happy anniversary!!!!!

i love you mommy and daddy! :) :) :)

only reminds me of you

walangya! di pa ko nagaaral sa math and chem! bukas na exam namin! grrr... super wala na akong peraaaaaa!!!! pinangutang ko pa itong pang-internet ko pati na rin yung dinner ko! hahaha kakainis.... pati kape ha, take note, nangutang din ako para lang makainom ng nescafe freeze.... dahil alam kong uumagahin ako sa pag-aaral. :{

naiinis ako. i can't see the bright side of it all. fuck. >_>

o sha, "mag-aaral" na ako.

aynaku. napaka mahiyain ko talaga... >_> ayoko kumanta! ayoko rin sumayaw! ni umarte ayoko din! i hate performing arts! visual arts lang ang gusto ko.. grrrrrrr.....
nauubusan na ako ng hope. hahaha... walang kwenta ang linggong ito! grabe talaga!!! i don't think makakauwi ako this weekend! gusto ko na umuwi!!!!! T___T

i love nerds

i have another crush! hehehehe, di na ko naubusan ng crush... hehehee but before that... guess where i am? i'm still in LOS BANOS! hehe i didn't go home this weekend because i need to study for my two exams on monday (math36 and chem32) hehe, but apparently i haven't studied yet! hehehehe... :{

eto na yung bago kung crush... ganun parin naman ang mga tipo ko..yung naka-glasses! parang ganito
ang galing galing! hihihi... oha! drinowing ko yan sa MS paint (hehe as usual!) art na bang maituturing ito? o sige, dahil dyan... i'm putting this under art! hahahahahaha
yehey! yehey!
whew! nakakapagod magreport! pero lagi lang tandaan... everything worth waiting is worth having!! yehey yehey!!! :)

go swallow me whole

do not
aba makulit ka
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let me count the times i cried this morning... that's probably gonna sum up to 4x, more or less. fuck. ok, so i'm entering the most crucial part of becoming a member of an organization and by the looks of it, i'm not enjoying it. not even a single bit. sorry, i just have to let this out. but i won't quit. never. unless we get physical. think of the reward arianne! keep moving forward! don't cha-cha! whaaat??!

fuck. what's the main reason of my, uh, shallow outbursts anyway? i didn't study my tickler. i didn't memorize anything, i didn't do a research beforehand on the people i'm going to report to. that's why. i cried because i'm speechless, i can't say anything, i can't answer objective questions. that's why. ohyeah. but i don't mind crying, it's an outlet. >_> oh, and they broke my tickler. fuck. i have to go about the funny stitches again. and it's not even funny to have your tickler look dugyutin right after you felt proud of finishing it.... at 2am.

if you can relate, fine. if you can't... leave this entry.

i'm not taking everything seriously, because that's what they said. ewan, parang mas mahihirapan ako sa objective type of reporting kesa dun sa kinukupal. e kung pagsamahin? patay... >_>

uy ano ba yan, while i was heading home... may mga nakasalubong akong friends. and fuck! you don't know how much i resisted the urge to open up! yung umiyak lang kasi palpak ako. pero hindi pede e... sikretong malupit! >_>

o dibale, first day palang naman e. whatever talaga, ang hirap magpasked, di ko sila kilala lahat. >_>;

hay hay hay. harry potter, i miss you but i can't see you right now. maybe after a month. para solo na kita sa sinehan. kung showing ka pa... :(

sige sige next time ulit... :}

strange disease

i miss that song! hehehe oooooh it's raining! how's life? fine fine fine! tomorrow is the start of our reporting. i hope i gave them the right impression awhile ago. kamown! i don't want them to test my determination!!! i don't want them to do things like, 'o ano gagawin mo ba o pupunitin ko tickler mo?' oh no, but if ever that happens, bahala sila punitin yung tickler ko! basta ayoko! hahahaha...

homaygulay. harry potter is neaaaarrr! kimmy my daughter have me a HP5 poster from Kzone! yehey!!!

i'm changing this layout very very soon! as soon as i go home this weekend pramis!!! :) i've found a really great skeleton layout for my next layout. whew. everytime i see my prof's laptops i get really envious! i feel like i'm not for chem. eng'g! i feel like i'm really destined for computer science!! i'm fascinated with html, css and java! i like doing stuff with the computer! but there's only one thing holding me back... and that is the huge amount of sweat and braincells i sacrificed taking up my chemistry subjects. and for crying out loud, i'm on my 4th chem already! and it's just my 2nd semester in the university. why back out? go atoms! wtf.

to those who reviewed my stories in ffnet:
thanks a lot! it's been more than a year since i last updated and i'm still getting reviews! thank you thank you! i promise to read more to enhance my grammar. i'm losing it, honestly. >_>

my dormmate says it's abnormal to fancy a celebrity a lot. people say that my 'love' for ryan agoncillo is already abonormal. I BEG TO DISAGREE! i don't even know his birthday!! i only have one picture of him and that's his promotional pic from penshoppe and it's not even with me! i'm not his stalker! i've never seen him in person! but i do love him, as a fan. :) and as a fan, even though it (kinda) hurts to see he's already engaged... i must accept that fact because... it gave him more media exposure. hehehe and that's an advantage... at one point. yeah

he's also the reason why i spell my name R-yan. :) oh! i have a shirt with my name on the back spelled R-yan! hehehe

another one! our japanese dormmate (ate diane) brought his ITALIAN boyfriend here yesterday! we were like, Fernando Jose is that you???? >_> and he's so handsome! his name is Mariano...super tall, very mexicanovela material. cebilisimo! (???) and he brought us a box of swiss chocolates. kamown!!! go ate diane! pakasal na kayo! invite us!!!

i'm itching to change this layout. :{