seem that interesting i'd rather pretend listening to the audiobook versions of them than read them for real.

I don't like self-help books. I want books with plots.

i'm not being too smart! comown, i failed pinoy, you think that's smart? well i think that's a smart move close enough to ditch Jose Rizal out of our curriculum. Oh i don't hate him but he's causing too much mayhem in my report card.

oh well, i feel like edward in veronica decides to die.

last night there was an overnight prayer meeting here in our house, no food, no sleep and my mom forced me to join. so i join, prayed a bit, sang a bit and later on drowsed to sleep. i woke up still in the rooftop with the halelujas of people, they're singing to God but i also hear some mild snoring i realized it's ok, we're all sleeping anyway. what i do is ask God for a miracle to make that lone red star i see fall down. nothing happens, i lack faith. later on i see a firefly roaming around. i caught it and together with my sister we watched as the insect desperately tries to get out of my hands, we watch as it gives off a flickering yellow light and then we let it go. i wonder if that's how God granted my wish to make a star fall on my hands. cute.

i walked around 11:30 pretending to my dad that i'm soo sleepy, went down to drink but got stuck helping mom to peel off the gingers and BLEND it, i peeled 3. i sometimes slip the knife in my hand so i got little cuts on my fingers, no blood. then i blend them with a cup of water, smells strongly gingerish. i can't stand it. i gave it to mom, she poured it on the boiling water and i found out she's going to make a soup. a ginger soup? who would eat that?

i decided to sleep, i continue reading Speak until i'm 80% percent done then i slept. woke up 7am, mom says we're still going to church, she promised we'll go to the mall after but plans changed because we're going to eat lunch at someone's house for someone's birthday. great. no mall. it sucks be stuck.
we went to red ribbon to buy a birthday cake. drooled over some chocolate mousse, tiramisu meltdown and truffle candies worth 20 each. we bought a choco caramel roll for ourselves to eat at home but we're way too hungry to wait till we get home so we eat in the car while dad drives. no spoon or forks or knives... we're very resourceful when we're really hungry. mom tears off one side of the carton box of the cake and uses it to slice the cake. we now eat. only we're too messy, fudge drops in the seat covers and on my bag and onto my shirt and my white handkerchief got stained, blah.

i love chocolate.

i forgot to tell you that Someone's House holds a church service too so when got there, it's like attending a double mass. i'm tired. i didn't even bother to open my Bible as the pastora asks us to, i pretend i left mine in the car. i watch as the girl in front of me opens her vanity kit and pulls out a black eye liner from avon, her kit is from avon too. i thought she's going to re-touch in the middle of the service, i got irritated. she closed her kit, opened the cap of her eye-liner and marks the chapter in the Bible where were discussing. she's not as bad as i thought.
after the service, it's happy birthday greeting time, i went inside the house (because they hold the service in the garage) and sat on a chair, with permission of course. i just want to spare myself from faking a smile and pretending to act real fond of children when actually i don't like them hanging around like they never ran out of ATPs.
i continue reading Speak. getting interesting, i'm nearly done.
we eat then we walk home, we're in the same subdivision.
i read as i walk as my sister shares the umbrella with me. i'm done reading!

we're now in front of our house.
no keys? great. i don't want to climb the gate like i usually do, so i let my sister do it. my mom and i watches as she drops her sandals inside and sets aside her bag and the umbrella and starts climbing the gate for real. it wasn't a sight to behold, we can hear the thump of her feet as her weight drops from the height, she's kinda chubby.

she opens the big gate, i get the knife from the dirty kitchen and... ooops. i can't just tell you how we open the house if don't have the keys you know. i'm not stupid.

now i'm here, typing down a tale that started yesterday night until this afternoon.

mom said we're still going to the mall.
freakin lightning bolt strikes.

by the way! harry potter and the goblet of fire will start showing on my birthday!! :D

questioning my religious upbringing

i don't know if i'll still end up in heaven someday... that's my ultimate dream you know!
i've been a mega sinner.
because of that my parents called for a bible study in our prayer sanctuary that i rarely visit... because it's way on the top floor and i'm lazy.
what's wrong with me? i always pray at night! i even left my traditional way of praying... the patethic way of praying wherein i make myself sound so kawawa...
i'm not kawawa... i talk to God like i'm a neighbor... the "hey God kamusta ka na? paki bati naman po ng happy holloween sa mga lolo ko o, pati na rin sa mga angels dyan...happy halloween"
masama ba yun?
but i like praying that way!!
grrr... and my parents think i'm losing touch with God because they don't see and hear me pray... =(

comown... i'd be dead by now if i don't have God.
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oh well.
happy holloween!

a quickie post before frog prince

start of sembreak!
i'm not happy since i have a lot of shitloads to deal with, count the projects in...

haay i wanna have my coffee treat already... =(
oh yeah, sooner or later i'm gonna slash one item off my wishlist again!
speak - lurie halse anderson
i'm currently reading it... i borrowed the book from adri
i would rather have my own copy of it but what's the difference? i rarely re-read books anyway, it will just stay on my shelf for decoration and space.
oh well, artemis fowl will follow during the xmas break, i'm so deprived of time to read books... my AF is an ebook which makes me unthrilled to read it because it doesn't come in handy! plus, i promised to finish reading series of unfortunate events first so... carry on r-yan
i would love to if someone would just let me borrow her books so that i can free our pc with some 5 megabytes... =)

anyone?
it's time already!
frog prince!

grade booster huh?

ok, i hope it's not too late to share this but i find (found???) it really helpful. =)

El Fili Study Notes
oh well, look at me. i'm 9 years out of gradeschool and i always thought...
lOl nevermind

the math test was manageable, i'm expecting a high grade in my test because my quizzes are dragged down because of my stupidity!!! grr..

now now, i need to work hard on my pinoi test because i can't afford a failing grade! guess what? my quiz average is a freakin low 68! i would appreciate it better if it were the reverse of it but noooo!

now what? have to study have to study have to study! repeat that until it's 9:30pm and that's the time i open my book and read. i'm so in the procastinating mode today but nevertheless i won't let this lazy brat get the better of me.

how do i start, well the best way to start is to shut this web browser down, disconnect and turn off the computer...
3 steps i cannot bear to do!!

you see, i'd rather not blog during the exam week, better yet not open the computer at all, but the tempation is rising!
so here i am, as you can't see, in the basement, sitting on a monobloc chair, typing on the laptop on top of a wooden table, hearing mom talk to her client over the phone, and blaming myself for a job well done in failing my quizzes!

why do you think i'd waste my time blaming it all on me? why can't i just start studying?

because i'm lazy.

oh, before i forget, i hate the CL test. not because of the difficulty rate but because of the essay questions. i always regard a teacher lazy whenever she just throws in a lot of essay questions and do little of objective type questions because it's so easy to create an essay question but it takes a lot of braincells to answer them correctly.

i hate answering essays, especially essays on CL and other religious stuff. there's this word most of us don't understand and because i was infuriated with it my first sentence was: First of all, i don't know what [this certain word] means but i'm not stupid enough not to have the slightest hint on what it wishes to imply.
yeah, rude.
there's another essay there, about the materialism and consumerism stuff. my first sentence was: My family is not materialistic.
haha, serves you right.

mehn, i'm so bad.
i know.
and because of that i recieved a verbal slip. no, of course not because of answering like that. tardy...

weee. i'm listening to gwen stefani right now... cool.

frog prince mania

here is the link for my previous layouts.

melodia04@blogskins

i decided to make an archive of them in blogskins for other people to use... =) i'll continue doing layouts for as long as i have the skill and the desire to do so... =)

you can use some of them if you like.
i haven't uploaded all of my prev layouts because i don't intend to do so, some of my layouts just suck so i guess i'll just share those which passed my standards.

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i'm into my chinovela obsession again. frog prince is just like the other chinovelas i've watched before, those with really really exciting and romantic beginnings. yes, beginning only, i still don't know if the series will make me sustain my interest in it. other chinovelas i've watched have really good starts but what happens in the middle is they become super mushy because the courting stage ends and the persons from opposite sides of the poles get attracted with each other and develop a relationship and that ends the cliffhanger.

my mom has a crush on ming dao! well, me too of course.
why am i talking about these things?
i should study!!!
actually i'm looking for matthew ming pictures but it's hard! grr, i want to sketch him... hihi.
ok, so matthew ming is ming dao... wait i think i should look harder

inhale... exhale

a lot of schools started their sembreaks weeks before and look at us poor shsians, we still have to go through the agonizing labors (exaggerating) of studying! what is so wrong with our school that we have to spend only 1 week break? and 4 of those days will be used for project making!!! that is so unfair! i have a lot plans in mind to do during the sembreak but now all of them are to be rescheduled for... summer perhaps?

i can't take it. before i sleep by 3pm let me just tell you how my study habits went for the ist day of tests.
we had econ, computer and accounting awhile ago and it was just last night that i started studying...
specifically i started browsing my econ book at 9:30pm. i know it's late but i'm easily distracted by a lot of things like i still watched frog prince and darna and when i went to my room to internalize about my risky procastination through feeling the cold air gushing out from the aircon, i ended up drop dead on the bed sleeping.

not for long because because i felt my cellphone vibrate under the pillow. my bestfriend texted a joke about a TNT whose name is DAN and his misadventures as a paranoid in america. it was really funny so i went out of the room immediately and shared the joke to my family. after making them laugh a while i found myself plopped on the couch watching charmed. i'm not really an avid viewer but i found that episode interesting where pheobe was on the top of piper's death list... oh well. why do interesting episodes like that show only when i DON'T need them. the God of discipline is not with me that time, neither was the God of wisdom.

10:30 came and that's the moment i realized that i have to take things seriously but just when i thought i have all the chance to make a good start, my dad, mom and sister entered the room meaning they're about to sleep and they need the lights off and the music down. you see there is only one aircon in our house and it belongs to my room so all 4 of us have to camp in my considerably big room and feel the coolness together.

i told them i have to study so i need not to turn the lights off but come on, i can't resist that temptation of not talking to them! haynaku talaga... after all the chit chat and jiggies i chose to study at last!
after studying ap, i went to sleep immediately for the 3-in-one coffee i drank has lost its powers

blah blah, so in the end i didn't finish studying everything that's needed to be studied. when i woke up that morning, i rushed my morning routine and studied computer while dad takes me to school, then during recess i studied accounting... =)

i'm so dead.

history of melodia

most of my usernames are under the netnick melodia04. hihi wala wala, i just want to explain. =) here's the reason, there is this anime character i really really like, his name is Musica and he belongs to the Rave series. Simply put, Musica's sweetheart is Melodia and so i became melodia!
you see? if you really love Romeo, wouldn't you name yourself after Juliet?
if you like oranges, wouldn't you like lemons too?
if you fancy gays, why not lesbians? haha i don't!
if you like doctors, you should hate apples. aaahh whatever.

i'm going nuts. hihi
i learned a lot of things in veronika decides to die! like, why are our keyboards not alphabetically arranged? or why do the clock hands move from left to right? not that it bothers me but the book answered it. hihi

oooohh, my sister gave me an advanced birthday gift! i now have 48 pcs. classic colored pencils! take note! faber castel! time to strike something off of my wishlist!

i love grapes.

what a water escapade!

my toes and fingers are much too shrivelled right now due to the very very exciting (note the sarcasm) water escapade we had awhile ago. the whole 2nd floor of our house was flooded because my sister left the water foset on. so, all of us in this house gathered upstairs to immediately dry the place up. you know what's weird?
the closest room to the cr (from which the water came from) wasn't reached by the water but MY room was!! it was so puzzling -_-;; and my room has the most number of stuff inside, there's the stand fan, the wooden table and chair, the guitar (grrr!), my turtle stuffed toy that was lying on the floor (grrr!!!) and the queen sized cusion ON the floor(daaaanngg!)!!!
what more, the floor is not tiled ceramic it's varnished wood!!!
wwwwaaaaahhhhh!!
i'm soo angry with the other room! how come mine's the one victimized when it's farther from the cr!! grrr!

but anyway, while we were cleaning i wasn't angry with my sister or with the water that mercilessly soaked my stuff toy and the cusion we used to sleep on, i was actually full of optimism.
my dad was the pessimist one so i had to calm him down by saying that this event calls for a major 'knock first' emergency call!

hmmm... hehe it exhausted me so much mopping the whole place and accmumulating dust on my hands. eeww i so hate the feeling of strands of hair coiling on my fingers. gaaahhh.

all in all i can't say it's a horrible experience coz it's actually fun, it's been decades since the whole of my family cleaned together.

hihi. tomorrow na USTET!
gud luck to me at sa lahat ng kukuha!

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my sister and i watched 'the twins effect' awhile ago. quite nice! edison chen is so cute!
JACKKIEEEE CHAAAAANNN IS STILLLLL AWESOOMEELLYY COOOLLL!!! \m/

whew!

::from yesterday

so tired... -_-;;
just got home from jami's house... we did the recording for our music project awhile ago and how as it?

quite nice.
if i have something to complain i guess it will be about me who keeps on doing mistakes and stuff while playing the piano but i guess it won't be obvious unless i shamelessly admit them.

anyway, i'm so tired (and i still have time to blog). yesterday we also went to jami's and we ended 8:30pm! so late and i'm commuting my way home!

it was my first time to commute alone at night and i was imagining horrible things like being hold-uped or snatched but who am i to think of those when i know God is with me? hehe... nothing bad happened...
thank you k.a. for dropping me off to sandigan!
haha... so near, so afraid, eh kasi nga gabi na eh...-_-;;

there, yesterday's trip was both filled with nervousness and STENCH!
LoL, it's not my first time to ride on a jeep but the thing is it just rained!!!! RAIN mehn! so when we passed by commonwealth, it stinks big time! not only commonwealth, also litex and manggahan... they all stink!
haha...

today is worse. if yesterday i only have to put up with the stench, this time i have to bear the usual stink and the bad-timing downpour. grr...
ok ok, still... nothing bad happened! hurray... i'm so paranoid. =
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::today

cna you believe it? i'm not yet done with veronika decides to die! it's been a week! anyway, i don't have all the time to read it. i barely read at home... next i want to read speak by laurie anderson if adri would let me borrow hers :)
how come i love books but i'm too lazy to read them?

tomorrow we'll be having the mary-like dressing thing. oh well, got no decent top so i'm going to wear a sleeveless racerback tomorrow WITH a jacket. that's the only way i can hide the immodesty (???) of my dress.
i love my skirt. :D
oh no, i might get a line of 7 in pinoi! i barely pass the quizzes she gives!
good luck to me!

new layout.. again and again

tsk... i get fond of my layouts easily so i decided to make a new one for the nth time... =\ anyway. quite happy with this although i would like it better if it's bigger...

well well, so how's business?
i'm still promoting WEI (wireless engine immobilizer) - an anti-carnap gadget - to my friends who at some part of their mind think that i'm joking. oh well, but i'm not joking... i'm actually getting tired of repeating the same lines over and over again o different people hoping they'll be interested but nevertheless i got the interest of some people... =)

christmas is coming soon that's why i want to earn money. yeah, i said EARN not ask. i don't have daily allowance (like most of you have) so i have to at least earn money. hehe...
i could always ask my parents for it but i don't want to bother them... we all need it. :)
just wish me luck.

school... hmmm still funny as always! that's what i go to school for, to get my daily dose of laughter. it's the only funny place around!
meeehhn. i still don't know how to treat my decreasing standing in math! last quarter i got 95 average on my quizzes but now i only have 81!!! fiiittttccchhhhh!!!
i'm so careless, it's all because of that zero score i got, but even so i don't want to depress myself anymore...T_=

29 days to go before my birthday!

who will be the next... pinoy pop superstar!

wow! im so overwhelmed with joy!
yesterday Aicelle Santos won as the 3rd grand contender for PPS year 2!
what i found amusing is that all three grand contenders
Harry Santos
Gerald Santos and
Aicelle Santos

are.. obvious ba.. they're all Santoses! haha... who will break the coincidence? find out na lng... =)

oh my... crush ko parin sina Harry at Gerald...
meron pa kong isang crush!
napanood ko naman sa Little Big Star.
eew noh? i sooo loathe Sarah Geronimo pero this performer really caught my attention... hehe... parehas kami ni terai natulala

Sam Conception! woohooo he did a song and dance number of Footloose yesterday...hihi... great dancer! great singing voice!
vote for him!!
text
LITTLE SAM
to 2331

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oh my god... promoter?!
the fan in me...tsk

hindi mamamatay ang jueteng II

oh well, back at home!
at last!
did i say i was totally useless awhile ago? oh yeah i did.
i was assigned to do the guitar accompaniment for our song... LoL, fine with me but i already forgot the tune of the song!
i actually want a song that would stick to the audience's brain and would give them an LSS like... the 'hindi mamamatay ang jueteng'

it's from k.a.'s brother's schoolplay that's been recorded so we're able to see it. it's called "anak ng jueteng"... funny talaga... hehe. take note... with subtitles!

=)

hindi mamamatay ang jueteng

i'm here in jami's house! bwahehehee...
hmmph, i don't want to help in our project!!! why? because i know someone will always finish it for us! i'm just wasting my time here.
i want myself to be useful but i can't because someone here is to.. urghh.. nevermind.

tss. i'm so envious of a lot of my classmates and friends and relatives and other people whom i wish will agree to have a one-day freaky friday experience with me.
anyway, i love my life just the way it is.. boring.
=)

where arth thou my mr. right?
there's no one special in my life today! haha... my love life sucks... not even looking for one.

my my, i'm enjoying watching frog prince! because ronald is so cute and he looks like a Filipino. hehe...

oh my, i'm totally useless! i'm not helping them! not that i'd be of any help to them now that 'someone' is there to do the music naman and my presence will be of utter unworth...
LoL. no...
it sucks to be me!

later...

veronika decides to die

i'm currently reading veronica decides to die by paulo coelho... =) i can say i'm enjoying it because i'm learning a lot! i'm actually considering life in a mental hospital, i think it would be pretty nice in there.

according to the book crazy or insane people are those who live their lives in their own worlds. so i think there's no point branding people insane cos all of us have that insane nature in us it's just that people live in conformity to get understood.
oh well, it's sucks to be spending your life in useless conformity so just get crazy and be yourself.

hmmm...i'm still wondering how my life would be in a mental hospital. in that place no one would care if i talk to myself and do monologues since we're all crazy and it's our way of conforming with others... in a mental hospital things i've been obscuring to the public would be revealed in a manner that it would still look normal to the people there. i'm not saying that what i'm hiding within will admit me as a patient in Villete but it's just that i think the mental hospital is the best and safest place to start stripping myself off of my crazy manners.

hihi... i could sing
'if you were gay'
'the internet is for porn'
'it sucks to be me'
and
'i'm not wearing underwear today'
all day long without having those curious eyes on me!

i could say whatever i want, recite my blog even and roleplay romeo and juliet all by myself! again, without people wondering where the hell did you came from.

wow. the book kinda works... haha still in page 70 though... hehe
i'm perfectly normal mind you. =)

oops. it's frog prince now! have to watch!

the gay way!

hehe i like gay people!
i always get giddy whenever Patroclus' name is mentioned in our discussions with Iliad, coz i know Achilles will always be involved! come on, they're a pair!!!

also... Nicky and Rod from Avenue Q already penetrated in my nerves... LoL gotta like gays!

hehe. oh well, i still think i'm 90% straight! i like gwen stefani!
i'm so inspired to make layouts today... it's just that i can't put it on top of my shitload priorities... =( but sooner... yup! i'm looking for images... hmmm

dlsu-cet

just got back from la salle.
what can i say, it's pretty hard for me. yeah i guessed a lot of numbers and solved only those that looked quite easy to solve coz i didn't study for it. hehe, no regrets, as i've wrote here before i have no plans of being affiliated with la salle. not that i hate it, i just don't want to waste the money and the tears, oh shut up. i didn't even know why, in the first place, i applied for lasalle.

oh well, things are getting great so far.

i haven't finished reading my hrr book, hmm... it's ok since i just have to read the remaining 50 or so pages. i've fininished the whole story, it's just that i haven't finished the reading the whole book - cover to cover.

and then... i still have to do the 8.5 by 8.5 illustration of the two mysteries of the rosary (jowful and sorowful) for our bulletin board. no problem, i'll fix that later.

plus the incomprehensible anal geom homework. hmm.. whatever i'll find a way with that sometime later.
blah blah blah...

ooohhh i'm downloading 2 songs today!
both from avenue q sountrack
'if you were gay' and 'the internet is for porn'
both are sooo freakin funny!
hehe first heard it when reg sang it to us when we're practicing for the indian song. then just awhile ago jami let me hear it on her phone so there i was excited once again some musicals. just like the other time when i'm having this beetles-mania thing... hehe... hey jude!

just want to share to you the lyrics of 'if you were gay'
really funny!

If You Were Gay lyrics

ROD
Aah, an afternoon alone with
My favorite book, "Broadway
Musicals of the 1940s."
No roommate to bother me.
How could it get any better than this?

NICKY
Oh,hi Rod!

ROD
Hi Nicky.

NICKY
Hey Rod, you'll never
Guess what happened to
Me on the subway this morning.
This guy was smiling at me and talking to me

ROD
That's very interesting.

NICKY
He was being real friendly,
And I think he was coming on to me.
I think he might've thought I was gay!

ROD
Ahem, so, uh, why are you telling me this?
Why should I care?
I don't care.
What did you have for lunch today?

NICKY
Oh, you don't have to get
All defensive about it, Rod...

ROD
I'm NOT getting defensive!
What do I care about some gay guy you met, okay?
I'm trying to read.

NICKY
Oh, I didn't mean anything by it, Rod.
I just think it's something we should be able to talk about.

ROD
I don't want to talk about it,
Nicky! This conversation is over!!!

NICKY
Yeah, but...

ROD
OVER!!!

NICKY
Well, okay, but just so you know —
IF YOU WERE GAY
THAT'D BE OKAY.
I MEAN 'CAUSE, HEY,
I'D LIKE YOU ANYWAY.
BECAUSE YOU SEE,
IF IT WERE ME,
I WOULD FEEL FREE
TO SAY THAT I WAS GAY
(BUT I'M NOT GAY.)

ROD
Nicky, please!
I am trying to read....
What?!

NICKY
IF YOU WERE QUEER

ROD
Ah, Nicky!

NICKY
I'D STILL BE HERE,

ROD
Nicky, I'm trying to read this book.

NICKY
YEAR AFTER YEAR

ROD
Nicky!

NICKY
BECAUSE YOU'RE DEAR
TO ME,

ROD
Argh!

NICKY
AND I KNOW THAT YOU

ROD
What?

NICKY
WOULD ACCEPT ME TOO,

ROD
I would?

NICKY
IF I TOLD YOU TODAY,
"HEY! GUESS WHAT,
I'M GAY!"
(BUT I'M NOT GAY.)
I'M HAPPY
JUST BEING WITH YOU.

ROD
High Button Shoes, Pal Joey...

NICKY
SO WHAT SHOULD IT
MATTER TO ME
WHAT YOU DO IN BED
WITH GUYS?

ROD
Nicky, that's GROSS!

NICKY
No it's not!
IF YOU WERE GAY
I'D SHOUT HOORAY!

ROD
I am not listening!

NICKY
AND HERE I'D STAY,

ROD
La la la la la!

NICKY
BUT I WOULDN'T GET
IN YOUR WAY.

ROD
Aaaah!

NICKY
YOU CAN COUNT ON ME
TO ALWAYS BE
BESIDE YOU EVERY DAY,
TO TELL YOU IT'S OKAY,
YOU WERE JUST BORN
THAT WAY,
AND, AS THEY SAY,
IT'S IN YOUR DNA,
YOU'RE GAY!

ROD
BUT I'M NOT GAY!

NICKY
If you were gay.

ROD
Argh!

disappointed =(

oh well, that was awhile ago so i'm feeling fine now.
yesterday i was excited to visit terai coz we thought it'd make her happy but no. she's so glum when we went there and she doesn't like it that we brought food for our little family picnic right outside their dorm (which is natury in ambiance fyi) coz she's expecting us to eat outside... chowking or mcdo or kfc perhaps?
=(
brrr... as much as i'd like to enjoy the food (the lechong manok, the lechong kawaling baboy, the fried rice and the veggy salad) i can't coz we feel like our visit was wasted.

just yesterday she texted me, mom and dad about her happiness when she passed math 17 but now she seems so unhappy about it. hmmpphh, kakainis!
she said she wanted to eat fast coz she's going to study pa...
so after all the traffic we've been through she's just going to dismiss us that way?

tsk.

there, the three (me mom dad) of us are sad on our way home and we TRIED to just understand her and her wrong approach when she's being pressured and it worked a little although we're expecting her to call us for a rightful apology... and she did, when we were already in commonwealth (which is about 2 hours later).

next... my disappoinment was also lessened down by my drug, caffeine. i had another plastic cup of a mocha frappe. happy.

tomorrow is the dlsu-cet.
i'm neither excited nor nervous. either way (pass of fail) i won't be studying there, i just don't want to waste the 500 pesos that i cried for and all the fuss about getting my NSO birth certificate! do we look like a fixer?!

i don't really have time to study for it even though i know it would be hard but let's just leave it that way. haaay...

wotcher.