mendoza or new dorm?

now that i've opened up the whole 'transferring' issue to my parents... they're going to drive us back to elbi tomorrow to check for dorms (or apartments).

just this weekend i badly want to transfer to Mendoza because i was caught aback by the wonderful ambience... but now that i think of the price, and also with daddy's suggestion of checking a university dorm... i was thinking... new dorm's a pretty good catch too.

yeah, there's the exercise...
and the very low accomodating fee, inclusive of water and electricity...
and you know, i won't be going out every now and then because it's too far from the err... metropolis. hehehe

i think i'd be able to study better there.

you know, i'm trying to fix my non-existent study habit. sorta like reformat my system and search for that hidden and read-only executable file called 'study.exe'.

cos apparently, if i were to enumerate the top processes running in my system (considering i am, indeed, a mechanical item, a computer to be exact)...
#1 would be 'netsurf.exe'
#2 - 'eat.exe'
#3 - 'sleep.exe'

and since all of them are executable files, they run without permission and they run upon system startup. plus, they take up a lot of memory... which in reality could be equated to money.

and man, you can't just click 'end process' because they're very important system files they might cripple the OS (in short, kill me).

so what i'm planning to do is run the command prompt and search for that 'study.exe', remove attributes 'hidden' and 'read-only' and hopefully put it on top of my system processes.

in short (hey, i liked this allegory!)...
i have to look for a better place to study.

my fic in french? *ecstatic*

i got another email asking for permission to translate one of my harry potter fics in French!!!

si tu ne tais pas la!(random french. nevermind)

i think last year (or last last year) a reader asked my permission to translate the same fic in Russian... i don't know what happened now. hehehe
oh come on, let me indulge on this one.i'm just flattered! i finished the fic at around november 2006 (4 months in the making, man) and until now i'm still getting reviews and faves!!!!

why, my writing ego has been very much bolstered for this day.
thankyou thankyou to those who appreciate my work.... especially to those who actually cried (i didn't know i had the power to jerk tears) and didn't hate me for killing the main characters (ooops. what a spoiler)

rest assured that when i get my OWN laptop and transfer to a new dormitory, i'd be able to write as much as i could. yeah!

thanks for the kudos.

just learned something COOOOL!

thank you hana for relaying this useful trick to people like me who are notorious virus magnets.

 

i can now delete viruses using the Command Prompt!

 

yeah!

oh, if i do it right... i'm gonna share it to you.

 

for now,

let me try first diba?

gooooodah!

nothing's up with the title. hahaha

just got back from our 3rd long exam in chem40. oh well, screw it! i don't give a damn anymore... i'm getting my masterals on it NOW and why would it hurt to take a doctorate degree on it sometime next school year?

ugh. seriously. i am more excited to get over this week than to get over this sem.

by the way, i went along with some of my dormmates awhile ago to inquire about this newly built dormitory called Mendoza. i immediately liked the place! it's secluded... well, it's bounded... i mean, it has a tall gate and high walls... and the rooms are nice too!!!!!!

pretty much like a studio type apartment, only it's a dormitory. they have bunk beds, showers, cabinets, CONCRETE WALLS AND TILED FLOORS (meaning, it's COLD! yaaay!) and this beautiful garden-like receiving area with pretty wooden chairs (plus a cute dog and 2 chained k9 dogs - THE OWNERS ARE RICH).

i want to transfer now.
as in now.

we were actually planning on reserving rooms already so that we can move in by summer. man, i don't want to spend summer classes in my current dorm. it's gonna be super HOOOT, we don't have concrete walls in our room... only plywood ones, and the floor is wooden too. i'm gonna be grilled raw before i even know it.

i just love the place! super!
but then, there's the price to pay... at least i think it's fairer (although more expensive).

i just hope my parents agree to this.
i texted them awhile ago about it and my mom says i should wait for my sister to graduate first before i transfer because she's so dependent on me... daw.

oh come on, it's not like i should act as the elder sister to her! besides, didn't she survive her first year in college without me (cos i'm still in sr. highschool back them)? what's the difference if transfer to different dorm?

IT'S FOR MY OWN GOOD.
a common area for studying doesn't help me at all. i always end up chatting with my dormmates. i'm not being productive!
and look, i'm always bloating myself with unecessary craves (fooooood, INTERNET). not only do they make me fatter (and unhealthier too), they also ALWAYS leave me in a state of poverty.

whereas if stay there in mendoza, we'll be requesting a room at the second floor. meaning i have to mount the stairs... it's relatively farther from the campus but what's a little walk to warm myself up? it's not like it's gonna take a lifetime (ooooh, i'm a sucker for a regular workout)

case in point made.
I WANT NEED TO TRANSFER.

now where's the cash?

still love you to bits

well, i have no intention of buying you. :)

but when i get my own laptop i'm going to customize it to look like a genuine acer ferrari.

i just love the cars.
plus the logo


now back to studying.

nothing more to expect

my dire 17 years of existence here on earth contributed a lot to my study of PSYCHOLOGY. i guess it is in our nature to analyze people, make generalizations (sometimes hasty ones) from the way they talk to you, present themselves to other people, dress up, deal with their acads and stuff. these observations contribute to my assumption of who and how they are in real life. i like observing people. hehehe

the psychology of guys is quite a tricky topic. they're hard to analyze, specifically because i'm not one of them and i have no idea how a man's brain works. i've always wanted to know how a guy acts around the one he likes, how he is when their crush is just nearby. why?

because i am so stupid, i can't get a hint.
or maybe i feel like i'm supposed to be the one giving hints but no, i'm too timid for my own good to even dare drop one.

which caused me to be stuck in this state of paranoia where i cannot anymore distinguish his natural actions from the supressed ones.

maybe i'm just too obsessed with him that i always always try to read his looks. his glances. they way he talks to me. and TRY to compare it to the way he acts around other people.

if he has something for you then at least, you will always ALWAYS see a difference.

so, is there?

fortunately, yes.
unfortunately, it's the not the difference i was expecting.

you know what, at some point... i knew there was a chance for us to get closer. but i was crushing on him too much that i'm starting to actually walk away.

i have this weird trait, i enjoy watching my crushes from a distance... pretty much like a stalker. and when they're near (talking to me...), i tend to close myself, hide (not literally), keep quiet and just say the safest words to him. i've always been like this to my crushes. i don't speak a lot, i don't even show off.

and when the feeling has faded already and i have confirmed to myself that i'm not crushing over him anymore... that's the time that i can act normally around him. that's the time that i actually become more sociable.

how do you characterize the feeling of having a crush, being obsessed/infatuated with someone...etc.????

because they're the types of feelings that hinder me from being the usual friendly me.

maybe i'm really like this. i'm not agressive.

they say scorpios like to flirt with their eyes.
i say, not all the time.
i guess, i do have some part of that... uhh... skill. cos when i'm just starting to like someone who's a stranger to me, i start with making eye contact... just to let him now i exist.

after that, i don't give a damn anymore.

WAAAAIT!!!!

i just realized something!
have i mentioned this girl i was jealous of in our class because i think they're too close to each other??

i realized, there's really nothing to worry about (at least on his side, dunno bout the girl). the way i was with leonard last sem is pretty much similar with the way he is with her. and leonard is a really good friend of mine so i'm perfectly comfortable with him.

in much the same way that he is around her.
aren't you supposed to shun your crush at times?
hehe

now, back to studying (i can't screw up on this one yet again!)

oh the positivity

i thought i said yesterday that i'm only going to skip my 10a class... but looks like i also skipped another class... hist2. which makes me a really really bad student now. i don't know, maybe i've reached the maximum number of absences in hist2 already and i should be forced drop now.

wow.

i only swam this day, and thank God i've finished my make-up! hurrayhurray! no more overexposure to our overly chlorinated pool! yessss!!! i've got an uneven skintone now (in the face man!) and a burnt feeling whenever i apply powder or facial wash on my face right after swimming. sucks big time.

so after all, i'm still a girlygirl... because i worry about my freakin skintone. bwahahaha

hey, kim came! hehe she took pictures of me swimming with her slr camera. oh the coolness. wait, i was conscious..... hahaha if i only knew how to do the butterfly stroke then i would've given her cam a demo! weeeeh. i wanted to look like a pro... you know, with the complete swimming attire (for photographs sake). but then, i don't have a swimming cap so i guess i just looked like an amats chicken. i wanna see the pictures!

anyhow, i thought i also mentioned yesterday that i'm going to use this afternoon to study chem40 - unless i slept. guess what? the latter prevailed.

is there still hope for me?

another thing, on our way to buy dinner , i got hit by a speeding scooter. man, it hurts! my head hit the passenger's helmet - which totally put me out of my mind. damn, i don't recall who i am anymore... hehe kidding. but dmn, my head hurts! until now. may bukol pa ko. hahahaha... and i was even so happy after the horrible incident. i was laughing, saying "ok lang ako! hahaha" to my concerned dormmates...
wtf, i even said SORRY to the scooter driver --- who happened to be a freakin tomboy. oh, i just lost my appetite.

weirdly enough, i didn't get angry. bwahaha
the tricycle drivers around were the ones who cursed the perpetrator on my part and i was overjoyed. it was heartwarming to have someone fight for you even if you don't want to and you're totally strangers to each other. thanks!

and when we reached kuya's carinderia i noticed that my right arm is BLEEDING! bwahahaha so i figured i also hit the scooter's steering handle. after a moment or so, it's becoming so painful already so i went with my sister to buy some remedy and also photocopy some handouts.

hehe, i bought a bandage. i think it was hurt badly i cannot raise my arm fully or even do a right-hand backstroke. oh hello, muscles. T___T; huhuhu good thing it wasn't heavily injured... like the one in my right leg years ago... the muscoskeletalchorvachorva... i actually think it's starting to resurface because i feel like it's limping once again. hayhayhay, too much swimming i guess.

no back to my exam. :)