devId

it's the good-afternoon-i-just-had-banana-q look.

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it's my new DA avatar too. lol, i don't even think it looks like me so i had to show you the reference pic i used. wahahaha

// rar. i came to class 2 hours late because i overslept... well, i forgot to set the alarm last night hahaha. because of that, i missed our practical exam but thanks to Dan, i have a grade... along with benjie (who's also tardy) and jona (the serial absentee). hahaha he kinda talked to sir about it. really small talk, our teacher is lazy, it's easy to convince him about anything as long as it means leaving early. lol

// i had banana-q so i'm quite in a good mood. yey

finally!

here's something i spent so many hours editing! well as usual, the header image took most of my time.
hope it's cool, well i find it cool! 3 columns! and best of all, deviantArt widget!!! so i won't be making a separate blog anymore hehehe.


so... today?
is super cool! thank you Lord for this daaaaay! my crush made my day FIRST THING IN THE MORNING so my mood is all haaaappy the entire day. hahaha diba jec????!?!! he is witness to my extreme blushing when my crush waved at me from down down there while i was watching him from the third floor. WAHAHA sorry talaga mejo may kababawan talaga ako eh. i still couldn't erase the possibility that he friggin saw his name on my doodle, it makes me nervous but LOL i couldn't do anything about it now, do i? hehehe

i ate a lot this day. burgers, sisig and bananas overloaded with condensed milk (yuuummmy!!!), nothing my mom will be happy about if i told her (except for the bananas). anywaaaay, after lunch i decided to just hang out with chamel the entire afternoon as we wait for the play production at 6pm.

hahaha so we just sort of bonded (talked!) at school, on the grass, at the field! i love our field cos it's so picturesque and is perfect for bonding moments! so we talked!!! there's never a dull moment with her LOL. at the end of our conversation we both realized that he have pretty much the same idea of love and relationships. i dunno why i'm talking about it, peer pressure pare. everyone's got one, and i don't? shempre i care! but when i think of it, i'm not yet ready. fucking 19 loveless years, and i'm not ready?!??!! late bloomer much! that's what you get with watching too much anime and studying in an exclusive hs. it was only in college that i was formally introduced to the friggin marsians.

thing is... the type of relationships i see around is not something i wanna engage myself into. people almost always confuse infatuation for love and i think it's not the best way to settle down. yaaak settle down agad. i'm not experimental when it comes to this, i don't count experiences either. while we were talking i came to a point where i questioned myself why i hate ruining friendships in favor of love when in fact, it all starts there. at dahil dyan, i'm working on it. i mean, working on changing that ideology i've lived for for almost 4 years. not because i think i could get a boyfriend by changing it, but because i think it's a hindrance for God's plan for me.

haaay Lord, i'm not asking for a boyfriend cos i when i think of it, i only want a guy friend whom i can talk to about anything. he could even be gay for all i care, as long as he's smart and open minded... and fears You.

Lord, i just want a mature guy! hahaha amen.

hahaha

work in progress

3 columns.
i'll probably make a 890px header soon.

i decided not to make an art blog at tumblr, sorry anne! see, i found this deviantArt widget that streams my recent deviations so i'm kinda ok with that.

i'm trying to revive my links too. >:|

and there's this contest i wanted to join but i guess i won't be able to make anything cool cos most of the entries are hardcore CG and i freakin don't even know how to play with layers in photoshop. theme: End of Days. should be scary, but all i could think of are happy aliens and porings on flower pots. i'm being optimistic, what's wrong with that?

there's another dA contest though, theme: Dreams. this one's slightly achievable cos i could be extremely random... and the price is a Wacom Tablet.

LOL i upgraded my creative zen's firmware and it malfunctioned even more. haha, anyway... fixed it already... 3 news albums added!

1) Owl City - Ocean Eyes >> fireflies, silver twilight and hello seattle are in this album so i gave it a go. surprisingly, everything's good! yey!
2) Yiruma - From the Yellow Room >> it has the same mood as his other album Love Scene so it's kinda boring, but it has Kiss in the Rain so... yeah. i tend to download an entire album even though i only found one good song in it. hehehehe
3) Chikyuu Shoujo Arjuna OST 1 >> i just downloaded this randomly cos i heard one track and it sounded like one of those Survivor background music. no regrets so far. frakkin coool music. >:D

soooo... ok. i'm glad that God's shedding some light on our java project. sir Marquez gave us more hints! more hints meaning and entire sample source code of parsing string arrays! i learned so much about him this day, like he took mechanical engg at UP diliman (he's licensed too), and took Computer Science at freakin UCLA. i'm kinda seeing a pattern here, and it's quite inspiring. wahahaha.

why this day is made of so much epic fail

so i have this doodle that i work with every time we have filione cos i tuck it in the book so the only chance i get to work on it, is when i open it, which only happens on wednesdays. i draw random stuff as usual, monsters, aliens, slimes, letterings... plain doodles, even a rough cartoon sketch of my crush hahaha.

then there's this time (like, awhile ago) when my crush is walking around the room and he saw me drawing and he complimented it and says he wants to frakking see it. shempre oks lng naman but i have to tear one half of the page cos he's face is frakking drawn there and even though it doesn't look a bit like him, it would be obvious that it's him --- and all my frakking efforts of trying to hide my teenybopper admiration for him would go down the stinking drain --- because i drew his jersey too.

now, i'm safe. i tore half of the paper and gave him the other half to marvel on. he returned it after awhile naman and i continued drawing, relieved that he didn't see anything scandalous.


it was only 6 hours later that i discovered my mistake. henako jec, i wouldn't have noticed at all, thank you talaga pare! (sarcastic haha) i told my friends about what happened and when i handed them the doodle, jec pointed out my mistake. i completely forgot that i also drew his frakking name on it! whyyyy??? i didn't notice naman eh! AND HOPEFULLY HE DIDN'T!

Lord, pleaaaase.

hmmm...

i'm confused between blogger and tumblr and between having 2 blogs, a personal and an art blog. i'm so used to blogger already that i find it hard to move from one platform to another, though tumblr's features are really cool, makes it easier for us to upload media. i dunno, blogger is running on xml now and i checked tumblr and it's all css. the usual, easy-to-mess-with css. i just spent hours creating my own layout but i'm too sleepy now so i'll continue tomorrow.



what i like now with tumblr is that... i got both BRAINBLAST and BOREDWORK. two new blog names i'm contemplating about using for my soon to be art blog.

buuuuut, something's telling that me it'll be hard to manage two blogs. guess i just have to stick with just ONE blog. ONE personal blog... and DeviantArt for the rest of my artworks. i don't know.

i need a .COM, for this.

fail. i saw my crush with a girl this morning. probably having breakfast. it huuurts. >:'((( what is it with TALL MEN and they're certain fancy for PETITE GIRLS??? like they're all programmed to find short girls attractive and dismiss anyone who runs an inch or two over their shoulder. wwwwhhhhyyyyy???? >:((

i found something cute (and rather alarming) about my parents. they're each other's FIRST boyfriend/girlfriend.

awwwwwww.
k, cut!

....which means, hereditarily speaking, chances are i won't have any exes (much to my frakking dismay) and then i'll only have a boyfriend for 3 months, then we'll get wed immediately on my order cos i'm already 30 (and my boyfriend is like, 23!) LOL****. it happens right? you know, parental patterns.

this afternoon, saycee and i joined csc-11's english practice to kill time. i actually spotted my crush from afar. okaaaaay, i kinda enjoy watching him from a distance (like usual). 10 yards is a safe distance. shorter than that, i panic... well, inwardly. hahaha so we came in the basic ed department... then i kinda saw that he's headed to where we are pala... aaah kasi may english din yun blah blah blah blah (stalker much?). so pumasok agad ako sa room. naku ewan ko rin sa sarili ko kung bat kelangan magtago. baka raw di ko maitago yung ngiti ko. taena yan o. hahaha tapos sumilip pa sa room parang tanga. wala na.

**** - yaaah. my mom is 7 years older than my dad. but she looks younger wahahaha. pero diba? imagine you're entering highschool and you suddenly learn you're destined to a kindergarten stud? ang weird!