why in the first place?

gosh. i actually forgot why i am online right now... the clock is ticking... the meter increasing. I STILL CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO DO!

or maybe there's really nothing to do online...
i don't even know why i'm here...

>__>;

hello blog.
i see you're almost 3 years... how old. now you must credit me for feeding you consistently, unlike those who went on hiatus for years and forgot their passwords.. >__>;; haha well, i went on hiatus last year but figured i can't afford to leave my blog unattended for a long time hahaha

something random

What Arianne Grace Credo Birog Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

next, a highschool survey...

SHS Survey >:)

1. Favorite tambayan?
-MMA

2. Usual people na kasama mo?
- friends... haha general

3. Usual food mo pag lunch?
- baon ko... usually fish :)

4. Lagi ka bang late?
- yeah

5. San ka usually nakikita pag morning?
- classroom?

6. Sinong teacher ang laging kausap mo?
- i don't talk to them that often...

7. Fave coach mo in SHS?
- na

8. Usual drink mo in SHS?
- water from my jug, or that weird water from the fountain

9. San makikita table ng kada nyo?
- somewhere in MMA

10. Usual snack that you buy?
- uhhh... buttered corn?

11. Was there ever a time na umiyak ka sa cr?
- nope

12. Did you ever enjoy your fairs?
- kinda...

13. Best math teacher you ever had?
- mrs. sulit :)

14. Fave subj during your Grade 2?
- i wasn't in SHS at that time...

15. Fave subj during your Grade 4?
- not in SHS... science?

16. Fave subj during your Grade 5?
- science

17. Fave subj during your Grade 6?
- science... (wala kaming art sorry)

18. Did you ever run for council?
- no. why would i want to run a pack of ($^!&*#! girls?

19. Nalate ka ba for flag cem?
- a lot

20. Fave year & Sec mo in SHS?
- i dunno... iv-pamayanan... coz that was the last. i'm itching to graduate that time...

21. During mornings how do people see you?
- uhhh... i have no idea

22. Was there ever a time that you left your id?
- yeah

23. Was there ever an event in SHS na bawal suot mo?
- yep

24. Did you wear make up in school?
- no

25. Usual thing that you borrow from people?
- ballpen forever... though i hardly borrow anything naman...

26. One thing you will never forget about SHS?
- barkada of course, it's the only thing that stays after you leave the place

27. Fave events in SHS?
- basta it means no classes for a period or more or the whole day...

28. Was SHS the best thing that ever happened to you?
- not exactly... but there were a lot of happy moments

29. Noti's received! What do you expect to see?
-no classes, we're a sucker for those

30. In your whole stay in SHS, name your fave sections and advisers you've had.
- i don't have a favorite section or adviser but i can name them all some...
ist year: buhay - ms. ambat
2nd year: biyaya - ms. casimiro
3rd year: kalayaan - ms. canivel
4th year: pamayanan - ms. (oh no. nakalimutan ko sorry XD)

why, i missed reading fanfics

it seems like i'm not reading a lot like i used to anymore. the last time i read was because i'm required to for an exam. i hardly get a decent dose of 'good reads' ever since the sem began... and you know what, i think i've already stopped reading fanfics.

i think i'm gradually losing touch with one of my favorite hobbies, fanfic reading. i've also stopped writing... i'm on a long-term fanfic-writing hiatus... and even though the plot bunnies are working overtime on various plots... i don't get motivated enough to type it down. i've lost the will to write... so to speak.

and harry potter is slowly exiting my brain too. guess what? i didn't go crazy over not watching the 5th installment. apparently, my being a fangirl is also starting to fade. i'm not much into harryXdraco anymore (though the idea of homo pairings still interest me a bit).

coffee prince is my current obsession, but now that i've finished the series and was given a bad cliffhanger... i guess i'll just forget it sometime. worse is, the possiblity of a coffee prince 2 is sorta vague because the actor of choi han kyul just signed up for military... =( unless they wanna do another coffee prince with an entirely different story... that could be fine but i want to stick with a cute crossdresser. >_>;

i won't be going to school on monday because i need to go on a check up... have someone interpret my chest xray and ECG findings... it's weird not to know whether you have a lung or a heart problem... or both.

by all means i'm still swimming for the org... but to cheer? i'm not sure about that. i think i'll quit... they should understand. i hope so... i think they would... they're really considerate. ♥ i love AChES.

warning: crap ahead

life's been pretty boring lately. seriously, i haven't studied 'seriously' ever since the sem started. ask my dormates... i hardly go to the desk to flip my notebook for some homework. i don't do my homeworks... unless they needed to be passed. i get lazy over the idea of studying organic chemistry again... i was never rightly motivated. i don't study for a quiz... i just pray over it.

i dunno, do i need a boyfriend? hahaha
everybody has one nowadays... and i just dreamt of being hugged and kissed on the forehead by a friend whom i don't have feelings for...
but when i think about it i sigh... it feels good to be hugged and kissed on the forehead (for real)... it seemed so warm and innocent. whatadream.

koreanovelas have this thing about getting the best lovelife when you're already in your late 20's. i think they have a point there, you have to mature first... land a job and get stable. yeah. but filipinos mature easily, what with the poverty and repressed emotions? >_>; whatev. i'm talking crap here.

koreanovelas make me feel fluttery but it also makes me feel frustrated... should i wait till i'm already 30 years old to get that kind of romance? hahaha...

a good decision may be to disconnect from the internet, shut this computer down and go upstairs to study.

heck, we're having our first long exam on chem40 next week.
imagine, it's 2 months past the start of the second sem and we're just at our first exam???

kay, braincells???? let's work hard this year!
i wish you weren't exposed to too much ninhydrin last week. i really need your help this time. ♥

seriously... T_T;

i'm getting tired of hospital trips... the last last time i went there was because i got confined with UTI. And now, i mean yesterday, i was brought to the hospital again and was given an impression of pneumonia and enlargement of the heart. and all the while i thought this tightness that i feel around my right chest is just heartburn! i even took a lot of kremil-s and zantac!!! >__>;

now i'm medicating on a pain reliever, a flu tablet, and an antibiotic.
i just hope it's not something critical... for all i know pneumonia can be treated... and the elargement of the heart is just a manifestation of the viral infection i acquired. the doctor says, the heart resorts to enlarge itself to be able to pump in more blood so that we can breathe better. it's most common in althetes, because of their activities their hearts have to work extra hard with pumping blood so they get bigger... it's a good thing in this case yknow. however i don't think i'm athletic enough to grow my heart bigger...>__> which means mine's purely viral. yeah, that's it. i can hardly breathe properly these days and my back hurts too... sleeping on a chair is a damn bad idea. but then lying down could be worse... >__>;

oh, i just finished watching Coffee Prince!! ♥ wonderful, really. i enjoyed it! ♥ makes me more frustrated!!!

a bar of chocolate would definitely make my day. ♥

kremil-s, you do the job

hindi ko na talaga kaya.
ganito na lang ba magwawakas ang buhay ko?
>__<;

inatake nanaman ako. actually nung friday pa to. so 6 days na akong ganito... second time kong atakahin ng umabot ng halos isang linggo... nung una, sobrang unbearable hindi ako makatulog, iyak pa ko ng iyak so lalong naninikip ang dibdib ko...

nung 2nd time na nangyari... mejo tolerable na sya. pero andun parin yung sakit... takot akong humikab kasi kailangan huminga ng malalim e sumisikip pag ganun... i also supress my sneezes and coughs kasi nga masakit s dibdib!! grrr...

pero just awhile ago... mg mag aalas-tres ng umaga.. nagising ko sa sobrang sakit! hindi ko talaga kaya... sobrang LOOOOOORRRRDDD!! SORRY NA SA MGA NAISIP KONG KABABALAGHAN!!!! feeling ko pinaparusahan nyo... 3am ba naman kasi.

umupo na lang ako kasi sobrang hindi na ko makahinga ng maayos. shempre iyak parin ako ng iyak... so natulog na lang ako ng nakaupo kasi hirap na ko huminga pag nakahiga. sobrang sakit, grabe...

hindi ko lumangoy kanina... masakit parin eh... yan tuloy... nagka-utang pa ako ng 20 laps na freestyle... pool length pa! >_<;

so ayun... bili ulit kremil-s... baka maresolbahan kahit pano... pero masakit prin eh... pano kaya ako matutulog... pano kaya ko magppractis sa cheering? gusto ko magpaexcuse kasi nakakahiya pero haaaaay. :(

dpat punta ako ospital kaso luma pala yung health card na dala ko. kainis.

ayoko pa pumasok sa hist2. di ko p kaya. huhuhuhu

sana hindi ito GERD (gastroesophageal reflux disease), chronic heartburn o heart attack diba?

though i doubt it's anything milder. >___>

Lord, help me.

romance novel idea #349

a random number which implies that i've been through tons of novel ideas but never really got the chance to write them down or even complete the story in my mind...

so here, i'm going to write down my most recent romance novel idea...
one day -that's when i get my own laptop, a sponsor and a vocational course on writing- i'm going to write this.

so for the meantime... just try to understand the craziness of the plot.

STANDARD DISCLAIMER APPLY:
meaning, everything stated below (or technically, everything in here) IS MINE -unless otherwise stated. i take pure custody of my written thoughts.

please, no matter how crappy my ideas may seem... DON'T STEAL. it could mean the death of an author.


title: i haven't relly thought of it...
outline: heeeeeer ya gow!

♠ so there's a main character, for the meantime let's call him John.
♠ John is an undergraduate in a prestigious university undergoing his thesis research.
♠ blah blah blah, he met a girl we shall call (for the meantime) Sarah.
♠ so Sarah is also a student and a part time waitress at a decent bar.
♠ blah blah blah, they fell in love! oh the cliche...
♠ so they engaged in a relationship... a happy, weird and romantic one.. because John is kinda geeky and has really weird antics... blaaaaah

♠ but something quite unfortunate happened. John was diagnosed to have this severe psychological illness (wait till i get a good research, k?) in which he often experiences delusions.
♠ and sad to say, Sarah is part of this delusion.
♠ so the conflict here is whether he should get himself cured and totally eliminate Sarah from his mind, or get the proper medication and start a new life... without Sarah of course.
♠ so you know the drill, since John is so in love, he couldn't get his mind to decide properly. he's even accusing the doctor of false analysis...
♠ so he's confused. he doesn't know who's real.
♠ is it his friends who brought him to the hospital (because they're wondering why he's always talking to himself and even introduced an invisible girl named Sarah to them) and the doctor who said he's mentally ill?
♠ or is it Sarah, his friend, his lover, the most special person in his life?

well, i gotta leave it here... but rest assured everything has been thought out already! hurray for a romance novel idea! hahahaha

ang weird diba... hehehe

coffee prince again... ♥

i'm watching coffee prince streaming media at mysoju right now... i sorta grabbed the chance to watch it here in los banos because you know how fucked up the internet connection is at our place... :)

anyhow... i'm only 2 episodes ahead... huhuhu. i can't wait to watch the whole thing!!! bwahahaha... seriously, i sooo like Go Eun Chan's character in the series!!! cross-dressers are cool! i've come to realize...

more so... earlier this morning i went to watch our softball game with SELES, i didn't get to play even though deep inside i'd like to try. i really lack self-esteem you know. and i lack a lot...

which is why i realized something awhile ago... being timid wouldn't get you anywhere. i mean, it takes courage to try something new and it also takes courage to battle the fear of making yourself look like an idiot in front of everyone. i sometimes think if i'm still going to swim. heck i'm too shy to wear a swimsuit... and i'm also afraid of competing... i always think these people are way better than i am.

you got it. inferiority complex.

waiting for streaming media to download T_T

i'm back in los banos! quite a nice day i guess... i got here at 930am and decided not to attent my first class at 10, which is history2. the primary reason would be because i didn't read her assigned reading and i have this feeling that of all my classmates, i am the one who is most obliged to do so... because i was the one who dissipated the homework info in the first place. >_>; arggh... >__>;

but you know, i attended my next class which is es10a - 1pm. thing is, only a few of us came so we sort of boycotted the class. according to the university rule, we shall wait for an hour before we leave but i guess because most of my classmates are impatient jerks, i just followed and left the classroom as well. i wouldn't want to look like i'm so following the rules... even though deep inside, i would like to wait. those jerks...

♥ COFFEE PRINCE ♥
kumare just bought a DVD and is doing a marathon of the series already! she promised to lend me the disc next week!!! I'M FREAKIN EXCITED!!!!! yeheeeeey!!!
i have a crush on andy!!!! :D hehehe, yeah, i like him (or her) more than the leading guy!!!

the series is perfect! (at least for me!) i love coffee and well, the whole homosexual theme is so new (in live action form) that's why it made an incredible pilot episode... hahaha well... you know me. :)

haaay, i'm so excited to watch Coffee Prince again.

♠CRAP♠

school again tomorrow... much worse they're lab meetings! uggggh..T_T and as much as i'd like to go home already for the weekend... I CAN'T! because i volunteered to play on our softball game against SELES this saturday. waaaaaaahhhh...

but the thing is... i've been having PMS already and i bet it'll come out anytime soon!! i just hope it's not on saturday because usually, my first day is the crappiest of the seven days of bloody hell i go through every month. the earlier the better... like, could it be now?

grrr... >__>;