looking back

i was looking through my 'sent mail' folder and managed to flip through some of the entries i mailed to my blog. i just actually want to ponder on a single entry, dated january 8, 2007 - about freeing myself from my self-proclaimed Zahir.

now i'm about to feel the same way again (or not..err we'll see).
i was asking God for a sign, i told him that i want something to happen that will imply a barren relationship between the two of us. vague, i know but i sort of relied it on today's activity. so whatever happened awhile ago must imply something. i'm actually thinking, how coooome it's like that?

yes, i thought i wanted it to end!
but awhile ago proved there's still something waiting to happen.
errr... at least that's how i read things. >____>;;

ask me, how was the exam?
man, i was the first to turn the paper over and leave the lecture hall! lol, not that i answered fast... on the contrary...i skrewed up. ONCE AGAIN. no, for the NTH time now!

i wasn't in the mood right after exam. i haven't even taken a bath then! that's why i went back to the dorm immediately... i took a bath and went to our hum1 class. i was hoping for something good to happen and i wasn't disappointed naman. although i was spacing out, and not listening to our group. i was doing something else.

dang, i should've left my calculator.
btw, i didn't attend my chem40 lec awhile ago...
i overslept.

dang me and my bad habits.

o ano nanaman?

i don't know why i'm being like this.

it's been one month! yuck ang corny, pero i can't stop thinking about him. imagine, from the moment i wake till the second i sleep?? how much worse could this uninvited feeling get?
i read through my dear lord diary to check the day when i started mentioning about him. january 29 ata yun. see? mag-iisang buwan na!!!

sabi ko nga kay Lord, tuldukan nyo na please (kung wala naman talaga). look, we still have a lot to go through school and i was thinking na kung meron nga talaga (as in may mutual thing), we'll stick as a group till the end. i dunno what's gonna happen next, by experience... when i'm expecting something, it doesn't happen. so i think this will end soon.

btw, i should be studying micro1 because we have an exam tomorrow at 10.
hahaha, i haven't started studying!!!! oh no. hahaha

sige sige.
hopefully maka-aral ako! :)

happy 900th post to me!

lol. it's been almost 4 years and nearly a thousand entries!! wow, i endured a lot for a freakin space here in the web. hahaha

the jeepneys are on strike once again. they're doing the same thing, voice out their grievances against the rerouting and the id system. i have nothing against it, i don't care about it much. yes, i'm being indifferent, just like my fellow elbizens.

i wish i hadn't attended my hist2 class awhile ago, she didn't discuss anything about of supposed topic (which is hinduism), instead she made a 1 hour persuasive speech about the UP-students-are-activists-complex.

seriously, i don't give a damn.
i've always been against rallies and such, it's a big waste of time. nobody hears them, anyway.

the thing is, UP students have always been against the administration!
tell me, if a UP alumni is to be seated on the presidential throne, would it bring us to fight for the side of our leader?
NOOOOO!

i say, whoever sits there on the mighty executive chair is always subject to our remorseless scrutiny.

i just hate the idea that our prof is bringing up that WE MUST LIVE BY THE UP TRADITION OF BEING ACTIVISTS.

things change, man.
by being silent we are not being indifferent. by chosing to observe we are not ignoring the fact that our country's political status has gone way down the cliff.

and definitely, by minding our personal business we are not being unaware of what's happening.

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swimming: yeeeehhheeeeeey!!!! and i thought i still have to finish the freakin 75 laps i missed! kuya lifeguard was wrong! i only missed 36LAPS!!! hurrayhurray!!! at least it was scaled down to more than 50%! yeeeaaaah! so awhile ago i did 30 laps, this thursday i'm gonna do 30 more to FINALLY clear my record.

oh, i love swimming. :)

saving up disk space

i removed a lot of applications from our harddisk yesterday. goodbye limewire, AVG antivirus, a couple of applets, yahoo toolbar, and some other things...

 

and now i feel our computer sped up!

yeaaaah!

so i guess the issue here isn't really about a virus but our system being unable to allot enough virtual memory for multitasking.

 

i saved the avira antivirus because CNet hailed it as one of the most powerful free antiviruses in the web.

 

now, what i want to do is download XP themes. hehe our desktop's pretty dull. >___>;

 

awhile ago i was reading through my archives, specifically my highschool entries...hahaha it's so funny reminiscing the times i spent procastinating on exams and dozing off on homeworks... as if something has changed. no, nothing changed actually. still the mistress of procastination. bwahehehehe

 

we'll be going back to los banos in a matter of hours so i have speed up my research on our report on amines, amino acids and proteins.

 

yeeeey! swimming tomorrow... ohno, plus a make-up workout.

haha i have to do at least 50laps to cover 50% of my workload + the usual routine... haaaay then i'll be back on thursday to continue the rest of the 50%.

 

hahahah good luck! :D :D :D

oha!

back in less than a day! haha excessive posting fever ito... eh ganun talaga pag may internet sa bahay... i can't do anything other than blogging because our net speed cannot accomodate my other internet rituals (videos, photos, downloads). wahehehehe

studying didn't even cross my mind.
i do hope we don't have a meeting tomorrow so that i can at least enjoy this long weekend. i have 3 exams this week, on wednesday thursday and friday... and i only intend on studying for my wednesday exam. hehehe

dibale, sa dorm na lang. hindi ko dinala handouts ko eh. bwahahahaha

i wonder what's gonna happen when this sem ends and i'm left with this hanging feeling for him.
sa totoo lang, mas gusto ko matapos na to bago matapos ang sem para di ako naloloka pag di ko sya nakikita. parang nung dati, instant tuldok! kaya bago pa kami magkahiwalay, wala na yung feeling. hehehe

ano ba, Lord. may plano ka ba dyan? SHARE NAMAN!! hahahaha

CLICK HERE! i just uploaded a new album "experimenting on henna" featuring my designs (on the spot pa yun ha! hehehe)! :D :D

hahaha

aww... it's my first time to receive a rose (sorry naman!)... hahaha di naman talaga big deal kasi di ko naman kilala yung nagbigay, sa church kasi yun eh... eh they were promoting their post-valentines activity so the guys were giving long stemmed roses and flyers. hahahaha...

e wala lang. bat ba? hahaha

super late holloween entry

hahahaha got inspired by a segment from Camera Cafe (QTV). hehehe

gogogogo! please read! :D :D uhh, it's written in filipino pala.
here's a lousy/corny translation

starting from the 3rd panel

guy: uhh, Happy Valentines! ♥
girl: huh?

girl: hello? what are you talking about? it's all saints day today! all souls day, remember? what valentines are you talking about?

guy: aren't we SOULMATES? ♥
girl: ♥ ♥ ♥

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bwahehehehe