scholastic wreck

wow i'm in such a pit. whoever among my multipolar consciences told me it's okay to handle this much load could die now. and i'm serious. i'm flunking like crazy. here's how and imma break it down per subject

philhis - i could probably get a fairly high grade in this but definitely not a 4.00. too much memorization involved and my last quiz sucked, plus my attendance has already been tarnished with tardiness! argh. imma teacher's pet here but i don't think it's gonna pay off. too strict.

socncul - my quizzes sucked but i managed to get exempted from the finals which is a good thing. but my freakin quizzes are a wreck. i'm also looking forward to my being a teacher's pet to pay off, hopefully!

acctg1b - this is totally hopeless. my quizzes and exams are all faring below 90 in average. iyak nako.

english4 - i'll do whatever it takes to ace this one. this isn't a very problematic subject but it's something i have to focus dead on into so as to make sure it'll help raise my average at least! huhu

arintel - no problem. except for this ultra chever expert system we're asked to create as a project. freakin clueless!

opesys - the project!!! c++ what?! 

thesis1 - biggest hurdle of all hurdles in a track field. i'm preparing my eyes for saturday cos i know (as usual!!!) i'm gonna cry!!!! bwahahaha

profeth - no problem? maintain!

HAHAHAHAHA so after all, i'm exaggerating. but you see, in thesis1 and accounting, FOR SURE, i wouldn't get anything higher than 3. so Lord, let it be 2.75 at least. please? and socncul too, no greater than an already disappointing 3.25, promise.

i swear i'm going to cry if i lose my full scholarship. and i'm gonna lock myself in my room and avoid my friends and everyone. i'm gonna live like a hermit and leave everything behind. imma leave ICON, CBS, FCLC and SAship. and. just. die.

weh joke lang. arte arte kasi e no. me pa blog blog pa, pwede naman kasi gawin yung project muna diba? HAHAHAHA

wanna bet pakbet? it's joketime bwahahahaha.

hindi ako si darna.

pretty girls!

yesterday i saw tae kyung at school! >XO and guess what, she's a junior from holy. what the hell. she still sports the same beiber hair but now her gender is finally identified because of the familiar brown fugly uniform. last time we saw her, she's too boyish. hahaha i don't want to be reminded of how holy has been turned into a lesbian pen over the years. during my stay there, the ratio's probably a safe 5 out of 200. now, i dunno. society has twisted everyone's mind into accepting homosexuality as a safe, non-evil cause to be fought for greater equality but no. why. why?! i don't understand how the equality we fight for has become so literal. asdghashjfsdqsc

hello thesis where the fudge are youuuu?! >XO srsly! my groupmates and i are so freakin lax i dunno what's gonna happen to us this shatterday. lol we're literally 0% on the program code. BWAHAHAHAHA what happened to me. >X| bad vibes. bad vibes. i'm seriously considering abandoning this. but of course, i'll try not to let shift happen. but it can't be helped! i have like 3 days to learn a programming language that is a complete alien to me. and i'm hating the other classes for having uber simple theses about webdev! grrr

nakakatawa. nakakatawa. pero sige dun na to sa kabilang blog. hahahahahahaha

i have so much to blog about! every time i go out and take photos on the streets or anywhere, i always think of blogging about it here kaso fuuuudge. waley ng time! tsk >X(

wew

the competition isn't even tight so don't go around thinking you're that good. props to your efforts anyway, you deserved it... seriously and sarcasm aside. i knew it was good, i had faith in it but you failed to keep your mouth shut. what you let speak for itself, instead, spoke about yourself.

let's see. most people kinda don't understand what an organization is. typically, school organizations should be self sufficient, charges on members are usual, contributions are compulsory and sponsorship is essential. it is money that makes the organization work. it is utterly ridiculous to propose activities that are entirely FUND CONSUMING. we are not a charitable institution. we must raise funds. an organization who outflows cash more than it earns it not quite an impressive organization.

hopeless

i feel so frakking hopeless! >X'O i was literally in tears bawling about the probability of what i could possibly lose by taking this much load. Lord, help me. >XO i feel depressed and shaken and crap and blah but i don't wanna let go of anything. like srsly. arg. socncul and that friggin thesis!

hay Lord. thank you. God bless us tomorrow and the following days to come!

masyadong masaya! >XD

why do i have a feeling that this cannot be? like i can't be too happy cos all of these could be taken away from me in an instant. >XO i can't be too lucky cos the universe demands balance and i could be robbed of equal luck the next days. anyway, why talk about luck. this isn't luck, these are blessings! and i'm just reaping them right (i guess?! or am i harvesting too early? >XO)! these are gifts, right. not something i actually traded anything for. e pano nga kung ano! waaaah. Lord, wag mo muna ko bawian. i need more of your blessings! thank you so much.  my golly, i wanna cry na. You are so good, and i am so blessed.

bye! >:D

PS. i wish i could be less nega yaknow. like. kainis eh. >XO pano kasi.