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when will i ever get the courage to publish my drafts?

drafts as in blog entries i decided to keep from everyone because they're too confidential. like ano, love, ganon. chaka yung kay JM din pala, cos when he mentioned my blog once i panicked so i hid everything that has to do with him WAHAHAHA i was reading my drafts awhile ago and noticed how dead-smitten i was with my first love. i was laughing at my entries grabe. ako? nasulat ko yon? meee? honestly, i'm ashamed because i think i'm too old to be only experiencing this NOW. late bloomer amp. looking back, i wasn't as interested in the concept of love as i am now. yey dalaga na meeeeeeh. yehey. okaaaaay?

argh. i dunno why i'm such a kid when it comes to this. noob. nyarhghgashladha 

back to my drafts. they're a lot, i realized! and i'm tryna clean em up, so i'm going about checking if they're just crap entries or what. anyway. yown. 

btw, i have a crush on DJ and youth pastor Jordan Escusa of Perfect Rhythm, 702 DZAS. everytime we drive to church, he's on air. ♥ ♥ ♥ ganda ng boses ♥ ♥

hmmmmmm.

still not done with Flipped (Wendelin Van Draanen). so far, so.. hmm, not so interesting hehe. it's cute. but not really my type of story. maybe The Book Thief will interest me more, i'm soooo egzayted. >8D >8D

fuckyeahsick

my friends are inviting me over for dinner but i couldn't move an inch from my bed. wrong, i couldn't move 10 meters without wanting to drag myself and plop back. it's also my sister's RD today and she wants to go out. i want to go out too! i want to eat world chicken in barbecue sauce, pesto pasta, mashed potato, and strawberry banana blizzard. imma get all these for free if i go out with my sister. but i'm so fucking beat for wheezing my brains out for the past few days.

by the way, i haven't told you how terribly uncompromising my situation was when i was taking the distruc exam. the night before that, i was fb-ing and having fun, then i got sleepy and decided to just alarm at 12mn and study from then onwards. apparently, i woke up 7:45! mommy woke me up to take my meds and asked if i have classes, then i checked the time and panicked. rarrr. in the end, daddy was forced to drive me to school. i came 45 minutes late alright. then as i was answering the exam, my nose kept itching and goo was coming out. i didn't have anything with me to stop the goo. so i was wiping my nose with my collar. if i could only take the exam with my head up, i would. @_@ when i couldn't hold it anymore, i walked out in search of a tissue. the ate from the coop gave me some and i went back happily. >:D anywaaay, for the rest of the exam i had balled tissue stuck in my nose. it helped. super. @_@

ok. ang sakit ng ulo ko. i may end up giving in to my cravings after all. >8D

e bat kase

why can't i be someone special to you. you never reserve the dates we've talked about, then you'll go bailing out on the last minute. it happens every time, and i feel stupid for ever looking forward to any of our 'dates'. date as in usapan, for a lack of a better term. last priority apparently. or maybe because we set it on a whim. i don't know. it doesn't really matter.

for someone who didn't study for the final exam, 90 isn't a bad grade. ang yabang ko, thank you. i don't know where i got that 10 mistakes. and apparently, i'm not the highest. bwiset. pero ok lang. >:

naman. nakakainis naman. akdsbvhgadcshavj

yess. malas.

remind me to QUIT posting my plans (or stuff i'm anticipating) in this blog. they never happen.

instead of coming home with a wireless router and 5 grand, i came home with my pants and shoes soaked wet. no money, no router, just rainwater messing up with my mood.

sacrifices.

i was aching to go home after the exam because my eyes were so sore for staying up late last night, i wanted to sleep! but i had to wait a boring 1 hour for a friend of mine to arrive because blah blah blah. charity, yes.

then mam rose asked me if i could be on duty this afternoon cos no SA's gonna be in the lib. that's 200 pesos, if i agreed. but you know, some guy named robin wanted to meet at megamall to buy my phone. of course, between 200 and 5k? duh. so i came to megamall, on time, getting extremely pissed off that the guy wasn't replying. unless he arrives cosplaying as harry potter on a broomstrick, i swear i could skewer him to death for not showing up and for not even texting a single damn thing. badtrip.

grrrrr. my allergy is getting worse. @_@

one last exam and this term is so fucking overrrr. yey.

Lord, my scholarship. please. >:( tenkyowwww!

oh wow

if this day goes well... i'm going home with cash and a wireless router. please Lord, pleaaasse. i'm bothered enough with what's happening, i don't know what to do. grabe, it happened twice already. why Lord, whyyyyy. i want my friends back. you take them away with the most uncompromising situation.

sleeep, be my friend this afternoon.

i miss my bestfriend. >:(