enlightenment my ass!

i thought i got it all cleared up already.
i never figured it was TOO LATE.

so, i'm not tranferring anymore. damn me and my reckless decisions. it would be painfully hard for me to leave, not because i've grown an attachment to my course (that, i have not achieved yet), but because i want to see how far i can go to change myself and my attitude towards my academics. haaaay.

so yeah, i'll be staying. hopefully, for good. :)

please wish me all the best. ;)

i'm rather out of focus nowadays.
not just nowadays! i see that i've been living the same regretful lifestyle for one and a half years, and i'm afraid it wouldn't be easy to change that.




I HAVE A RATHER INTERESTING FIC IDEA!!! yeheeeey!


Title: Remember When It Rained
Summary: How far would Draco go about restraining his vampiric urges on Harry? Vampire!Draco. HPDM.

hehehe, i wanna write it now! hehehe haaaay wish me luck on this one! :)
i love vampires!

now it's beginning to clear up

i want to tranfer schools already. i'm planning on leaving UPLB and transferring to FEU-Fern to start college all over again. :)

my parents are happy with my decision, as much as i am happy about myself finally giving in to pursue what i really desire over taking up a competitive course at the cost of ruining my whole life.

please please, i'm talking to You up there, help me on this.

it is not always that i get enlightened like this.

have you seen that ferrari?

i changed my desktop! hehe, the wallpaper got me drooling you know. it's a ferrari, i'm not sure what exactly but i don't care! i usually don't, as long as it appeals to me, i'm game. :) i don't even care if it looks manly, whoever said girls don't have the right to display cars on their desktop? i'm not car-fancy though (but when get to drive i'd probably get myself a bit savvy)... i'm specifically ferrari-crazed. it started with the logo, then to the lux and racing cars... but mostly, it's still the logo.

oh yeah, it also captures my favorite windows media player skin... :)

i've been listening to Josh Groban's album, Closer, the whole day. it makes me feel aliiiivvveeeee!!

i'm kinda happy too because a lot of people are now noticing and giving me credit for my style of drawing. i personally think it's unique but i haven't got much exposure. :)

anywaaaaaay, to restrain my violent urges to continue reading book two of twilight (because i can't recover from the hang-over), i'm gonna read Almost Heaven by Judith McNaught first. it's unfair how my attention was immediately sweeped over to twilight when i was just starting Almost Heaven. i have to make ammends and give justice to the book. :) it's interesting too, but you know. damn you edward for making me do endless babbles like this. like i have done a serious crime to a BOOK.

blue eyed sun

that's the low resolution scan. i've already uploaded it in my DA account, please check it out here. :)

i did that while waiting for my parents to arrive hehe, cos they need someone to open the gate for them, haaay and they came really late (or early) --- 2 am. hahaha

hope you like it. well, i liked it! hehe :) i'm trying to use my colored gel pens before they dry out of ink! and i found this old scrapbook in the shelf with a lot of unused pages so i tore them off and used them. i'm gonna draw a lot from now on... not that i'm not drawing a lot you know hahaha. :) it's been a while since i updated my gallery! please check out my gallery! thanks!

still for archuleta

even though he lost this season of AI, i know he'll still make it big. like duh? i'm not a fan of AI in general, in fact the first AI episode i watched was last night, the Final 2 showdown. i was just compelled to watch because everyone seems to talk about it, this season has become one of the most popular AIs ever.

anyway, david a. is still young and still has a lot to go! but it hurts me that he only won runner-up when he could've bagged the 1st place, performance-wise. well, there's the votes, what can i do. it somehow struck me hard when i heard he lost because i feel like i can't afford to see him crying! he's seems so delicate and fragile that i would never want to hurt him, even as a fan.

and just like that, i have to accept the fact that cook won. he's got more spunk, yeah, but that hardly turned me on cos to me he seemed too proud of himself. but whatever, congratulations david cook. :)

aw, don't be sad david a., you're still the real winner for me. :)