so that's how it is!

bitin ako sa binili kong siopao. >___>; on the way to the henlin store, my mind is making a mental struggle whether to buy a siopao for 28 or a big shawarma for 45, apparently the siopao won. i thought it would weigh the same in my stomach but no. haha. anyway, i'll just got to satiate myself with buttered corn later.

i just came from my pm class awhile ago. well, i might say i'm kinda lagging behind already. gotta concentrate better! but the techniques are still unbelievably effective.

i'm currently reading whitney my love. why, i am so enthralled by romance novels i thought i could also make my own. but then, mine would be so boring because i have no idea what to write. besides i've just come to realize that i don't know men... AT ALL.

being the only girl in our class, i kinda have to settle being the shy type. well, naturally, i am... specially around people whom i know are way senior to me. so i just have to endure their chatting, which aren't at all boring, in fact i'm thinking our coach is an actual geek, he knows a lot. man, and jay, my classmate is just as enthusiastic about the infos they share almost every meeting. yeah, their close. and it's so fun because i get to learn a lot.

and you know, with their talking i get to sneak on how 'guy' talks come about. i learned that just like in the teen movies where men converge to talk about which girl flipped and flopped their senses, they're pretty much the same.

so to spare my girlishness, i thought they actually had to scale down their chatter. i never thought amanda bynes looked hot to men, actually it's the first time i heard she did bring a sizzle to their uhh, what...minds? idunno. i always thought of her as annoying... but cute...i have to credit her for putting up a good show at 'she's the man'...but hot?

just how do you judge someone's hotness?
men, really. i also gathered in a could-be-hasty generalization that most guys prefer agressive girls. i could just laugh at the way jay agrees to it (with paris,britney and lindsay -the flirtatiously deranged trio). hahaha, and coach is much of a spectacle too when he mimics action stunts and growls. lol.

it's a fun pack, i tell you.
i'm grateful i didn't waste my summer bumming over zuma and ravenhearst manor. which i'm partially doing. haha

because i can't stop myself

i'm happy. can't you seeeeeee?
i'm on a 20/hr promo here in netopia FCM! back in Convergy's they charge 40/hr! booooo.

i just came from my pm class. hehe learned another useful technique. hey, i didn't know i could memorize scientific names that easily! yehey!yehey!

and so i'll plug.

POWER MEMORY
Convergy's Commonwealth (lower ground)

that's not the main branch but it's the nearest franchise so my parents went for it.
i'm telling you this because i know it works. and you've got to believe me on this. :) their demo looks like this. they ask you to give them 10 items with corresponding numbers from 1-10... randomly.

demo-er: give me a number
demo-ee: 5
demo-er: a word?
demo-ee: whiteboard
demo-er: next
demo-ee: 10.castle, 6.baloon, 4.mickey mouse, 7. molasses....

until you finish ten items.
then, the demo-er will effortlessly recite them back to you... IN ORDER. wooooh.

pardon the demo-er/ee. just don't know how to put it correctly.

hahaha.

I BOUGHT A BOOK!
whitney my love by judith mcnaught.
sorry yndi, i can't wait! hahaha
i'm so excited to read it! a lot of people are recommending it kasi and i can't resist cos it's romance! bwahaha, here goes my fetish.

ohgosh! i need 250x7 pesos to buy all the Coehlo Books (that i don't have yet) in national bookstore! huhuhuhu

someone give me moneeeeeyyy!!!

you know what, if i had known earlier (or if had just thought of it earlier) that i'm not really going on double probation last sem, then i could've taken summer classes instead!

But God is GOOOOOD. sooo Goooood he didn't want me to know yet because he has a better plan, and it's PM.

thank you so much.

magpapa burger akoooO!!!

@ - i got to learn a fantastic memorizing technique from PM yesterday. i am so bewildered by the effect... and frankly speaking, it isn't that hard to get! look, i got to memorize 20 middle eastern countries, 6 inert gases, and the 9 fruits of the holy spirit plus 20+6+9 relative objects. that's roughly 60 something terms and i still can't forget it... i can even recite it backwards. man, just how useful is this class?

@ - i also got to meet my one and only classmate, jay. coach bruno was right, he is really good looking. :) (he wears glasses but isn't nerdy looking bwahaha, they're frameless kasi) i enjoyed his company, really. he's friendly and accommodating and is a complete gentleman. he also stayed in new york for a quite some time so my slang is being tested. hahaha just where do you get such package? thing is, he is training to be a minister and is already 28.

i didn't just hear an aww, did i?

@ - after all, i'm not really dismissed. woooot woooooh!

@ - ugh, i deserve a celebration! bwahahaha

something to look forward to

i attended my first power memory classes awhile ago. well, it's a make-up class really because i wasn't around yesterday (i was in elbi remember?).

 

hmmm. it was really interesting, though at first it was so intimidating cos they gave me this diagnostic test which would measure my memorizing skills.

 

my mind went: "WTH? 50 unfamiliar terms in 4 minutes?!?"

so i went full force... naussa, harare, gobone, belmopan... ugggh!! ok, so it was hard and infuriating at first but coach bruno during the lecture process taught me all about harboring the right attitude for every walk of life! it was so enlightening and yeah... go look at the title. :)

 

i got a below beginner grade when they checked my paper but they say it's ok and normal, and even added that it's even higher than the others who took the test. but it was still.. disappointing. bleeeeh.

 

i was planning to go online after the class - cos i'm in convergy's and there's netopia upstairs - but my parents fetched me so gaaah, can't sneak out. good thing we visited lola so here i am - nakiki-internet! woooooh!!

 

haaay. still have to go back to elbi this friday to do some stuff hehe, i won't be staying for the whole day cos i have class at 330 that day. hehe

 

i only have one classmate in PM this summer, a filipino-american one if i heard it correctly... hmmm, interesting. :)

 

alright, it's time to stop being a bummer!

 

btw, i'm back to exercising regularly! woooooh!

a sudden feeling of depression

i need to divert my thoughts from this. everytime i think of it, i feel hopeless, i feel drained. waaah.

i regret bursting out like that to my sister. i even cursed her. wtdhl.
e kasi naman, her problem is: she doesn't know how to get along. this trip (btw, i'm in elbi) is not all about her!! i agreed to accompany her through her registration because i also wish to pass by some of my teacher's cubicles, but when i pause to get my classcard she's like, "ay mauna muna ko ha?"

ay fuck naman. hindi makapaghintay? classcard lang naman! puta. ayown.
whatever.

srsly, i don't know what's up. why can't she think practically? naturingan panamang econ. she always picks the hard way. she always asks the dumbest question.

gaaar. i'm losing patience.

i wanna go out!
i wanna go on a date with a friend whom i can just talk to and rant and rave and be shallow and wtdhl, CRY!!!
because if i go out with a group, i'll just end up forcing myself to be happy when i'm not. hey, that helps but eventually when they're all gone i have to face my problems alone.

^ which should really the case.

yehey. jesse's with me!
now i don't feel so alone!
we can do this!!!
woooooooh!

ohmy.
wait lang ha.
ok.
hahahaha.
ugh, i'm stuttering.
i'm trying to get used to not going online everyday... our modem just got fucked up that's why i'm here. wahehehe.

ok, sister is calling me! (no, not terai. ate bubbles! :D)
company at last! XD

wotcher

Question Here: I love this site!! x0000
- thank you! :D

let it go.

i'm fcking crying right now. in astra.

goodbye, UPLB.
:)

hello, FEU!
i promise to get a job soon!

i don't know how to pick myself up. srsly, i need someone to talk to.

haaay.
where's the light?