he's coming back

and i thought i've already freed myself from him a year ago.

it's not that i'm falling for him for the second time, but it's more like, uhh, yes there's a chance. but i don't want to be the one who will pursue in it, i've done my part. i've been hurt. if he suddenly realizes that i'm worth it, i want him to be the first to confess (becuase i didn't bwahehe). because right now, i just see him as a friend. yup, nothing more. but i cannot deny that he is a very good gentleman. and i miss him for that.

- i miss those days when we're walking home together... he'd ask me if he's walking too fast, even if i say 'hindi, ok lang', he'll slow down for me.
- when we're crossing the street, he'll always transfer to the side where the vehicles come from
- he always lets me in the gate first
- he holds the umbrella for me (uhh, dapat lang diba? hehe)
- when we part he always says bye then 'ingat'
- when we're walking together and he sees a friend and leave for a while, nagpapaalam pa sya... and i like it when he runs back to me afterwards

wala ang dami ko lang namimiss. dati kasi nung mga oras na yan, super crush ko pa sha kaya mega conscious ako. tahimik na tahimik nga ako sa kanya eh. pero ngayong nawala na yung feeling, mas naging open ako sa kanya. :) sayang lang kasi di ko na sya mashado nakikita... by chance na lang. :)

grabe namiss ko sya, sobra.
kung tutuusin ganun na ganun ung ideal bf na gusto ko... pero whatever diba.

Lord, whatyouthink?

pati si leonard miss ko na rin. ayos din kasi yun kausap eh... lalo na nung spcm1 days namin.. minsan pag walang klase... tambay lang sa hum tapos usap usap ng mga balak sa buhay. haaaay.

ang ganda rin nung may nakakausap ka diba? :)

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we didn't have hum1 again awhile ago. surprisingly, i wasn't disappointed. i'm doing a good job forgetting him. good. good.

ok nga eh kasi mejo ayoko na rin sa kanya. weh. di nga... basta. :)

ok, no more new dorm

just now i decided not to push through with new dorm anymore. i figured that this very hot season isn't a good time to live in a remote area and besides i also realized that if i really wanted to study, i should've fixed myself earlier. i should stop blaming the environment for tempting me with whatnots.

it's really me who has the problem.
sometimes i just get in the mood to study but i never really work on it.

anyway, my crush. yes, have you noticed? i'm not babbling a lot about him like i used to in my previous entries. maybe i'm becoming more fond of him that the 'crush' factor is slowly depreciating. i like it better that way. he's busy. i 'should' be busy. there's no way for something out of the line to spark between us. and mygosh, i'm not exactly assuming something am i?

alright, back to the first paragraph (pardon my incoherency).
i won't be transient-ing to new dorm, i won't be considering mendoza either (no matter how much mom tells me that she doesn't care about the price).

i think i'd be moving in to an apartment or a house with my fellow dormates.

that's a sounder decision, whatyouthink?

torrent in limewire = SUPERCOOL!

at least i won't have to download u/bitorrent! yeah.
man, i always knew it was a bad idea to go online for downloads right before class.
result = due to long dl time, i resort to skip class.

i might just get another 5 you know.
somebody slap me hard.

i just want to site this wonderful free anime ost downloads haven (in case you're not into torrent and prefers direct link downloads)

KINGDOM HEARTS INSIDER

that's about it.

wooot!
i'm back in primelink!!!

for 2 reasons:
LIMEWIRE!!!

and the most important deciding factor?? bwahahaha

they can recognize my creative zen as a portable media device. this has always been my problem because whenever i stuck it on other ports all it does is charge... it won't get recognize... it's an OS thing i guess... winvista recognized my device just fine that's why i can readily transfer mp3 files and photos directly onto it.

oh the coolness.

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by the way.... NO MORE SWIMMING!!! yeah! last meeting na namin kanina... ehehe

we were clustered awhile ago according to skill... i'm in the first cluster! yehey! the first cluster usually contains the best swimmers in class (then there's the 2nd, 3rd and 4th clusters as well). :) yey. and we are also required to compete against our clustermates. hehehe... i'm fourth on freestyle... but i won first in backstroke!!! yeah!

then we were shuffled for another competition, this time 100m relay... 4 in a group... containing people from the 4 different clusters... guess what... WE WON!

yaaaaay!
thank you Lord! :D :D

and because some of my classmates were absent... our teacher asked some of us to join the other group because they were lacking members. man, i was called. >___>;;

after the session i was soo exhausted, my legs are kinda overworked... i could just collapse right there and then, yknow.

but it was fine.
i had fun.
why, i love swimming.

and it's just now that i'm kinda shining on it because highschool never gave me a chance. it's always the varsities! and you know how much it sucks to be jailed with a static identity for FOUR FREAKIN YEARS. being an artist gives you no special privilege to cross the borders of the jocks because they think artists are those people who like anime, loves to draw and mumble incoherent japanese phrases. they're also, by a blasted stereotype, the smart pack.

which means they're utterly useless in sports.
which is so not true.

gravitation!!!!!!

omg! i missed gravitation sooooo much i'm watching it again right now through streaming media. woooooh! so hopefully hindi ako maubusan ng pera dito... like usual!

FOLKS, I CLEANED MY ROOM!
this isn't supposed to be something new but i kind of reached my tolerance limit to the garbage scattered on the floor, beside my bed. you see, our room isn't really dirty (i share it with ate lovely)... it's just too small for us. too small to fit ourselves and our bulging items... that's why i resort to throwing things everywhere... when i leave for class, i just search among the pile of books and handouts scattered aimlessly on the floor and look for that one piece of photocopied paper which bears the coverage for that session's quiz. i tell you, it's taking a lot of my time.

i'm not a messy person (if i am, then i wouldn't bother cleaning up). i actually want things organized, but you can't always be organized every day... every class... haha that's hard. that's why i try to be neat as much as i could.

wenkwenk.
oh here comes the shtload.

woooh!

marami nanamang taosa internet shop!!! >___>;; pano ba naman kasi... start nang online registration period! hahahahaha

 

gooooood luck sakin! :D:D

dapitan

wooooh! an attempt to get an 'old feel' effect using the color balance toolbar in photoshop. yey! :D

take. december last year at dapitan... no, not the historical dapitan.. but the dapitan arcade famous for its native retails and cool christmas decors. hehehe :)

hayhayhay.
i don't think my sister would be taking summer classes here... which means my parents are not probably going to let me stay at new dorm!!!!

Lord, help! :D

but of course, more than getting into new dorm... i need to get phys13 and chem160 this summer!!!! go for the hagardness!!! :D :D

as usual

earlier this weekend i was sooo goodmouthing mendoza to my parents... and they just won't agree without seeing the place. but when it fell down to two choices, new dorm or mendoza... my mom is so positive about mendoza, and me? i just changed my mind about it... i liked new dorm better.

oh the swings.

ok, let's make a semi-critical semi-biased analysis:

MENDOZA:

(+) - good facilites, NEW, nice receiving area. nice room (just good enough for 2 heads). nice ambience.
(-) - PRICE PRICE PRICE. a room, if shared by 2 will cost 3,000 per head (if taken alone - 5,000)... and that's NOT inclusive of water and electricity. water - additional 200 (fixed)!!!!! electricity... it depends because each room has its own meter. so for a month you have to shell out more than 3,200 pesos.

tell me, is that practical enough?

NEW DORM:

(+) - just your average university dorm. you can't really expect a lot on its facilites but i don't care much. as long as i can take a bath, sleep well, and get a good study environment, i'm game. what's good about it is that it's really cheap... and i have to put that on top of the list. 650 rental (inclusive of water and electricity)... if you have a laptop you just have to pay 50 a month. and a refrigerator?? 80 bucks, man! now that's incredibly tempting. and compared to other univ. dorms... (MRH and women's) it's pretty cleaner too. it has a canteen too. err i'm really ok with it (it's just my mom).

on the downside,

(-) - it's FAR. yeah, that's just about it... and my parents keep on worrying if i get home late at night... how will i be able to manage?

man, i'm always assuring them that i won't be going home later that usual. yeah, there's the org... we do have some activities that take up most of the evening... but there's datu and faye! if neither of them are attending... SO AM I.

and there's always a jeep at ministop, yknow. >_______>;;

i came as far as convincing my parents to go on a transient this summer. my sister will be coming along too so that's really nice. hahaha. okokok, we'll see. we'll see.

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hey i just opened my systemone account and checked for the available courses offered this summer...
what the fck, there's no CHEM32!!!!!!!!!

so by all means, i'm going to take chem160 (if by a miracle i pass chem40 this sem) and phys13 (C3L, please Lord!!!).

man, i can see my impending doom.