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Sunday, September 11, 2011

good morning?

this week was full of crap. i don't know! everything that has happened since wednesday is major bullcrap.
my grades went down.
quit OJT to find something new.
applied everywhere and realized i'm wasting so much money for this.
enrolled and got overly pissed off with their new policy.

oh well, tears are in for me this september. >:| i don't know why. perhaps the only good thing that balances all of this is jec! for me he's a breather and.... oryt i'm trying not to be cheesy cos i'm saving it for next year so yeah. i'll stop the jec-talk here bwahaha. because of him i could say life is still good. God still loves me. >:D

yesterday, or last friday cos technically it's ardy sunday. i had a mini chika-slash-pep talk with jigger, the CBS secretary who's doing so much work and initative for the team. i owe him so much because i feel like i'm not doing anything at all. he should be president, not me, seriously... if for the amount of work he initiates for the student council. and you know what, i told him that. that i feel sorry for being useless and all. >XO hahaha it was cool talking to him, he lifted my spirits a bit! HAHA mega nega kasi ako, no amount of pep talk could probably lift me up from my depression. ako lang talaga.ewan. basta. i appreciate him!

btw, i dreamt of him one time. in my dream, i was packing my things. i had two back packs, mine and jec's. then he carried one of them. i don't remember which but he was waiting for me ekek and took the bag to help. the end!

i also remember dreaming about francis magalona. in my dream, i had a major crush on him and blah. i don't remember na! i should've written this earlier when it's still a bit intact in my memory. henako.

earlier was so fun! my cousins and nieces and nephews were here for mamay's death anniv. >:D >:D kapagod ampotek. aaaah, i actually consider my nieces and nephews as my cousins, and my cousins as my titos and titas because of the age gap. my cousins are all twice older, and their children are nearer my age so daryugow. >:)

i'm not sleepy though i'm very tired! >XO ewan ko ba.

terai and i are planning on trying Craving's unlimited coffee and cake for P150 tomorrow!!! i read a bad review about it knina lang e so... tsk nakakainis tuloy. takam na takam pa naman kami! sana magpa-ganun din yung RED RIBBON!!! gusto ko ng canteana cheescake. argggh chaka choco banana cake! huhuhu gutom na ko! >XO

Good mornight!

Thursday, September 8, 2011

the plunge

everything from here on is downhill! i knew it would eat me alive, the amount of load i so boastfully accepted. see now? nasa huli talaga ang pagsisisi. let's just hope i don't get myself into a mess with the higher-ups with the remaining months i have to endure at school. stop me, Lord. stop me. i'm always complaining! but fuck the system. really, fuck the system. it's probably only because i'm at the bottom that i get to point my finger at people and blame them for my demise. i know i have no one else to blame but myself... for getting entangled in so many things at once: icon, cbs, studies, love... it screwed me. and it screwed me real good. not to mention that i probably didn't even act like a decent president. hi pride.

but come on, i totally have no idea how to cheer myself up. i've been awfully depressed since i saw my grades and every day, it gets worse. i dun even know why. it just gets worse! too much nega vibes. and it doesn't help that i'm back to 0 hours with my OJT since i quit fandom hahaha. anyhow. i've shelled out so much money just applying for jobs. i just want to get somewhere near and with allowance LOL.

oh btw. when i posted this, "it's easy to fall in love when you have nothing to lose" on fb, i didn't mean it the romantic way. i meant it the other way around. it's hard for me to decide on this because so much will be affected. which is why i envy those who could love with no limits. but i wonder about the kind of lives they live and kindof concluded that, oh that explains it. kindof but not quite. hehe

hey. i told myself not to engage in trouble because this year is so crucial for me but awhile ago i was so freaking enraged. i almost cried. seriously. why? they suddenly abolished SPECIAL CLASSES and replaced it with something exponentially more expensive. immediately and without prior notice at that. i dunno. i bet the heads weren't even briefed properly about it. on what grounds is it legal to implement a policy amendment IMMEDIATELY like, after a trimester? can't it wait a schoolyear? where were the announcements? sorry but this is bullcrap. i am so affected, even if i'm least likely to suffer about this. thing is, loads of hopeful graduates will not be able to march this coming may just because they cannot afford to enroll in a class that requires them to pay 15 times more. someone shed some light on this issue. pero wait, trabaho ko yata to e.

sana man lang may student dialogue or student representation na nagaganap every time may iaammend silang major policy sa palakaran ng administrasyon. eto nanaman ako. puro reklamo sa blog. yoko mabadshot sa taas eh, may mga pangarap pa ko. >:|

Saturday, September 3, 2011

ate lisa's wedding


Congrats to ate lisa and kuya christian! >:D the family's getting bigger, i can't believe we were just kids pestering our uncles for mint bills before. now everyone has grown up and is leaving singlehood one by one! >XD i almost cried at the ceremony. almost but not quite! ate lisa was sooooo stunning, so is kuya christian! hahaha i just realized how beautiful weddings are! the ceremony, the people, THE FOOD bwahahaha. everything is symbolic of love! sarap mabuhay pag may minamahal! >:D


anyway! this morning was stressful to the bones. there were so many things i forgot to do and delegate. then we lost our thesis stuff which basically contains our GRADESSS. then yesterday i lost my purse! there're 2 usbs there, 900 cash and my samsung earphones my goodness. and recently i just keep on forgetting important stuff. and i know it has something to do with my health deteriorating! sleeping late robs my brain of neurons i need to function rationally and intelligently.

hahaha Lord, i dunno if you're cool that i believe in karma or that universal balance of good and evil junk hahahaha. i think not?! hahaha but i can't help thinking if this is what it takes to have a love life! HAHAHAHA over e diba?! if this much bad is happening to me, THEN, i might be holding something really great right now that i'm being allowed to experience misfortunes like this hahahahahaha. you know, the universe demands balance! can't be unceasingly happy!

thank you Lord because i found two incredibly important things today! jec's nyan cat drawing and my samsung usb cord! >XO i've been looking for the drawing all over the place (or my room) since last month pa nga eh, flipping pages of the heaps of books and notebooks in my shelf in case i inserted it somewhere cos i remember i was actually hiding it cos daddy might barge into the room and boom! hahaha then i recalled that i brought it with me to iloilo and baaaam, i found it on the suitcase i used then! >:D then yknow i was decluttering my room and saw on the floor, a familiar sight... my samsung usb cord!!!! >XD whattttaaa blessing! HAHAHA and here i go again, thinking about the things i may have done right during the day enough for me find two lost things at once. HAHAHA wrong thinking, you think? haha

the only good deed i remember doing was when i accompanied an umbrella-less woman to her office at ortigas while crossing to robinsons yesterday cos the rain was pretty mad that night. and that's like a daily kebs deed duuuh cos everyone would do the same thing. anyhow. robinsons galeria is not cool, for the reason that i lost my purse there diba hahahaha and i'm never a fan of gale cos transportation to fairview is hellish! terai and i had to walk all the friggin way to megamall just to catch a decent bus without engaging in a stampede. haaay. mega's still the beeest!

i'm excited to go back to UP again just to food trip! >XO hope it doesn't rain on monday!!! choco-banana shake i miiiiisss you already!!!

ah! i'm worried cos recently i've been losing craploads of money and btw, smartbro just billed me for the month! how do i cope? i'm jobless for the entire year with no sidelines! unless they decide to still hire me after OJT but then i kinda want to rest the entire year off eh? but hello money! don't fly awaaaayyy.

oraaayt i'm sleepy! goood night fellas! >:D

Thursday, September 1, 2011

coming sooooon! >8D

chococat!!!

i'm gonna search sanrio all over for this BWAHAHAHA. it took me an hour to decide! hello kitty ba o keroppi or chococat but i picked him for the following reasons; it's cute! and it's black so it won't look obviously dirty over time hahahaha and mommy said i have to replace my bed mates already and donate my other stuffed toys. either that or she's throwing them away. huhu. this is all peachy's fault, she introduced me to sanrio! black cats are lucky pa nga daw eh. shemay na-excite ako hihihihi >XD goodbye baks!

so pwede na ko siguro mag-aral no? bwaha

BTW, blogger changed their interface! it's neater and very much like the Preview (Dense) theme from GMail. Obviously Google's aiming for 1 minimalist look haha and it's pretty cool! >:D

bakit ganon.

i feel like my mental capacity is deteriorating graaaavely over time, or most specially this trimester. sobrang. sabog. e. and for the nth time, i failed to remove the to-do curse from this blog. i was only able to accomplish 1 out of the many tasks i wrote previously. HAHA yoko na tuloy! look it's almost 1am and i haven't started anything! okay okay. eto na po.

me mga bagay na ano e. ewan parang di ako palagay. bakit ganun. hahaha. dami iniisip. paranoid kasi. dibale. disappointments are part of growing up. bat ganoooon!!! arg. kkkkkkk.