trust God

have faith! >:'(

the punishment

i feel like dying of depression. ang sakit, ang sakit sa dibdib. one of the best things i've ever wanted for myself is to graduate with (the highest) honors. emphasis on "the highest". if i'm not on the top, parang err dibale na wag na lang. i won't get any bragging rights for only being 2nd or 3rd best. but oh well. tadhana nga naman. mukang hindi yata para sakin ang karangalang iyon. i'm not getting a laude. i want to cry. soooo bad. it feels like everything i've worked so hard for has been burnt to the bones. parang, teka lang. panira kasi UPLB. sobrang paniraaaa. then again, sinong sumira? k fine! ako na! grrrr napaka-stupid ko naman para i-assume na they wouldn't include my UPLB grades in my GWA (well that's what some prof told me kasi so ako naman tong si confirm!), para san nga naman ang credit evaluation diba.

maybe i need some time, space, coffee and a punching bag to get over this super emotional downturn. yung totoo, excited ako umakyat sa stage eh. sobra. kaso. hay. and alam nyo yun, sobrang ang daming nag-eexpect, pati ako ang laki ng expectations ko pero. ugh. wala eh. wala talaga eh. 

ngayon lang naman ako naging kampante eh. kasi isa na lang kelangan kong pagpaguran pero kahit na ibuhos ko pa 100% ko dito sa huling laban na to, talo na ko to begin with. i wish i had known earlier! whew. hay Lord. buti na lang bibigyan mo ko ng pera bukas.

and i'm not expecting anyone to fully understand how hard it is for me to accept this "failure". maliban na lang kung kasing ambisyosa ko kayo. hay blog. i need to learn how to be thankful for whatever i've achieved so far. i may not have reached my goal but i've left enough foot prints to prove how far i've gone.

to-do to-dohan list na sa isip ko'y di maalis

Dean's List Awarding

• food stubs
• list
• post
• seat plan
• program
• canteen
• certificates
• frames/paper
• invitation
• sir john
• technical
• laptop/projector
• national anthem
• invocation
• bg sounds

Yearbook

• post 1,500
• post dates to remember
• update letter (add faculty pics)
• letter from icon adviser
• letter for ads
• letter for messages from dept heads, dean, pres
• rex pub update

ICON

• election

THESIS

• thesis

So much to do, so little coffee!

proud daughter! >XD

here at makati shang for mommy's awarding, it's a yearly thing the whole family is always looking forward to! free hotel accommodation and best of all, complimentary buffet breakfast! that means free EAT ALL YOU CAN at HEAT! i don't even know how cool that restaurant is, but since it's inside a 5 star hotel, maybe it's some kind of a Spiral at Sofitel. lol who cares, i can't wait to eat! Hihihi

i'm so lucky that we get to experience such things! this is luxury night and i want to enjoy it but terai is down with mommy where the party is and i want to swim and eat and blaaaah but i figured, i could just enjoy the night by... watching Gossip Girl S02 or by doing thesis *chokes*

uggh, nevermind! GG time! >XD

sample profile page for the yearbook

>XD i'm kinda proud of this!

that is a sample profile page i created last night so we could show our batchmates something to look forward to for the yearbook during the grad briefing awhile ago! i'm pretty pleased with the feedback, all of them seem so supportive! i hope they'll be able to extend their support financially as well! hahaha