i hope you're not reading (open letters)

wow my story still gets faved at ff.net! and it has already been 3 years. nakakatouch. thank you to the currently 57 communities who featured my story. BWAHAHA you're the reason why my story is still reaching out to many readers (and HPDM shippers lol). to the 249 reviewers, and the 307 people who faved my work. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

yeah. i get flattered more with strangers. that's why i never tell any of my friends about my work. and i actually also prefer strangers to read this blog. HAHA but ironically this blog is linked to all my personal accounts so whatever. i want hits. not necessarily readers. BWAHAHAHA



dear friend: i don't know what else to tell you that will justify my existence here. every time we talk you make me feel like i'm only wasting my future here, as someone who's from UP (LB lang naman). it's flattering that you think i'm too smart to be here. but srsly, i'm not the smartest at school. not yet? and i don't think i'll ever be there. why don't you ask the top scholar why she's here with us if you think this school doesn't deserve to have smart people? >:)

i know how you feel. we both feel like our school is full of crap. and that we're not learning enough. and that we'll march out unequipped with the right armaments to survive the real world. it doesn't take a genius to realize what's missing. but i'm only here for one thing, a diploma. and since i gathered that walking out of a mediocre school as a mediocre student won't do me any good, i figured i had to get a latin honor at least to compensate for being here. fuck yeah please. it's good to hear that someone thinks the same way. i only know of a few who see that.

dear friend #2: yaaak pinoproblema kita bat ganon? parang tanga. kahit may alam ka. i'm not giving you room for assumptions. hindi porket alam mong ganon, pwede na. tangna loob.

new found home?

currently at La Barista's Coffee Bar. the place has mediocre coffee but it has wifi, OUTLETS, and it's only 20 pesos away from home. goodbye blenz. i wish they had your belgian mochachillo. but whatever.

i updated my netbeans IDE, i now have 2 FUCKING SERVERS at last. question is, will i be able to run the stupid thing our prof is demanding of us? IDK but at least with the 2 FUCKING SERVERS, i can try.

one last download and i'm going back home! 155MB worth of Enya music! yeheeey!!!

i'm so excited to get rid of my LG KP500. please. do the honor. i want a black Nokia 1280 instead. the flashlight is hard to get over with. LOL

BWISET

grabe bakit ka ganyan? kahit sino na lang? ganon ka ba talaga ka-desperado? wait. what's new. ay sorry, hindi ka naman talaga desperado. sadyang malandi lang. pero my God, sige lumandi ka. pero pare, konting TASTE naman dyan. papatol ka na nga lang, dun pa sa laspag. o baka sinasakyan mo lang dahil pareho kayo ng hanap. utang na loob, i thought you have more class than that. akala ko marunong ka pumili, nagkakaubusan na ba at kapit sa malandi ka na?

ikaw naman mare. dyusko. sagad sagaran ang ka-cheapan mo. masyado kang public. over over. so you think you're hot? fuckyeah no. feeling maganda pero ang gaspang ng muka. isa lang naman advantage mo kaya andami mong nagagago eh, yun nga, malandi ka. easy to get. sana may sumeryoso sayo. 

ozom >XD

we had to ride the mrt to reach the auditorium. while inside, i asked chamel to sell the playbills and take note of those who did, cos they're the only allowed to watch the play because of limited seats. blandy was there. tanja was there. they bought playbills. i don't remember who else did and who's inside the train. the doors closed and i looked for chamel but she's nowhere. that train started moving, when we heard a warning from the driver which says the railway is incomplete!

we were speeding through the metal rails when suddenly the train went on a free fall! everyone clung tightly for their lives as the train fell and gave an alarming thud as it landed on another railway underneath. a short pause, and it came running again, its engine revving to accumulate speed. and like a bad omen, the railway was yet again cut short and we were sent to another roller coaster ride, gripping for our lives. my poor nervous system couldn't handle the stress and thrill at the same time.

i woke up with a 'whew', thinking how i survived the first fall without gaining consciousness. i thought you were supposed to wake up when you're body is falling in a dream. but i didn't. i woke up on the second fall, instead.

halfway!

i'm finally halfway with Sydney Sheldon's Master of the Game. so far, it's a good read. it's like a telenovela! >XD

wait lang. i'm trying to come up with a sound decision regarding this issue i'm in. i want to save our friendship so much that i'm willing to, whew, do something i've never done before. everytime i rehearse the words i'm gonna tell him, i end up wailing like crazy. HINDI KO KAYAAAAA.

taenang crush yan, big deal much?!?!

success!

the play was fucking hilarious! it was funnier when i watched it on stage. it was overwhelming how the audience reacted positively to it, and i thought it was going to be a disappointment cos their rehearsals weren't really satisfying. they surprised me, they surprised everyone! LOL i feel guilty that i was a bit doubtful about this, but i gave my full support and helped when needed. i'm proud of this success. >:) congratulations to all. >:D

this kinda means i'm not busy again and will be doing useless chores to keep myself occupied. like uhm, doodling.

gawd i hate our prof. he doesn't teach and he's just bragging about himself. the world will do better without you.

truth overload

the truth has never hurt me this bad. i feel pissed because this is where our friendship starts to wear off. it's hard to bring back the old times. it's hard to fake it all. even for the sake of preserving our friendship. i feel disappointed that i was misjudged, misunderstood and betrayed by the people i trusted too much, by the people i'm expecting to understand, by the people i assumed to know who i am... naturally. 

i dunno! let's not dwell on that. i'm done crying over it. 

currently. hacking my creative zen's hardware in hopes of resolving this white screen of death issue. my player looks cruelly battered now cos i'm cracking it open via a nipper! no better tools here what can i dooooo. if this works, i'm gonna cherish this player forever. i'm about to sell it at ebay with a white screen hardware defect, but i thought, if i could fix it, i wouldn't sell it anymore. besides, i don't wanna buy another player. 

btw, i'm selling my LG KP500 for 5K. who wants? see my listing at ebay. LOL search it over. i'm damn lazy.

hehe

right. still have some lousy programming to do.