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ETA: i forgot what i was supposed to tell while browsing. hmmm. tomorrow's supposed to be a holiday but some sonofa!@#$ scheduled for a remedial class. right when i should be sleeping the entire day. who says i'm coming. fuuuuck.

i've never had this much pimples in my entire life. HAHAHAHA osige, that's not my biggest problem.

my biggest problem would be my health wilting the more i spend time at the circulation area at the library. and i couldn't just tell my boss or my co-SA's that i'm allergic to dust, cos the bulk of what we're gonna do for the next terms include spending an entire shift wallowing in dusty, old, weathering books. @_@ (that's if i'm staying. BIG IF)

and my fucking right knee is starting to hurt again. wtf is wrong with my body? i need exercise. i want to swim. i missed being fit. school has made me into looking like a wretched zombie every morning. and everyday it consumes me whole.

it's my health that's fucking my lifestyle right now!!! i've been wheezing my brains out the entire day because i spent two hours behind the shelves. i hate being at the front, but it's better than spending a minute with old books.



i still hate our boss. occasionally. but i couldn't bring myself to despise her entirely. everything she does is for the good of the library. and even though she sometimes doesn't deliver her instructions well and blames us for lacking comprehension, i still respect her. but sometimes... k fine. lol

hala magcompute tayo ng grades. so far my midterm standings are okay naman. when i say okay, abot pa sa scholarship. ewan ko lang talaga sa tinapang PE na yan.

i hope you're not reading (open letters)

wow my story still gets faved at ff.net! and it has already been 3 years. nakakatouch. thank you to the currently 57 communities who featured my story. BWAHAHA you're the reason why my story is still reaching out to many readers (and HPDM shippers lol). to the 249 reviewers, and the 307 people who faved my work. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

yeah. i get flattered more with strangers. that's why i never tell any of my friends about my work. and i actually also prefer strangers to read this blog. HAHA but ironically this blog is linked to all my personal accounts so whatever. i want hits. not necessarily readers. BWAHAHAHA



dear friend: i don't know what else to tell you that will justify my existence here. every time we talk you make me feel like i'm only wasting my future here, as someone who's from UP (LB lang naman). it's flattering that you think i'm too smart to be here. but srsly, i'm not the smartest at school. not yet? and i don't think i'll ever be there. why don't you ask the top scholar why she's here with us if you think this school doesn't deserve to have smart people? >:)

i know how you feel. we both feel like our school is full of crap. and that we're not learning enough. and that we'll march out unequipped with the right armaments to survive the real world. it doesn't take a genius to realize what's missing. but i'm only here for one thing, a diploma. and since i gathered that walking out of a mediocre school as a mediocre student won't do me any good, i figured i had to get a latin honor at least to compensate for being here. fuck yeah please. it's good to hear that someone thinks the same way. i only know of a few who see that.

dear friend #2: yaaak pinoproblema kita bat ganon? parang tanga. kahit may alam ka. i'm not giving you room for assumptions. hindi porket alam mong ganon, pwede na. tangna loob.

new found home?

currently at La Barista's Coffee Bar. the place has mediocre coffee but it has wifi, OUTLETS, and it's only 20 pesos away from home. goodbye blenz. i wish they had your belgian mochachillo. but whatever.

i updated my netbeans IDE, i now have 2 FUCKING SERVERS at last. question is, will i be able to run the stupid thing our prof is demanding of us? IDK but at least with the 2 FUCKING SERVERS, i can try.

one last download and i'm going back home! 155MB worth of Enya music! yeheeey!!!

i'm so excited to get rid of my LG KP500. please. do the honor. i want a black Nokia 1280 instead. the flashlight is hard to get over with. LOL

BWISET

grabe bakit ka ganyan? kahit sino na lang? ganon ka ba talaga ka-desperado? wait. what's new. ay sorry, hindi ka naman talaga desperado. sadyang malandi lang. pero my God, sige lumandi ka. pero pare, konting TASTE naman dyan. papatol ka na nga lang, dun pa sa laspag. o baka sinasakyan mo lang dahil pareho kayo ng hanap. utang na loob, i thought you have more class than that. akala ko marunong ka pumili, nagkakaubusan na ba at kapit sa malandi ka na?

ikaw naman mare. dyusko. sagad sagaran ang ka-cheapan mo. masyado kang public. over over. so you think you're hot? fuckyeah no. feeling maganda pero ang gaspang ng muka. isa lang naman advantage mo kaya andami mong nagagago eh, yun nga, malandi ka. easy to get. sana may sumeryoso sayo. 

ozom >XD

we had to ride the mrt to reach the auditorium. while inside, i asked chamel to sell the playbills and take note of those who did, cos they're the only allowed to watch the play because of limited seats. blandy was there. tanja was there. they bought playbills. i don't remember who else did and who's inside the train. the doors closed and i looked for chamel but she's nowhere. that train started moving, when we heard a warning from the driver which says the railway is incomplete!

we were speeding through the metal rails when suddenly the train went on a free fall! everyone clung tightly for their lives as the train fell and gave an alarming thud as it landed on another railway underneath. a short pause, and it came running again, its engine revving to accumulate speed. and like a bad omen, the railway was yet again cut short and we were sent to another roller coaster ride, gripping for our lives. my poor nervous system couldn't handle the stress and thrill at the same time.

i woke up with a 'whew', thinking how i survived the first fall without gaining consciousness. i thought you were supposed to wake up when you're body is falling in a dream. but i didn't. i woke up on the second fall, instead.

halfway!

i'm finally halfway with Sydney Sheldon's Master of the Game. so far, it's a good read. it's like a telenovela! >XD

wait lang. i'm trying to come up with a sound decision regarding this issue i'm in. i want to save our friendship so much that i'm willing to, whew, do something i've never done before. everytime i rehearse the words i'm gonna tell him, i end up wailing like crazy. HINDI KO KAYAAAAA.

taenang crush yan, big deal much?!?!

success!

the play was fucking hilarious! it was funnier when i watched it on stage. it was overwhelming how the audience reacted positively to it, and i thought it was going to be a disappointment cos their rehearsals weren't really satisfying. they surprised me, they surprised everyone! LOL i feel guilty that i was a bit doubtful about this, but i gave my full support and helped when needed. i'm proud of this success. >:) congratulations to all. >:D

this kinda means i'm not busy again and will be doing useless chores to keep myself occupied. like uhm, doodling.

gawd i hate our prof. he doesn't teach and he's just bragging about himself. the world will do better without you.