before i continue watching My Princess

things to thank God for this day:

1. i colored my hair. more like i asked daddy to. HAHA lechon, ayoko ng kulay pero sayang 150! HAHAHA i told mark to buy me one worth 15 but when he came here, naddaaaaaaa! orayt. napamahal tuloy. che. anyhow. it's still something to be thankful for!

2. i'm finally getting over not being hired at school this summer. i only felt bad about it because my boss already told me that we're working on 25 even before finals week started! she's like reserving our vacation month ardy for some major lab revamp, so i blocked it! but then i haven't received a confirmation message from her or from the HR (who's supposed to be the ultimate confirmatory person) so i guess it's a dull case... my other colleague got hired so that makes me more bitter. paasa. yun. masakit cos i've been expecting this all summer. if i had known sooner then i should've spent the finals week job hunting! or had my boss not told me that i'm working on 25 when in fact, it's not her decision who works this summer... then i wouldn't be this bitter.

actually hindi naman talaga ako sure pero ayun lang, the lack of confirmation says it all.

3. i did my resume and i was quite pleased. hello bragging rights! they've multiplied over the months LOL though i dunno what chances i have. the world is a scary place full of scary competitors lol

4. i had chocolate!

5. and spaghetti! >XD

6. and i'm flipping over My Princess. >XD

thank you Lord!

i figured that even though generally this day was crap (because of some piss off at facebook), if i make a daily list of things to be thankful for then it lightens my mood and it feels like calling this day crap is such an overstatement. there's so much things to be thankful for each day. super. and i wish to continue this everrrryyyday of my blogging life para masaya ako lagi. hehehe

there is not really a bad day ykknow. it's just that yesterday was better than today, but doesn't make it bad at all. it's all a matter of perspective. hokey. every body let's be happy! >XD

take note! by being happy i'm not refraining myself from posting crap about people! osabagay, being happy is different from being nice! hoho

dear Lord

sakin na to please. please. please. >:''((((

Amen.

anu raw??

what is an idea, in the first place? isn't it as generic as a thought? when people discuss about something as trivial as people or as significant as events, don't they input their ideas into it too? their points of view, their stands? and yet quoting (again and again) eleonor roosevelt, "great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, small minds discuss people." ???

i love that statement. i really do, but when i was "trying" to dig deeper into it... by evaluating if for the most part my mind was being great, or average, or small... i came to wonder what she meant about the type of ideas great minds discuss. is this when albert einstein talks about the theory of relativity with his colleagues? or when charles darwin convinces people that we evolved from monkeys? how about the church going against the RH bill? aren't those aaaaall ideas? IF, and idea is, yknow, simply a form of thought.

naisip ko lang, correct me if my analogy is flawed:
words are to conversations whereas ideas are to discussions
if so, then going back to the quote. we all have great minds, after all conversations aren't turned into discussions without a propelling notion i.e. an idea.

pero joke lang yan. of course i still totally agree to e.roosevelt haha



things to be thankful for on this day:

1. walang nangyaring masama. or relatively masama. HAHA
2. hmm. mahaba tulog ko.
3. kinikilig ako sa My Princess!
4. nakapag-bike ako kahit 20 minutes lang kasi biglang umulan

thank you Lord.

talaga naman oo

this day was so friggin hot! >XO nakakagalit ang init!!!! >_< ambilis ko mabadtrip. hay. hay. hay.

things to be thankful for on this day:

1. sold my phone finally! tumubo pa ko ng 50 pesos yehey! now i'm back to black and white! i realized it's the bestest phone i could ever have. colored phones tend to hang when messages start to stack up. touch phones are a pain when you want to type fast. high-end phones aren't for students who commute everyday and are fond of hanging stuff on their necks. haha last na talaga to Lord. di na ko masisilaw sa mga magagandang cellphone! pag may trabaho na ko for real, chaka na lang ako maguupgrade. for now. necessity ko ang flashlight (pag ginagabi sa daan) at "insert number to text msg" feature that is lacking on nokia OVI phones (primarily why i sold my c1-01 apart from  ayoko dun sa nagbigay ops joke lang.). that feature is a must for me kasi nagloload ako eh! paload ka? >:D

anyhow. i'm so glad it was sold in less than a week!

2. in relation to #1. now i have money to pay my 2 monthly bills! sakto cos kararating lang nung isang bill. yehey.  yehey. paying bills (as in bills of services i personally consume) on time make me feel like a responsible adult. ALTHOUGH at some point, i think i'm too young to be paying bills! feeling ko baka pag laki ko, andami kong gastos sa buhay. anyway, God will provide! yaman din lamang na magiging magastos ako in the future, ibig sabihin, I AM BOUND TO BE RICH! diba Lord? haha

3. coffee and cinnamon! >XD

4.SLEX for the first time in a looooong while. long while meaning, the last time we drove past the toll gate, the toll fee was 65 or something, now it's 151. homaygaaadddd. the roads were definitely better tho! >:)



why bother?

tama. why bother involving myself with stuff that has nothing to do with me in the first place? ika nga diba, curiousity killed the cat... but satisfaction brought it back. pero this time, i give up. i give up na talaga. i'll quit prying into people's business. i'll quit scooping around people's lives. i'll quit asking. i'll quit wanting to know more.

ok lang naman. i can live with it. less gastos! my friend is by my right, LOL. together we'll focus on things that are much more important than gossip and frolics. together we'll kill our social lives and be indifferent. from now on, i'll listen only to the things that are said to me, personally. i'll quit being a digger, even if it kills me inside cos i feel so left out. kayo kayo na lang mag chismisan.

quoting eleonor roosevelt, "Great minds discuss ideas, Average minds discuss events, Small minds discuss people."

ok lang yan. at least i have someone with me, someone who has always been there, someone whom i will always cherish. awww i love you! seriously. more than anyone else in this drying grassland. hahaha tayo na lang! wag na sila!

how shyness is a form of vanity

so why are you shy?
because i'm afraid they'll laugh at me
why will they laugh at you?
because i'm afraid i'll mess up and they'll notice
why will they notice?
because people notice all the flaws on stage
of all the flaws on stage, why do you think they'll look at you?
do you think you're pretty?
do you think you'll catch their attention even if you messed up?
do you really think the people out there are watching YOU?
it's not like that...
yes it is. you're not shy. you're narcissistic! you're vain! you think when you come up on stage, people will be looking at you. now, let's put that narcissism to good use. why don't you go out there and give justice to what the people are expecting of you, after all, you don't want them looking at you disappointed, right? go there are drown in their ogling eyes. you think you're that pretty right? you're not shy. you're afraid of the attention they might give you. which means you're expecting attention from them. cut your shy-face and go onstage, you attention deficit scum!

ay galit sya. HAHAHA

The "Feeler" Quotient: A Social Experiment

what if i tell my friend A, that her friend B has a huge crush on her, when in fact he doesn't (and i have to make sure!!!)? i want to observe how A will react. will she be conscious of her actions? will she avoid B? will she flirt? 

i want to know what goes on in people's head, what silly assumptions they create, when they are presented with a notion that flatters their ego. it's funny and embarrassing if the truth leaks out but i am curious as to what heights people feed their ballooning heads with self-assuring junk. 

which is why the experiment has to be conducted within my circle of friends (the risk is there but. haha idea lang naman!). i have to be my friend A's confidante. she has to tell me what she thinks about B, and his "huge crush on her" looool. will she start noticing B? will she bask in the imaginary attention B is giving her? will she develop feelings for B too? will she recall all the moments she has spent with B, and analyze everything as if there was a hint in it? i bet most girls would. HAHA

wala lang bakit ba.

naiinis ako e. andaming feelingera sa mundo!

sus porket ganto, porket ganyan??? haneeeeeepppp e kung ginanyan ka lang pala e feeling mo crush ka na, ano pa kaya saken?! wusowssss

ehehehe

it's been almost a week since i last wrote here! i think i'm finally getting over the 'blogging hype' HAHA 6 years to recede BWAHAHA

by the way, i was able to sleep for 12 straight hours last night and it was awesome! no headaches after i woke up! >XD probably because i've gone 48 hours awake last thursday and friday HAHA wanna know why?!

JM! JM! you know how we never really talk like taaaalk unless he's asking me for a favor or whatever. hokeeeyy but seriously, when he called last friday asking me for a super duper large favor, which cost me to sacrifice my scheduled 4 hour remaining sleep time AND lunch with my friends for the last time this tri which i seriously regret (gusto ko talaga magjollibeeee kaso. huhu), i was like...

how can he just call me like that and ask me such a thing? i mean even if he promised to pay, it was asked on a jiffy! i was in the middle of debugging an asshole of a vb.net project, and he enters in dumping more load on me like i haven't had enough to bear for day. why?! why me?!

i have every reason to decline the job
first is, as i've mentioned. i have a project to finish
second, they called me pretty late that night and told me the job(which consists of a project, hw and activity for FOUR PEOPLE) is needed the next day at 1 or 2pm.
third, I HAVEN'T SLEPT BITCHESSSS. do you really want to kill me?!?!

but in the end i said, YES
then i realized, why me?! of all people why me?! there are so many others out there who are relatively unoccupied and wants money and can do basic html and crap so why the heck?!
then i went into quite an emotional turmoil, that maybe he thinks i'm stil soooo friggin head over heels for him that i'll do anything he asks! i felt like i was taken for granted again and blaaaahhhh

yes, i still like him cos he's really nice and good looking but that's all. it's definitely superficial. he's not even the man of my dreams. it's good that we became friends cos i was able to get a psych profile of him. if i didn't then i would be voodooing him seriously haha it's just hard to get over him with all the teasing and stuff. it's easier when no one knows. ugh whatever.

o, so yun nga. pero ok lang. i was ranting about it on twitter. and i've been twirling my hair for 2 days ever since i started on the vb.net thingy., it's a mannerism i've developed when i was in LB, and now that my hair is longer it kinda resurfaced haha. it's not really a stress manifestation but it's kinda turning into one. e wala lang, it's fun twirling hair bwahaha.

anyway, they paid naman. larger than i expected pa nga e, and he bought me food blah blah blah. ok naman! thank you Lord! >:D