you're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be

shit. i wanna go to college. please please let me go to college. i have to sidetrack myself away from this. i don't want what i'm feeling right now. it's all coming back, i don't want to go back to highschool. maybe i do, but for the sole reason of apologizing to mrs. resterio. my conscience is bugging me like hell. sorry mrs. resterio, if you happen to read this. sorry sorry. i will never do it again. forgive me because i won't forgive myself if you don't. aaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!! i know this not for me to shoulder alone but mehn, i'm just so guilty.

on the cheesy side. how do you know if it's love?
mehn, i hate being reminded of it especially in dreams. ayan tuloy, i'm confused. first love never dies? is it true? e naman eh... you you go away come again another day.

i'm done with the fifth chapter. i'm losing the grammar. and yes, people are quesitoning it. i was too absorbed with literature in 4th yr. that i never cared about grammar anymore. ahahahaa... it sucks but i have no time to have it beta-read. the only person i know who can beta my fic is laura becuase, i don't know. because she promised not to laugh at it.

i'm listening to iris - goo goo dolls while writing and it just dawned on me that the lyrics is very much related to the fic. ayun, kaya ako natapos kaagad.

iris is now my favorite song.

i think i'm gonna cry when i finish writing. tsk.

half of me wants to forget ___ but half of me is also longing to see ___. i'm confused. but somehow i have to move on and focus on something else. like my freakin grammar. i think i failed all my english teachers.

meeehn, fanfiction.net is having frequent server overloads. they have to fix it real soon if they don't want to have their reputation tarnished. or perhaps they have to expand their bandwidth and reformat everything without sacrificing an hour or so of being inaccessible. i hate it when that happens.

i'm tired of adventure quest. it's getting boring, especially that our processor is a very olats pentium 3. and our computer is a 2nd hand chop chop.

hello santa claus, if you happen to read this. please send me a new computer on christmas. pentium 4 or core 2. you have 3 months to save for it. thank you.

yeheeeeyyy!

i feel productive today. i did the laundry, i exercised and finished re-making the events outline for my fic. remember, my dad unintentionally deleted it. golly, i nearly cried. masiyadong madrama!
i'm currently writing the fifth chapter. i hope i do get more reviews before i upload it. haha.. it's not normal that i get more than ten reviews per chapter since i mostly write crap. oh well, that's melodia04 for you, still desperate for reviews.

i haaatteee Adventure Quest. i can't login!!! grrr... i'm stuck at level 11 because there's always a 'server full' error i get whenever i try to login!! i am starting to curse the publicity its getting.
i first heard of it in Convergence, but now i see its ad everywhere. and you know how effective advertising it. i should've been thankful because it has grown quite popular but the fact that because of its traffic i'm not getting a slot to play, that's a different story.

weee, love story in harvard na!

another one bites the dust

ahahaha. it's been a while since i last sang that song with it's backtracked lyrics "it's fun to smoke marijuana... it's fun to smoke marijuana... marijuananana marijuananana...". i could only sing it with jami, i don't know why. everytime i sing that song, i feel possessed (at least others think i am). i look like a deranged drug addict.

hahahaha, yesterday was great! yahooo! 11 of us came! me, nez, carla, karlita, hannah, jami, ding, ka, kim, martha and laura! hahaha ang dami namin... saya! we played a little in timezone, ate dinner and split to watch click and the devil wears prada. haaaaaayyy. i feel so happy. i'll miss you all. =)

i had my first dairy queen there. ahaha, and of course my first gateway cinema ticket. hihi.

i am so alive

haaay. i feel goooooooooddddd!!! yeah!
hehe. i uploaded the 4th chapter of my fic at fanfiction.net yesterday and i'm glad that it reached 10 reviews already on its first day. yay. that's why i feel so alive and inspired to write today. reviews = multivitamins.

unfortunately, dadddy accidentally deleted the events outline i made for the story. sad. now i don't know what will happen next, the only thing i remember is the ending which is sad but happy. figure that. haaay.

ayan, nahihiya na tuloy ako mag promote ng fic. nahihiya ako mabasa ng isang kaibigan. haha shempre kasi alam ko lahat sila magagaling sumulat. haha inferiority complex. =\ parang mas gusto ko pa mabasa ng strangers bwahaha. basta... review lang ng review! kahit pangit pa yan ayus lang!

after that fic i'll probably make another harryXdraco. based on the story of orpheus and eurydice! haha, traggic. tsk.

grrr. fanfiction.net net is advertising Adventure quest! kaya pala laging flooded pag naglologin ako!! haynaku!

shane on me

i miss shane. haha as in shane mc-something in the L word. she plays a lesbian role there. yeah right. i'm over that, ever since i felt so dooooommmeeeeddd when i left my bond paper sized picture of her with a love poem in the chapel during our recollection. wahahaaa... memories. i remember how funny it was to think that the nuns found out that their student is crushing over a lesbian. or maybe, they didn't think she was a she when they saw the picture and besides, Shane is a unisex name.

we passed over milla jovovich's billboard for mango awhile ago in c5 and she was gorgeous. =)